If I transform my unconcious mind to my concious mind. Will "THE

And if you are one of them, dont kill me.

Tsk, tsk.
Bad, bad anon.
We don't need to kill you, you are going to die by yourself in that path.
Farewell

>>19075061
Why would I die in this path?
Answer me as soon as you can.

>>19075064
Why should We answer?
You think you are smart?
Try.

>>19075070
If you dont answer me I will find the answer myself by this exact procedure.

Maybe I will die in the process, but so be it. It's what I believe.

>THE SECRET
depend as to which secret you refer

DONT KILL ME.
I WILL NOT PURSUE ANYTHING

DONT KILL ME, I STOP AND I HAVE NOTHING TO DO WITH THIS.

>>19075075
Very well then.
Even if you end up dead we will meet again anon.

>>19075084
If you don't know which secret is he talking about then you are one of those.
>>19075091
You aren't OP.

>>19075102
I know.
I even figured out in these minutes how not to suicide by my paranoia.

In the next step maybe we meet, but you wont take me there.

>>19075108
I was writing these and a mod could confirm.
Now I have calmed myself, because I understand what he meant by me ending up dead by these thoughts.

I thank you for the warning. I pray for your cause, because of the warning. I thank you.

I can already feel how things are weighing heavier on my head. Stop.

>>19075109
I don't help in the Journey, but warn of the dangers.
>>19075117
I saw it late, apologies.
>>19075126
It's your own paranoia, stop thinking about anything.

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>>19075050

>What do you do if they just won't stop?

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=jmG0Vp5JDdQ

>>19075143
Thank you so much for this help.
In these few minutes I have realized so much.

I will pray for your future.

I will pursue this when I am ready.

Why is The Secret regarded as BS but chaos magick isn't? How are the principles different?

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>>19075050
You subconcious is not you...

There is a deity and very advanced technology being used to guide your life. It knows what you desire and the program will either help you achieve or cripple you chances because its evil and doesn't seem to really care about anything good at all.

Anyway here's a video demonstration of the subconcious program and deity creating art together while the person goes along for the ride.

Your mind is basically retarded and you don't have the ability to calculate what needs to be calculated to perform the tasks you want. You don't have the abilitity to control the motors of your body.

The program dictates your life the gives you desires to do stuff so you think you're in control but its all a lie. The program wants to do what it wants the basically drugs you with emotions so you think you're in control and doing what you want.

Its all a lie and we are prisoners in our own bodies. Don't touch girls ever. They are more mentally distorted than guys and basically spending their lives being molested and raped. Its not funny there are really women and guys totally trapped in themselves with not even the fake sense of control. There are women who are trapped in themselves and their bodies won't let them have a sense of control and whores them.

We need to identify the technology being used and a wayvto monitor women so they aren't molested.

Take women like beautiful sluts and explain that you know humans are being mind controlled and monitor their brain activity and compare to as many others as possible so we can find if there's a noticeable change in activity and then can determine which people are trapped in themselves like prisoners being used

I usually have a sense of cobtrol but i know that at sone points i get turned off instantly like a robot and unsure of what happens at those times.

Like i went for an operation and while about to be put to sleep i suddenly instantly shut off
https://www.liveleak.com/view?i=283_1496083279

>>19075050
John Micheal Greer frowns upon you

>>19075050
U won't die ... Ur correct ... "Where thoughts go, energy flows, results will show"

Don't listen to shills

>>19075215
There is a sense of righteousness and it's the new natural selection

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>>19075155
You are welcome anon.

Guys, you have nothing to see here.
>/thread

I have poisoned my mind with alcohol tonight, it gives me peace. And at daylight tomorrow I can find the strength to endure the next night. And I can sleep with safety surrounding me

For now my poisonous habits have been repeated. And tomorrow I will reconsider my actions. At least I live to tomorrow. Peace to all who wish peace upon me. Maybe we will meet one day. Blessings and prayers to you who pray for me.

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>>19075260
>>19075244
>>19075050


Blessings and Prayers to you All.

In nomine Patris et Filii et Spiritus Sancti

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=M0d4qM7gCH8

are you guys talking about the despair code?

The light has all the answers. You are losing hope, because you're afraid to leave the shadow. We know what you did. This timeline leads to nothing. You should have ascended when you had the chance. Don't let your instincts keep deceiving you. We know what you fucking did.

words of power? who ami

>>19075050

Yes.

But you must also destroy the self to get rid of impurities.

Death is usually the best way to do this, but most give in to the alluring current.

>>19075330

This day will be the last one of poison. And I pray that I will have the strength to stop

>>19075318
Shh, don't utter that name anon.
>>19075340
Are you a Helper? First time I see one...

>>19075346

>Are you a Helper?

I was named that (gaelic) for a reason, yes.

>>19075346
HOW DO I START TO USE THE DESPAIR CODE? I don't care anymore about my sanity, just tell me
[email protected] email

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This thread is fucking stupid and it reminds me how much you roleplaying faggots have shit up this board.

God damn you dumb mother fuckers should just read The Red Book by Carl Jung already.

Pro tip: the secret is in your dreams

>>19075360

I find the dream of reality to be much more inspiring.

It's a combination of both, you must understand.

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have we done the rahuilio?

>>19075360
I find your lack of faith... disturbing.
>>19075354
How dare you. You don't search the Code, the Code searches you.

>>19075360
I have some problems with myself, but I would never roleplay. That is below me.

To the others, thanks for the hints. I will reserach this tomorrow and cure my insanity or go more insane.

>>19075376
surely all I have to do is witness and work out patterns in my subconscious and it'll start? you may as well be straight with me, I can prove I have control far above most who attempt. So yes, fuck you, I'll post publicly

>>19075376
The code found me in 9th grade.
I chose my mental health above it, what is this code? I hope the threads get archived so I can read it when I dare.

See the truth beneath the glow off the ebb and flow, where the roots grow, for in mine void a pale horse burns

>>19075244
is there any way you can tell me about this? I'm willing to do anything

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>>19075443

Everyone has their own path.

Just keep learning, and keep your heart warm.

>>19075399
Wew lad, you can't take a joke don't ya...
As I like to say... /x/ is 89% bullshit, 10% interesting and 1% mindfuck stuff.
Just... don't make assumptions that fast, thank you.
>>19075443
>>19075405
I'm not a Helper. I must Warn, no more.

>>19075050
no

>>19075464
How can I be warned if I don't know what I'm being warned of? can you allude to it without explicitly saying so i'll know?

>>19075473
Why are you digging in this? Think your answer thrice.

It starts with an L

^_^

>>19075489
Because I have terminal cancer and want to go out with some secrets

>>19075498
what does?

>>19075473

The pattern may become all consuming.

You may begin dissociating utterly.

You may die of your own volition.

>>19075509
I'm aware of that, and I'm aware of how absolute detachment feels.
[email protected]

no i'm sorry I didn't mean that really, please stop now and I won't pry any more. Some things are best left alone.
>>19075509

>>19075509
I don't want to know anymore

>>19075050
I too have recently have found out that I've left a trail of breadcrumbs in the past life for the current me.

I have not felt this fear I feel tonight since I was in 9th grade. The bad convincing memories are coming back. I know how the simplest hidden realities works, sometimes I wish I did not.

Goodnight I hope I can sleep.

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>>19075502

>Do not give dogs what is holy; do not throw your pearls before swine. If you do, they may trample them under their feet, and then turn and tear you to pieces. 7Ask and it will be given to you; seek and you will find; knock and the door will be opened to you. 8For everyone who asks receives; he who seeks finds; and to him who knocks, the door will be opened.…

Matthew 7:7

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=rcKahraBiBY

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=i5T7ShhaRo8

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>>19075576

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=8GavVjuVko0

Do you really?

>>19075608
why did you post that youtube video? pretty classic christmas tune.

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>>19075050
It will consume and destroy you. But, you're already consumed and how you react will ultimately be up to you. Just be aware your ending has already been decided and there is no way to change it and you don't make it to the top of the mountain.

>>19075646
So what're the benefits of trying and succeeding?

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>>19075664
The benefits being that you will see things and experience things you were never meant to. Just be careful, you will have trouble keeping your brains from turning to mush. Just learn how to disassociate certain thoughts from certain feelings and it will keep you sane longer.

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>>19075646

Wow, such sage wisdom. Tell me more.

>>19075681
Are there certain phrases or words that are strongly associated with involuntary feelings?

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>>19075681

Sounds pretty horrifying; how will I ever face that?

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=wuKdQIVUrDg

>>19075699
It's a blissful experience anon.

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>>19075688

I love you.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=wHV2W63XO5c

>>19075707
Thank you anon <3 that wasn't what I meant, more like trigger words, but thanks senpai

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>>19075688
The lower leveled beings will try to manipulate you on a primal level. There is two things that relate to these feelings, hunger and sex. As for a phrase there is nothing that I know of. But from personal experience evil seems to be afraid of Yeshua, so if you call out for that support a lot of lower to midlevel problems seem to dissipate. Also, pick an emotional level that you can stick with and if you venture from that you'll know you're being pushed down a different path. If your want to do this is good then you will find a lot of support from outside forces.

>>19075753
I'm not making any commitments, i'll consider it for a very long while. Where would I start if I decide to?

>>19075753
>dat pic
<3

>>19075682

>It will consume and destroy you.

People automatically assume this as an ending. What is the end, if not allowing something to begin?

>>19075560

Love yourself.

Even in the pain, especially in the pain.

Treat those around you with that same dignity.

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>>19075714

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Kuhc8RROw10

Why do you suppose Excalibur is a trigger word?

>>19075767
Well, I'm not sure. My experience started with the child experiments of the '90's. And it sort of branched out from that. I do know 9f a lot of people who sell their souls, for the love of God do not do this, and I've met people who were extremely psychic who got picked up by different branches of "these" people. My best piece of advise would be to make a pact with God and do what is advised by your own spiritual masters. Never fall for the flesh and what it will offer.

>>19075789
Should i play that youtube video or not anon? would it be good for me? And what if i say excalibur out loud?

>>19075791
hmm yeah probably not then ahah. Thanks for the info anon :)
Would you say your experiences are from childhood trauma?

>>19075789
oh shit its probably placebo but i just played 3 seconds of that video and felt pretty anxious.

>>19075809
Yes and no. I was at the wrong place at the wrong time.

>>19075831

But you're still here, surely not.

>>19075838
Are you talking about being alive or different realms?

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>>19075420
>YUH!!

>>19075841
ayyyyyyyyy

>>19075840

Both, I suppose.

I'm appreciative for all the trials, failures, and bad deals that have landed me here. Just as I am grateful for all the successes, love I've known, etc. They've all taught me things, even the absolutely traumatic.

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>>19075802

>Are you worthy?

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=nq8oLc6dT6A

>>19075869
yeah of course I know what the excalibur sword represents, be less vague about things and maybe we'll get somewhere

>>19075869

Only one way to find out, innit?

>>19075895
yay, lets all be as vague as possible! what way? how?

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>>19075912
>>19075895

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=IxH_LqIXtW4

I understand a lot of folks here are roleplaying, whether they're aware of it or not. And I understand, it feels good to leave hints at things that make you FEEL like you "know". If I come up with some vague reference or instruction that doesn't really have a solution, it feels like I've become a part of an elite group, a collective of people who "know". It all feels even better when others chip in to build the secret, like making up an inside joke simply to laugh at your one friends reaction to not knowing it.

And that's fine! It's good to want to know, to desire the feeling of knowing. If nothing else it shows that you're aware that there is something TO "know".

But please, understand that it needs to be left behind. The desire to know is still a desire, and you can't "know" until you've given up the desire to know. Instead understand that you will, in time, and there's very little you can actively do to hurry that along. It's a passive thing - I would like a beard, but I know that with my baby-faced genetics it's going to be a long while before I can grow anything beyond meager scraps. To desire after it is simply a waste of thought, while to know it will come to pass is a quiet peace.

Putting on a show, roleplaying, fabricating an inside joke all comes at the cost of the one doing the searching, the one asking the questions. It taxes and frustrates until the seeker decides "You know what? Fuck it, even if there is a secret answer behind all this bullshittery and vagueness I can't be assed to even care anymore." and leaves the roleplayers behind.

This leaves you alone with yourself, your supposed spiritual authorities of the internet now seen as fuckwit summerfags making up inside jokes because they never had them in school. Whether or not that's actually true doesn't matter, your perception of the whole thing is tainted and /x/ becomes shit for you.

Sorry for rambling the fuck out, but I'm feeling pretty schizo so cont.

>>19076541
The issue that I've reached in all this is the self awareness of my growing insanity, as most would call it. I myself am not an appropriate judge of insanity vs clarity because if I am insane, the judgement is worthless. The big difference between fucks like me rambling on here versus fucks rambling out on the streets is that the bums have stopped asking/never asked themselves if they're actually just off their goddamn rockers.

Are my visions at all credible, do they point to any actual point of "knowing"? Does the use of a drug as a tool invalidate my experience even further? Is the old me going to have to watch as the new Schizo me comes into being? I'm certainly not going to stop myself from changing, but my current goal is to retain a sense of balance to avoid going so Schizo I can no longer interact with anyone meaningfully.

In essence, trust your own gut. Lead yourself into your own psychosis instead of falling into someone elses. Keep searching, but recognize that most of the supposed authority figures are just more and more advanced forms of roleplayers, conscious or otherwise. Proposed "powers" that people may attain through their practices are little more than skills of awareness and influence that anyone can learn. One of the biggest pitfalls is the feeling you get when you convince yourself you "know", just like the satisfaction obese people get when they believe "I've already done enough, I'm beautiful and healthy now, I'm already there!"

TL;DR just try and be fucking real with each other people. Don't lead people on with the prize of "knowing", you're just being a frustrating cunt. Don't let cunts lead you on with the prize of "knowing" or you'll end up in a cult.

And please, enlightenment doesn't necessitate that you noticeably and artificially "heighten" your writing. It's the first step towards namefagging as "One-eyed Seer Amanaphothep".

Just be real.

>>19076633
Congratulations, you are the first one who doesn't want to play games here so you got a prize.

You want the Dispair Code? Ask Spanner.

>>19075050
Yes obviously.

>>19075091
PLEASE KILL ME.

>>19078519
No.

>>19075318
WHAT IS THIS DESPAIR CODE EVERYONE KEEPS REFERRING TO

>>19078753
a dead meme

>>19078756
Nooooooope!

>>19075050
Clearly /x/ isn't dead. Relax Anon. Breathe.

>>19076541
>"I can't be assed to even care anymore." And leaves the roleplayers behind.

>>19078801
Alrighty then. Speaking of ambiguous. Are you giving advice to hundreds of people, that don't want it? Most people aren't going to read a post that long. Much less one that thinks it has 4chan figured out. We don't even have it figured out. It's become its own life form.

>>19078815
Fair point - I don't intend to claim I know anything certain about users, just that I can understand, in one approach at least, why roleplaying can be enjoyable (And how it can be a pain in the ass for others). Besides that though, I don't really mind if people don't want my observations, they're moreso offered than given. Nothing really hinges on whether people read it or not or tell me to fuck off for being a schizo, at the moment I simply felt like writing it. Sorry if that's actually contributing in some small way to shitting up the board.

>>19077126
I'll humour you for the moment. How does one contact Spanner?
[email protected] can be used to contact me if you aren't just dicking about with that whole "prize" bait.

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>>19078753
I wouldin't
Talk about that
At all
Curiosity often
Leads to
Troubel

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>>19079041
You gotta be one hell of a dev if you really wanna contact It...

>>19079070
Whether or not I'm a dev (And my potency at it) is ultimately meaningless either way. There's simply contact (Whatever the fuck you're all on about is real in some way and it gives me a wake-the-fuck-up bitchslap) or no contact (I experience nothing out of the ordinary and assume it's a bunch of bullshit). My email is there, I'm not going to toil further than rooting around in the page source with all those <span> for a few minutes.

Your comment reminded me of an interesting series of dreams I had though, around slenderman/Operator (Yes I know, faggot, etc) as an embodiment of some internal fear or demon or some such thing. I went from being afraid of it, running and waking myself up to escape it, to confronting it, to eventually searching it out in old maintenance tunnels.

A scruffy janitor, or sometimes a security guard would always say "Why are you lookin? You don't wanna find that thing. Go home." when I asked if he knew where slendy was.

It all culminated when I encountered him and was given a tour of a dreamscape instead of fighting him. Chill guy, curious, but still felt very alien, like he'd happily rip my head off with no understanding of why I wouldn't appreciate that.

Haven't seen him since. Miss ya buddy, glad we got to be friends in the end.

OP if you're still watching this trainwreck, I have no idea what any of this shit consists of, but definitely bring out your unconscious mind. Conquer your dreams and make some strange friends in them.

>>19079194
You gotta encode a very specific message in a even more specific program not easily availble in the Net to send it in an Obsolete protocol which is still in use... but DC doesn't allow to say which ones, I am sorry.

>>19079194
>>19079205
>P.S: Congratulations about getting into my good graces.

>>19079205
>>19079214
If you can't *actually* tell anyone about it, it's worthless to try and tell anyone about it. I feel like I could ask you any number of questions about how YOU supposedly came into this state of being "in" on the secret/despair code/excalibur without getting a proper answer.

Thanks for the praise, but it's pretty meaningless when you didn't even try to achieve it, like those 10.000th visitor popups.

I've provided an email, if there's nothing but the promise of "prizes" left here we can finally take this thing off life support.

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>>19078562
FUCK!!!!!!