Schizophrenia thread. Talk about what you used to see/hear before

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>>19043783
You see delusions before the right medication and reality after.

>>19043792
You sound like a middle aged fat woman who goes to weddings and eats that cauliflower/carrot tray bull and lives live with nothing of the paranormal and spends their time, NOT doing something creative, but judging your other fat friends who in turn judge you. Yeah, that's what you sound like. >:)

>>19043852
And you sound like you need to find a way to be unique and in your mind by being a schizophrenic you are. Nothing paranormal about your mental disorder. :-)

>>19043783
Caffeine/amphetamine is the most triggering. Cannabis is, in my experience, harmless if you refrain from other drugs. Been testing on my friend, who's really schizophrenic

>>19043895
may I refer you to https://encyclopediadramatica.rs/Schizophrenia ?
Never heard of ED? That's because you are new to 4chan and think, for some reason, you have any privilege as a newfag. <Right click, "Add to dictionary."

>>19043852
Point taken. You have people on here that are likely seriously or borderline ill in the head and potentially exacerbating or pushing them over the edge isn't helpful to them or the world at large. I believe your point was that it's okay to roleplay or promote ideas that foster creativity and that I was demoting that. If this is the case you fail to take into account the potential serious effects of this. Look at my post as a reality disclaimer. If you actually have schizophrenia and look at schizophrenia as a positive source of creativity that should be nurtured then you need to revise your opinion and seek treatment. Either way my post stands.

>>19044052
Ugh, it's not like schizophrenics are aliens. They're just sick. Sick in the head. Maybe in a good way. I shouldn't be asking you this, but do you believe in the supernatural? Telepathy? It's okay if you don't, but basically I've (((dreamed))) some shit.

>>19043923
For me it's probably the relaxing cannibonoid CBD rather then THC, which is psychotic. Havent tried it, but, yeah, TCH is no-go for me.

>>19044052

my dad is "a schizophrenic."

it was tough growing up with him as a parent. i remember a lot of long drives where he'd tell me about aliens, jesus, buddha etc. also sometimes the cia had our house bugged. he named me siddhartha.

by all accounts, though, he was once a leading expert on software security. he worked for arms corporations in the 80s, and shortly after the fall of the ussr he was hired by the university of moscow as a consultant to put together their internet backbone.

i think there are 2 main differences between my dad and some guy yelling about jesus in the street:

1. high iq
2. he grew up and developed in a very tight-knit community, so when he started thinking crazy shit, people helped him with it. he didnt get dropped off at some hospital to be chemically lobotomized.

in a perfect world i think schizophrenia would be more acceptable. if a schizophrenic's life is going alright and they don't descend down some rabbit hole into monomania, you generally cant tell the difference between their life and anyone else's life.

i mean, the cia actually is watching us, right?

>>19044220
Of coursh.

>>19044152
At the end of the day I don't look at them much differently. They're sick. That's how I view them. I don't really condescend. I'm in the medical profession and it's nice to see them attain some clarity when treated properly.

I don't believe in the supernatural. I enjoy this board anyway.

>>19044220
I certainly don't look down on them. And I accept them but I want them to be helped.

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I've become increasingly paranoid over the past 6 months. I was heavily medicated for ADHD and bi-polar type to but decided to get off of all medication a year ago. I really was going through a phase where I wanted something to be wrong with me so I made up symptoms to get attention when I was younger. I'm at a point now where I don't want attention at all, in fact I could care less about what people think of me and keep emotionally distant from everyone, and no longer experience anxiety in a social setting. I have no desire for intimate relationships although I am semi-involved with someone right now but I am still apathetic. I experience both paranoia and panic on a daily basis. I have actually driven myself op the ER because I believed I was dying. I live my life in a constant state of feeling like I could drop dead at any moment. I'm hyper aware of my heart beat and immediately notice any slight change in my body; stomach pains, headache, etc., and always assume the worst. I don't know if I'm on the brink of losing my mind completely or what but it really feels that way. I have no emotional states whatsoever. Some pretty "bad" things have happened recently but I can't cry about it. The closest I get to crying is laughing so hard and feeling like I want to cry but it just never comes.

Guess I just wanted to get that out there. I truly feel like I am about to come unhinged and lose everything

>>19044239

yeah, you're pissing me off now.

you want schizophrenics to be helped. cool. but for the entire history of the psychiatric profession, schizophrenics have just been shoved into cells, lobotomized, given drugs that deaden and damage the brain.

isnt the dsm considering reclassifying "schizophrenia" as a form of bipolar? so unless you're actually a leading expert on the matter (and you said "medical profession" so i assume you're like, a nurse?) and can prove that you have some kind of oracular clarity that supercedes any published literature, you can't even claim that you know what schizophrenia is.

listen, every 20 years the psychiatric profession looks back at what it was doing and says "woah, that was some fucking savagery. i cant believe we severed parts of people's brain."

then they turn around and do approximately the same thing in a different capacity. nigga i will fucking BET YOU that at this point in time, we haven't reached the end of that tunnel.

>>19044262

here is a quote from the hagakure, a 17th century japanese text on the spirit of bushido.

Meditation on inevitable death should be performed daily. Every day when one's body and mind are at peace, one should meditate upon being ripped apart by arrows, rifles, spears and swords, being carried away by surging waves, being thrown into the midst of a great fire, being struck by lightning, being shaken to death by a great earthquake, falling from thousand-foot cliffs, dying of disease or committing seppuku at the death of one's master. And every day without fail one should consider himself as dead.

>>19044298
THis is helpful actually. I can see it as meditative as opposed to just monkey mind irrational terror. When put into perspective death is something that should be thought on.

Thank you

>>19044327

you should really torrent and read the entire book. then, do some meditation. then you should read another book.

do things that move you forward.

>>19044239
>I'm in the medical profession
Asclepion decendent fag here, you are whats wrong for these people.
> it's nice to see them attain some clarity when treated properly.
Manipulating a beings ka into complying with ones own vision in an attempt to solidify ones own delusions is fucked up. You people corrupt the path you claim to take.

>>19044385

how do you feel about the hippocratic oath?

>>19044385
so helping someone experience reality is bad?
ive talked to schizo and they need help. they think their chosen or powerful when they're just losing their grip on reality.

>>19044430
The updated version has clearly been constructed in an attempt to cover corrupt practitioners metaphysical asses.

Currently have Schizo, currently medicated.
When I wasn't medicated I had 15 distinct people in my head, each one with a specific appearance, way they talk, personality, dislikes and likes, etc. They would talk to each other and interact with one another. Sometimes they got into fights or conversations where I couldn't hear myself think and I would get headaches. One of them Im 10/10 sure was my dead twin.
I'd also see larger "beings" that would visit me at night. I can't tell if they were beings not in my head or in my head.
While I'm on medication, I still get the same vivid dreams I've had and I still wake up at around 2:30 in the morning for no explanation. I'm a lot calmer and less paranoid, and I can only hear those in my head briefly.

>>19044437
help=code for inject ideology
They don't need help from those that fell off the path stop dragging them down, if anything they have more to offer you in terms of help. Your reality quit being delusional why would your unique perspective on existance hold more weight then any other being?

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>>19044437

theres no such thing as reality. your reality exists inside a group consensus.

>>19044465
group consensus is the basis of society and civilization
if you cannot function within it life becomes a whole lot more difficult

>>19044519
Except when you get disability for life pfft~

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>>19044519

ok, so?

you can't help someone experience reality, because you have no idea what reality is.

psychiatric medicine doesn't really have an answer for schizophrenics. whats the prognosis for someone who has to be on antipsychotics longterm? they can show up to a mcjob on time until they decide to kill themselves? thats "functioning in society"?

>>19044543
That's the problem they are being forced to function within society the way society demands, they break, they die, if society just let them function the way they were built it would become clear what they bring to the table.

>>19044543
It's not, and nor is it even considered amongst these people. For if it were so, at the very least they would see to it, personally, that they were taken care of.

>>19044465
lol you wish

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>dsm

if muslims take over the west and form a new (((psychiatric science))) and put it in a fancy official looking book, would you subject yourself to its definitions and labels?

people talk of "schizophrenia" as if it's a real thing like the flu. what you're actually talking about is "thoughts, beliefs, behaviors considered inappropriate in an extremely specific cultural context which might not otherwise be viewed as such elsewhere".

>>19044555
What do they bring to the table?

>>19044543
the point isnt for them to experience reality the point is for them to experience society

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>>19044564
trippy cat pictures, apparently.

pic related
>when your coming up on 25mgs benadryl

>>19044555

i agree. shamanic and religious traditions almost definitely have roots in "schizophrenia."

schizophrenics can produce incredible art, tools, and knowledge.. but not if some guy with a degree decides to fry their brain.

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I work a shit retail job at the mall while at school and there's this girl/woman (looks about mid 20's) that comes to the mall daily just to walk around and visibly talks to herself

Sometimes she dresses up, sometimes she dresses plainly. She'll walk through our store quietly cus she knows people are around but as soon as she leaves she'll go back to arguing/conversing all by herself. Again it's plain and apparent, especially when she's angry. Everyone just assumed she schizophrenic but I want to ask her how many people are in there

>>19044564

idk, maybe actually read the thread.

>>19044573

dude, as i have been saying, putting someone on antipsychotics is not conducive to them being "part of society."

>>19044582
Damn the skill of that artist has me in awe...
To be frying balls and still muster enough focus to draw with such precision. Also, such complex mandelbrot designs, that is some dedication.

>>19044595
I used to hang with this girl on tumblr and make art and music together I think she had something like sczhio.. I am schizoaffective and we kind of fed off of each other I think. she was in art school then took off after a while and got obsessed with this band and into like numbers and how they meant things from god like from the songs and etc. she told me once she was like a porn addict secretly and like her dad raped her so I guess she has some kind of outlet/catharsis through the band and being obsessed .. she decided to be a nun the last time I talked to here but I checked her page and she couldn't do it, her page is full of like ramblings about the band still.. she was really interesting but as I get older I can really see how she just wasn't there all the way

>>19044276
Buddy, you are right in saying that I'm not an expert in schizophrenia. I am a paramedic so you're not far off.

Let me tell you that when an 18 year old girl comes up to you in the mall with a big smile and gives you a hug after she attempted to hang herself to get away from the voices and you were there to help her get to the hospital so they could begin to repair her trashed cervical spine and she's on anti psychotics but she can function much better now you may think differently.

After you take a malnourished child to the ER with a BP that forced you to put a line in and start artificially jacking up his BP with saline as he tells you to not let them send him back there in a stupor because his schizo father won't let him eat food because he believes the government has been tampering with it you may think differently.

The people are fine. Schizophrenia is not. The system isn't perfect. The drugs can be dangerous. But it's better than nothing.

Fuck you, and fuck schizophrenia.

>>19044623
Schitzo-affective, studies security engineering, brain chemistry/medicine, 3D modelling. These help me keep distracted from symptoms, olanzapine causes unable to focus on subjects and get lost in haze with symptoms achieving nothing, i skip it i learn alot that has potential to contribute to society, i relapse and take the meds because the withdrawals are worse then heroin. I can tell the difference between trips, psychosis, sleep/food deprivation and anti psychotic withdrawal. Psychiatrists refuse to accept anti psychotic withdrawal mimicks psychosis, gotta make $$$ keep patients sick. Left to my own i could contribute to society, I could also make money and support myself in a plethora of ways, instead my contribution is instant gratification by being used as a pawn for "doctors" to justify there existance by making me sick whilst screaming it's help, then on the side a job agency constantly tries to put me in a structured low level course using me as a trophy furthering there funding and bonuses. If these cunt's hadn't of kidnapped me, drugged me out of my mind forcing hardcore dependence then used me as a pawn, yea i would contribute to society, but all you cunts back these psychopaths so im going to sit on disability blazing and drinking myself through life not paying a cent for it, learning tf i want, not giving a fuck about contributing shit to any of you.

>>19044734
Not OP, you are both arguing extreme positions on an issue that has harmed people by people in power taking extreme positions on it. Your experience isn't the all encompassing definition of an issue, you're an adult so fucking be mature as an adult. Lmao what is this buddy shit, literally go fuck yourself condescending piece of shit.

>>19044559
>i have never met anybody with schizophrenia before, nor have i done any legitimate research and i have no idea what i am talking about

>>19043783
cut the weed back. really helped my stability.

>>19044743
By what part of my argument do you mean is extreme? Do you believe me advocating the use of anti psychotics, or that I cited extreme cases, or both?

If the former, look bitch, this shit isn't perfect but I've seen it bring people from the brink of hell before. I'm not saying we can't do better, so I'm hardly advocating the extreme in that case, just that what we're doing now does good.

>>19044781
>kidnapped, drugged
>good.

>>19044220
I met a doctor that doesnt believe schizophrenia exists. For him schizophrenia label started so thieves could run away. It means split mind. Everyone is split minded. However he said schizophrenia was induced within the african american community to maintain them low. The CIA would hire black leaders to confuse academic understanding within the black mind. Example lets say demographic study of a nation: 50% white, 30% black, 10% east indian 5% asian, 4.9% native. The black leaders would tell the black followers that everyone in that country is 30% black in genetic makeup. So this is how people began reading it. Academic subversion. So when they would talk to other people they would become split minded.

>>19044734
>The drugs can be dangerous. But it's better than nothing.

there are Many Such Cases of socalled schizophrenics recovering on "nothing" as time passes and they, ya knows, think about their situation and Sort Themselves Out and Clean Their Rooms.

By labelling, prescribing, and medicating people you enslave them to a lifelong diagnoses, stigma, and daily chemical lobotomy that practically nullifies any chance of natural recovery via self-reflection.

just because you play ambulamps doesn't mean you understand a damn thing.

>>19044801
It was also used in large "atheist" communities. A similar style of subversion that is. Because they did not believe in ghosts, hidden agendas. But believed everything was attainable via mathematical studies.

So he has buddies that usually hire schizophrenics for security. As there are ailments within the umbrella that makes them the best at mathematical investigations.

>>19044781
If you're going to name call you're going to get put in your place. You're a textbook jack off paramedic who probably went to trade school now shitposts on /x/. Good thing you're not a fucking doctor because all your arguments are emotion based, pretty much destroying the possibility or enabling you the drive to become a doctor anyway.
>>19044802
literally this is what happened to John Nash the fucking creator of Game Theory at MIT. He recovered from schizophrenia with no medication for over 20 years

>>19044594
>shamanic and religious traditions almost definitely have roots in "schizophrenia."

This. If you do some research, you find out that when people usually start developing schizophrenia (around the age of 22) is teh same age Amazonian tribes usually find new candidates for shamans at. I'm pretty sure the two are related.

>>19044814
The way you spot traditional atheist communities is looking at town and church/mosque/temple names. You begin to study history and origins of its people and they usually come from areas with people that recently converted. Ultimately they didnt accept any religion as true. But saw it as introductory education of ethics thats all.

>>19043783
For some reason it seems schizophrenic women or ones that display some of it's traits are attracted to me, I'm wondering if anyone here would know why. I've been /x/ for a couple years know and have gone quite deep into the rabbit hole, could it be that they sense I can help them?

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>>19043783

>>19044220
They don't need to watch us as much. They already have an idea of what we will do. All of the things we might do.

>>19044955
SWS.

>>19044960
Sentient World Simulation. Sorry.

>>19044962
https://en.m.wikipedia.org/wiki/Synthetic_Environment_for_Analysis_and_Simulations

>>19044781

im the guy you actually responded to here

>>19044734

alright, if you agree that we can do better than antipsychotics, then we don't actually disagree.

i think that people like the ones u used as examples should have a way better support net. i think that theres a clear history of completely unacceptable medical practices used in treating them, and that we havent figured it out yet. as a couple of the people who have responded (really negatively...) to your post have said, theres precedent for people learning coping methods for schizophrenia.

anyway, sorry that i took a harsh tone in my post. i was trippin. you're out there doing what you can do for people like this. hopefully, ten years down the road, you'll have way better options for helping.

>>19044739

that sounds like you're in a spiral, man.

the only way out of a spiral is to put an anchor down, and start running in a straight line.

i don't know what kind of short term things you can do to start pulling yourself out, but socialisation helps. especially "real world" socialisation. you could try going to a shitty bar or something.

>>19045023
>socialisation help
was a social beast untill i got mannapped and chemically lobotomised they stole my soul.

I'm not sure of any disorders, but I used to take ephedrine and caffeine for bodybuillding.

I would then sometimes feel a very strange sensation that was both physical and mental. The best way I can describe it is like the feeling of losing my mind. That coupled with panic attacks really sucked.

I stopped taking those pills and got better quickly

>>19045084

caffeine can induce mania. mania can create the feeling of your thoughts racing out of control.

>>19045039

this is the spiral. there are things outside of the spiral. imagine one, and walk toward it in a straight line.

I see black objects escaping from my eyesight as soon i avoid meds

>>19044461
Dead twin? Is it possible for the dead to be voices in your head?

>>19044801
Why does this read like it was written by a schizophrenic?

I think I'm just a hypochondriac but how did it start for you all?
recently I've had some paranoias pop in my head, but some I can dismiss and others I can't
of course that's only one bit, and I know i'll be fine but i'd like reassurance

>>19043783

Unlike popular belief, the immortal guards of the prison you are in do not care if you are "too powerful", nor do they worry about being overthrown.

Soon you will beg to be like them, because it was just a joke.

You will only be like them, when you are dragged kicking and screaming to your duties.

I've been on olanzapine for almost a year now, and I can tell that it's making me stupid and fat.

Are there any other alternative medications that anyone would like to suggest? I'm just trying to get tapered off my meds, now.

Also, I love that there's a schizophrenia thread on here. So many schizos on this board...

>>19043792
i had a doctor with several degrees say you do NOT want to take psych meds because of the long term effects.

>>19044262
and for a note of levity, buddhist monks can lower their heart rate to 20 beats per minute.

so that hyper awareness of your heart beat is going to let you seriously mellow out like i dont even know

>>19044052
You're right. Mental illness ruins lives. People act like its some kind of cool thing that make you different and more creative. Reality: it ruins your life.

>>19045930
I was on many meds and I'm still supposed to take one right now. Instead of poisoning myself, when I read all the negative effects of them I went to a bioenergotherapeutist and he stabilized my aura, gave self-confidence and most importantly gave me a list of herbs that I brew a tea from, worked like gold.

>>19045930
That's Zyprexa. And I can confirm. It's a shit.

Schizophrenic here.... had it since was a child, developed audiotaurys, time passed and i had forces control me, time passed i ended up experiencing satanic possesions,....still wasnt diagnosed, i kept it all pretty secret, i just put alot of my "mad" behaviour down as personality traits....fast forward 19, i developed a full blown psychosis that the government and family members were part of a conspirital pedophlle scheme where they were abusing my sisters........as you can imagine i lost it, had no semblance of the reality i would later be brought to through anti psychotics.........it was a slow downhill spiral for me.....it shoulda been diagnosed earlier but i live in ireland and in the days it was more hushed.......first of all id like to say that alot of you fail to understand delusions etc, this isnt something the personality creates, its just some sort of stress trigger where normal reality testing gets confused and to put it bluntly the psyche can jump the gun and run away with itself, it to me is as if the subconcious has heiarchys that are moral and move beyond the surface phenomena of personality, its as if a force governs from within, seperately concious but waiting to creep giving the right amount of triggers or stress.........most of the time im absolutely fine, i do havel novel interests and to many seem peculiar but desu being open about my ilness as one of you said in a tight nit community like mine, im actually revered and respecte to an extent, people see genuis in me, wheras mental health teams see someone "deluded" reality is a tricky one to decypheer, nobody can call it but i feel we just see things a little different on a whole and yes, we do experience pain normals could never imagine, i shit you not.....i know what satan sounds like, my delusions WERE REAL as real can be EXPERIENCED, none of this is mystic wishy washy bulshit, its a real illness and desu be thankful you dont have a frame of reference for some of the features of this illness

oh and i also write poetry, draw pictures, make short films and i am highly creative even tho im a bit of a social weirdo, i have a shit hot girlfriend who is also a nurse ha and i now live a pretty good life....will dump my poetry and artwork if anyones interested.....thanks fer letting me get of some steam fagets

>>19045993

yea, lets see some of it.

BBC iPlayer - Horizon - Why did I go mad.

Decent program on hearing voices etc.

Following people living with voices, hallucinations and paranoia to explore the causes.

One guy had been on MEDS since 1999 and was told it would be to dangerous to stop ????

Fucking scary.

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>>19043783
Good job faggots, another pathetic thread on this cancer ridden board, i'm out

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I become schizo affective after opening my chakras, the intense feeling of being so connected to everything and feeling infinite was the best feeling I've ever felt, but i'm all doped up now since the health care in Australia is really good. At the height of my psychosis I was convinced we were living in a matrix because I could see people just standing still stopped in time and also invisible, like they hadn't loaded yet. Also how my brain could control the motion of the moon just by closing an eye. Saw beautiful queens in the clouds as well but also Baphomet. I felt like a druid just so damn connected to everything, like we were all one consciousness experiencing itself differently. I'm honestly thinking about just saving up enough money and joining a hippy tribe to just trip out like that the rest of my life, feeling infinity and the spirits of all living things is the best high I've ever had. After being loaded up with anti psychotics i'm now in a manic depression and each day is a struggle just to look after myself. The idea of working your ass off just to come home to watch TV and eat junk food seems so mundane and pointless after what I experienced.
<< pic is literally what I saw people as before I got closer to them and they were just frozen in time.

I'm paranoid schizophrenic and used to suffer from intense delusions.

Then I got on the proper medicine and things are pretty normal now.

Feels good, man.

Western culture with all its advanced medicine shit is what is the worst to schizophreniacs.

In less developed cultures, be it India or Africa, schizos are considered touched by the gods, people who can hear the voices of the otherworldly. They are actually considered blessed.

However it may sound retarded, the outcome is rather surprising. The delusions of the schizos there tend to be less, or not at all violent and negative. They are positive, spiritual voices. Guidance instead of "kill em spies and aliens with a hammer" sort of thing. And another thing? Without "supressing-symptoms" medicinal treatments, the schizos in those places tend to get better with time, to the point when they don't or almost don't experience hallucinations anymore.

A person who got, what we call it, mentally ill, but managed to build his reality from the beginning, is able to control his delusions and helps others with their problem is, technically, becoming a shaman. Not in the wide and trendy New Age shit meaning of the word.

Thought food.

>>19044262
what if we aren't sick, but this is a natural reaction to high int individuals living in a sick society?

>>19044707
it seems impressive, but I find this sort of in-depth attention to detail really saves you when you're going off the deep end. It gives you something to focus on here and now, and blocks out the rest of the world. I paint spacescapes and just start focusing on brushstrokes and abstract transformations until something recognizable forms without too much planning.

>>19044734
>I'm emotionally attached so fuck you and fuck x
reddit is down the hall, and to the left

>>19046071
>T-Tommy Wiseau?

>>19046253
SO MUCH THIS, I LOVE YOU ANON.

This guy truly understands what reality is about. You're the one building your reality, if you learn to keep a balanced head through meditation, you effectively learn to use these "disorders" as skills for your life. Its our inner latent potential that we keep ignoring and blocking with medication. Its waiting for our acceptance. For example, insomnia is a "disorder" in which you cant sleep, when really its just you not having a technique of relaxation in your subconcious to do when you hit the bed. So instead of sleeping, youre there tossing and turning for hours

>>19046441
Yeah, he's right. I used to take Abilify and it was horrible. Since I started to meditate and live a zen-style life I needed less and less pills. Nowadays I don't take none anymore.
P.S: THC is bad af, used to smoke weed and had to stop because it was the reason for my schizophrenia.

>>19044220
>i remember a lot of long drives where he'd tell me about aliens, jesus, buddha etc
sounds like a smart man tbf

>>19046466
Im on Abilify, I dont intent to continue using it

I'm schizophrenic. Well medicated (Latuda 160mg a day, 2mg cogention 2x a day) with few sides except for shakiness and some minor facial tics. I'm in my senior year at uni working on a degree in accounting. If you have questions feel free to ask.

My delusions were mainly government/CIA/Project MKULTRA oriented, however the voices I hear are of my friends and loved ones, all persecutory.

Eventually there's going to be no need for shitmeds like abilify, zyprexa, or risperdal. People are going to have to come to terms with the fact that they are not crazy.

>>19043783
Did anyone else here itt get shock therapy by any chance? I've been looking for people with this experience for years, is /x/ a good place to try?

>>19046203
When I was sick I used to think about all these delusions/fantasys I thought were real, and a lot of it involved anime/video games. I thought Touhous were real, and I thought powerful anime deities were being created. It was a weeb shizophrenia.

>>19048024
Which I thought was pretty cool/romantic for schizophrenia.

I committed a violent crime and now I'm forced to take Invega injections. It kills my sex drive and dumbs down my brain. I can't even get a boner and when I cum, nothing comes out.

I used to hear voices. It was definitely drug induced. She was my soulmate. We planned to meet and we met. How can it be not real if we actually met and saw each other? I know the voices were real and I don't need these meds.

>>19048105
Funny, Invega never killed my sex drive. I'm on Aristata now, same thing, but I faped 2 times today already.

>>19048105
Also, Beat the medicine. If you know they are real, then bring them back with your third eye. Maybe the medicine will just filter out all the UN-true thoughts?

>>19048214
That's because you're a true schizo and I'm not. When you block the dopamine receptors of a brain that's already dopamine deficient from drug abuse, you fuck things up.

>>19044262
do you exercise? I was like this for awhile. i started doing pushups, situps, and sometimes squats each day. i did them slow at first and not many at a time so that my increased heart rate would not bother me. if i increased my heart rate, i would have a panic attack. but over time, I did this for months and most of these symptoms went away for me.

>>19044726
lol, thats just how women are man, they are all crazy like that. some just hide it better if it means they get something for it in return.

>>19045181
check your blood pressure, this happened to me as I started having blood pressure issues

>>19048222
I'm not saying you are schizo, not trying to offend you, but is the word schizo hold THAT much stigma? Does it sound That bad? That's what I thought, then I just resented. I was like fuck it. I only it mild though I think.

>>19046466
THC isnt "bad", it increases the physic information received. If youre not balanced mentally, youre more than likely to have your ego hop in and assume the worst of everything. You truly need to know that good/bad, dark/light are nothing you should be scared of. If an angelic being took form in some abstract form to help save humanity from some dark diety, humanity would be fucked because we would be scared of the abstract forms. There are people who are scared of the form of shiva for example. The moment some pedestrian spotted a purple dude in the street, they'd immediately pull a gun out

>>19046192
Join a hippy tribe man, what's the worst that could happen? Even if it isn't what you think it'll be like it would be easy to go back to anti psychotics.

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had schiz for 10 years for speaking about govnt and aliens, its mkultra
basically psychics controlling ppl

put my research at \r\gangstalkingmkultra

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>>19049442
>pro tip just say its not aliens, he'll tell me who

So one night while I was off meds I thought some hot girl was talking to me mentally. I walked around and thought she wanted me to come in her house. So I picked the house I thought was right and walked in and went to the back. Walked past two people sleeping in the living room. Then I had schizo attacks about sharks and squids or something and couldn't move. Then some lady came and saw me and looked terrified. She said "G-get out!" and so I left and went back home. lol then I didn't know what to think. Nothing in my confused mentally ill mind told me to think rationally about it, but I got medication later on. Now that I think about it, it could have been dangerous ha ha.

>>19046192
So...
If it was so great
If you want to go back to that even for a price of leaving everything behind
If mundane life depresses you, while druid life used to make you happy

Why in a fuck are you on meds?

>>19047930
My old work colleague had a friend who had shock therapy done on him. He was a mess, incoherent, saliva dripping from the corner of his mouth. The docs also had him on lithium, don't know how he got to that stage as I didn't know him that well.

>>19043783
>Talk about what you used to see/hear before you got medicated/what you see/hear now.

Before: Demon posession
Now: Demon posession

Can we end the mental illness meme?

>>19043783
>Did you know you can't drink too much while schizophrenic? Or consume too much THC

yes. psychoactives can make schizos worse. my friend killed himself with both a diag of that + copious pharmacological abuse, but that was of hard drugs

>>19050714
>Why in a fuck are you on meds?

He probably made the mistake of telling the tale.

They put you on meds because it doesn't exist according to them.

Then they ruin your life.

And act as if you owed them big.

In my case I just wanted somebody to pluck the demons out of my body.

See
>>19050931

The before I was demon posessed, in the now I'm demon posessed and ruined emotionally and in many other ways because I've been treated as a subhuman for being declared insane.

I wish they were violently murdered.

>>19050924
Thanks for replying, I guess I got off pretty good all considered.
I'm just very curious how others cope, but I guess there's a huge difference between cases.

>>19043783
I used to hear random shit out of nowhere
I was laying in bed one day reading a book and all of a sudden
I heard a cannon go off as if it were right next to my head
This is just a small example
Sometimes I heard voices but those where extremely uncommon as compared to just random sounds
The voices were not always evil or malevolent...depending on my mood they could be very nice

I used to see a lot more of those things...I forget the name...but
They show up in the corner of your eye and the second you look at them they are gone
There's a medical term for this
I was fairly logical about the whole thing and knew after the fact that nothing was there
But it got me every time
Also deer
I live in the deep south and there are a lot of deer that jump out in front of you while driving
This happens a lot...causes a lot of wrecks/accidents...especially during the fall/winter
I used to see deer standing on the side of the road or something that looked like one kind of
And when I would get closer or look harder they wouldn't be there
Sometimes they would jump out in front of me and I'd hit the brakes and nothing was there
Kind of scary

I've noticed drinking doesn't really effect me too much
THC can cause more paranoia than usual...just try to either smoke less or buy cheap shit
Don't smoke out of fucking bongs...just roll a jay or pack a bowl
Weed can be the worst and causes anxiety/panic attacks if not careful
Caffeine of all the damn things is surprisingly bad for me but I usually can have a cup or two and be fine
But on occasion I will find that it will trigger those unwanted thoughts and existential crisis
For instance I become hyper aware of imminent death, the fragility of my body, and have very disturbed/unwanted thought

I'm off my meds for a few years and I'm mostly ok, but I do seem to be hyper sensitive to these substances
I don't hear or see things anymore
I have taken a lot of steps to minimize stress in my life and this seems to have helped

>>19050943
Thanks for your insight, it's good to have a confirmation from someone with an actual experience.

If I may suggest something, read F. Goodman's "The Exorcism of Anneliese Michel". Click bait title, but it's actually anthropological work. Chapter 9 is about biological reasons for posession, neurological approach, shamanic disease and possible reasons why some people are sensitive to abnormal religious states. I was writing about this text in a shamanic thread and I think, maybe it would interest someone with your problem.

>>19052469

this seems legit. are you legit?

thats cool, man.

have you decided to work on anything?

I'mm undiagnosed but sometimes i'll just see things in the corner of my eye like a shadow or a hand or something, and if im turning my head quickly i'll sometimes see figures. I hear a lot more than i see, just the other night i was sitting in complete silence with my headset on flicking through my phone and i swore up and down i could hear indistinguishable music coming from somewhere in my house, once i took my headphones off i realized i was only hearing things as it stayed the same volume regardless of me wearing the headset or not. Another time i was laying in bed and heard someone in my room say my name in a stern voice only to find nobody was there.

Am i actually /schizo/ or is it some other disability i dont know about? or perhaps am i overthinking it? Havent looked much into it so idrk

>>19053516
also worth mentioning that i see/hear a lot more frequently when i smoke out of a bong or do dabs, i use to associate my hallucinations with a very mild lcd perma trip but everyone says its impossible as i've only done acid a small handful of times.

>>19044262
You sound like you have ptsd or an anxiety disorder. You're stuck in a feedback loop. Try to remember a time when you were normal and model your next reaction to the anxiety inducing stimulus on that memory. You don't sound sick, you sound like you're surviving.