Were you inexplicably drawn into the occult by a seemingly random

i was drawn into it because i was a wizard in my past life duh

but my best mystical experiencies were always orchestrated by truly magnificient forces and the theme of the initiations are always converging to the heart center, the Now and realizing our godhood.

evil has no chance in corrupting me, my heart is pure and i radiate unconditional acceptance.

Due to general curiosity but now I am compelled to continue onward.

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>was in junior high school
>have step brother who never i met
>hear parents talking about his mom had him locked up in institution
>say his mom was fundamentalist
>say he was in cult and practice magic
>he was getting out and coming to stay with us
>I was leaving for summer camp
>he came and stayed in my room while I was gone
>had huge library in my room 200+ books
>come back from camp he's gone never get to meet him
>left picture and note thanking me for using my room.
>Sitting on bed listening to music notice book on top of book shelf
>get chair and get it down Man, Myth & Magic: An Illustrated Encyclopedia of the Supernatural
>read book find it interesting
>Last page note saying there is more
>Go through library book by book find books on chaos magic, goetia, enochian and esoteric systems.
>spent years studying been in many groups and organizations.
>met some really cool people, wierd people and some fucked up scary motherfuckers

tfw I'm 40 now