For anybody out there practicing whatever to do with the mind: check yourself for aggression; it is a great inhibitor.
>>18730617
tell me more about agression
I've been more calm lately but yesterday I smoked a pack (haven't for a month) and spazzed out and going to sleep was spoopy.
A weird edge day because I have been blissful and calm for quite some time.
(also sometimes I get the urge to "derail" myself and then also get spooped)
>>18730617
Staring at this image expanded for too long hurts my eyes, then my brain.
>>18730617
You should not be doing this if you are still experiencing emotions at all. Ego seems to be OK and necessary early on.