I keep forgetting. I keep watching, but I keep fucking forgetting. How do i stop the cycle? why do some remember, but I never do? Years and years and years it feels. but its only been 2 days. it just popped the fuck up
my idea is that I need one final viewing, but I have to remember all the other times i watched before i watch again. if i dont remember, the last viewing will never be the final one. it will always be the first and the last.
when i remember it, i cant find it. when i forget, somehow, i know where to stumble upon it. maybe it knows how to attack the subconscious?
hold for me please. you have to make me remember next time, before the final time I watch. I need a word a trigger word that will bring it all back to me. i dont fucking know, it may take a few tries but i think i can get there. i need to remember all the other times. That way I can always remember the final time, and never watch it again.
It will happen soon. I will forget it all yet again. piece by piece. it all comes back like a tank. like a seizure when i watch it, then gone again
Writing a memo doesnt work as i always assume its by the hand of someone fucking with me even though I warned myself of that. multiple times. recording myself sent me into the worst frenzy for some reason, and the sad part is that i STILL FUCKING FORGOT. i deleted the recording, something i will gladly not force myself to remember even though im sure it will come back at some point. it always does
A pic hasnt same effect. luckily i thought quickly as the memories flooded back this last time.
Its all I need hopefully. just a simple way to send a spark to my brain. a place i frequent, one of my favorite topics to read and explore, now an actual curse.
i just done know what else to do or even if theres any logic to my plan
>>18689662
stop roleplaying faggot
The alien was bendy, like a rubber chicken. He freaked out when it twisted his cartilage bones.
Then I realised he was an alien and laid him on the ground to give him a back rub.
??
Also soldiers patrolling streets.
They haven't gone away you know.
>>18689688
Big Boss is the leader of a motorcycle gang now.
Hotel California.
And the price that must be paid; I thought the price was the "you only live once price", but the father said it was, "you can't get it up anymore".