Hey guys. Yesterday night at around 3am I was outside and stumbled

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Hey guys.

Yesterday night at around 3am I was outside and stumbled upon a couple hurdles trying to meditate. It's not that I purposely chose to meditate at 3am, just that's how it came about that day (was at a friends, and I hadn't meditated). I viewed this as a good time to work on being mindful, since I know that meditating in what we'd call uncomfortable settings can calm and hone the mind, but despite that all the stuff I've been reading about magick and spirits and a bunch of other /x/ stuff was just causing me some kind of discomfort.

Anyway, I tried about 3 times. The first 2 times I couldn't stay mindful, my mind was everywhere at once, and there was a constant running fear around me, since the moon was bright and big, and because the location was a big open space, and because it was 3am. Regardless, the 3rd time I verbally proclaimed that I was going to meditate for atleast 10 minutes, and that nothing (thoughts, movement, sounds, entities) was going to stop me. And it worked, for a time. For about 5 minutes the meditation was going well, and I was beginning to fall in a trance. My head was getting light, my body kind of sluggish, and honestly my energy was kind of going down too. That moment when the climax of the trance set in, my mind races and I break the meditation.

What can I do to better hone myself to avoid falling into these situations? I know these thoughts are illusionary, I know that there is nothing to be afraid of, even if I do feel some kind of "presence." But despite this I can't get my mind to calm down, especially at night.