Here's my story. I don't know what it means and I've

>they bring me to jail, I'm covered in walldust
>go to the shower
>an innmate holds the bible up to the window and shouts while laughing "HEY DON'T WORRY BUD YOUR PEOPLE ARE GONNA BREAK YOU OUT"
>in cell
>fast forward through 10,000 imagined theories as to why I got there and what the jail is
>when the cops pulled me out of my apartment there was this dude there with a beard
>he's in there in jail
>he gets mad at this black dude saying they're bloodline is fucking everything up, wtf
>meet another dude there who I think is me from another dimension, or Jesus
>make cross sign on the window and point to him
>he nods
>make cross with an x sign on the window and point to me
>he nods furiously
>makes a noose handgesture
>welp, I'm the antichrist
>drink my own piss to turn into the dragon
>try to drown myself in the toilet
>cop pulls me out
>time feels nonexistent, think I'm dead
>handcuffed to a bench
>shouting incoherent shit about being the antichrist and destroying this dimension
>notice innmates are able to get in and out of their cells
>the fuck is going on
>I'm shouting this girls number who I think is Mary Magdalene
>Sherriff comes over and writes down her name and number
>he starts babbling like a baby, can not form a a coherent sentence
>the fuck is going on
>girl from a cell is making heart signs at me through the window
>get a boner handcuffed to the bench
>her boyfriend is in another cell banging his fists against the wall
>I think we're all dead
>start avoiding looking at the girl because I think she's trying to distract me from Mary Magdalene, my one link to reality
>gonna break out of this fucking jail
>try to break out of handcuffs
>they put me in a restraining chair
>an eternity goes by, waiting for the next dimension to kick in
>they set me in front of a wall with "HI :)" etched in it

>>18493754
>start screaming tons and tons of shit, theory after theory
>say I'm gonna break out and eat their computer
>seems like the police are going fucking crazy too
>start yelling 'i need to take a shit, i need some beer, i need some weed, i need some TV, etc. all the way to BRING ME THE ATOMIC BOMB
>think i'm dr manhattan and can't die without the atomic bomb
>start ripping through my hair to become dr manhattan, screaming for the atomic bomb
>cop comes over and leans my chair back, covers my mouth and nose
>oh shit i'm gonna die
>think I'm the joker and she's batman
>batmandoesntkillbatmandoesntkillbatmandoesntkill
>she sighs and gives up idk why
>start breaking out of the chair, find a strap and pretend its a parachute
>i'm out
>they put me in another with more straps
>believe I can break out of it
>i'm out
>put me in a third chair
>i'm wearing like four spit masks because I keep chewing through them
>meditate insanely hard, chanting this mantra in my head about becoming the violet flame
>think "see through the eyes" and "go clear"
>tears start pouring from my eyes even though they're closed
>I can see through my eyelids and spitmasks and the cops look like demons
>start sweating profusely
>cops are freaking the fuck out
>they come over to me and say "ugh, it smells awful" like it was the worse thing they've smelled in the world
>they take me out of the chair and run me to the bathroom
>pull down my pants and order me to piss
>I scream I DONT KNOW HOW, can barely feel my body at all
>cop takes off his jacket and puts it on me

>>18493760
>"hey! you're wearing my jacket now, how do you feel about that?"
>the fuck
>my reality is fading in and out in flashes, feel like i'm about to shapeshift
>they say all right, we're gonna put him through the wall
>the fuck
>start freaking out because I think I'm going through the wall into another dimension
>they start banging me against a wall
>for some reason that knocked some sense into me and they take me to the car
>can't move my body at all for like 20 min
>driving to the mental hospital
>sunrise, feels like I'm looking at the sun for the first time
>think the world ended while I was in jail and the illuminati regenerated it
>get to the hospital, think i'm in some kind of fairytale
>they give me an ativan shot in my ass
>knocked out
>somehow wake up for a few seconds despite being heavily medicated
>roommate is crying to the staff at the doorway, he's pointing at me saying "i can't take it he loved her so much" starts saying some shit that i said in the jail
>the fuck.....fall back asleep
>wake up, feel kind of normal, refreshed after my breakdown
>roommate introduces himself, David, we talk some about theories but he seems reserved to tell me stuff
>says "i'm glad we got to be roommates man," and gives me advice like "it feels good to wear other people's clothes, i'm wearing Lucy's jacket right now. also it's good to have a girlfriend."
>go through regular hospital routine, think it's all fantasyland mind control
>start getting clues from news and tv we watch
>cops in my city went on strike
>murder happens in San Francisco
>think I'm from the future and me and this rapping black kid have the secret codes to stop the murder from happening
>use part of Mary Magdalene's number and part of the rappers number to form a new one
>call it

>>18493767
>"hey this anon from the future, just wanted to warn you that you are in danger, this call should make you safe though. keep on fighting, with love"
>high five rapper
>sleep most of the day
>one day David wakes me up by sighing and throwing a bag of cookies at me, "you win anon"
>remember screaming in jail at a couple locked up for dual battery that if he loves her he should get her cookies
>get out of bed and they're having a pizza party with Little Ceaser's and Pepsi
>this is meant to be since my name means little king and i was obsessed with pepsi and the super bowl
>talk to David, "when we cry it makes stuff happen right?"
>he nods, yup I was up last night crying
>"and it's genetic?"
>he nods, with a grim look on his face
>"man I feel bad... I feel like I made bad things happen in the world"
>"don't worry dude," he says "it's mostly Obama fucking things up for us, trying to get healthier foods in schools and stuff"
>the fuck....remember refusing to eat at jail and basically running on empty when i was psychotic
>all the sudden he starts crying his eyes out
>he looks at me super intensely like he wants me gone for some reason
>"the end of the world," he says "it's all just molten rock just a bunch of molten rock"
>try to cheer him up, say "hey man you can't worry about that, its not your fault"
>"welp, I might as well pack my bags anon."
>the fuck...... was he here for me to learn a lesson?
>all of the sudden staff comes into our room, this HUGE, like 350lb man straight up TACKLES David on his bed
>lady yells at me "You, out!"
>murmur "but I was just trying to help..."
>"OUT"
>okay.jpg
>room is quarantined for a while
>next day
>I'm shifting dimensions again
>think David is the incarnation of the devil and is trying to test me

>>18493775
>haven't taken a shit the whole time (like 4 days) i've been in the psyche ward
>shit in the shower, pick it up and bless it by making crosses with the water in the sink
>eat a bite of it and scream "DAVID, DAVID YOU MOTHERFUCKER I'M GONNA BEAT YOU AND ALL YOUR FUCKING KIND"
>tastes like shit
>put the rest of it in the huge ass socks they gave me (thinking it belonged to a giant demon before me) and walk around in them
>David is RUSHED out of the hospital, never see him again
>get another shot of ativan and fall asleep as the phones are ringing, thinking its Mary Magdalene calling me and I'll never hear her again
>fall asleep like a badass, drifting into death

Holy fuck man.
>You sound fucking batshit but I'm not gunna lie, had a minor panic attack on Christmas Day when I was flipping through channels on the TV.
>It started sending me personal messages and I couldn't stop.
>I began hyperventilating
>At one point I stopped an a women on TV said "and this is how I live with my schizophrenia".
>Thought "that's no fucking coincidence"
>Also noticed that it was Christmas yet no Christmas themes anywhere on TV
>Thought it was the last Christmas and the world was ending.
>At this point everything around me began to fold in on me, like my reality was being torn asunder by my thoughts somehow.
>Started remembering about the Despair Code again
>Needed it to stop, I normally can handle this type of stuff but I was feeling weak from the night before and overwhelmed by this sudden panic attack.
>Blacked out and woke up several hours later feeling back to normal (was in my bed anyways)
>Come to find out that both my sister had vomited and also had a panic attack at the time.
>Inb4: no, it wasn't food poisoning, our stomachs and body felt fine aside from this short period.

>>18493760
Wait man, this same thing happened to me.
>Given I was on a shroom trip, but this part of your story is extremely uncanny.
>>18493681
I left out a lot of details.
>Basically thought I was in purgatory when I was tied down
>Everyone around me was tied down too and I thought they had died at the festival and now decomposing into the ground.
>One guys screaming about how a new drug turned Jesus Christ into an alien
>I can see the festival through the open doors
>I untie almost all my bindings and was about to "cheat death" when a man comes and ties me even tighter.
The only reason I came to was that I asked one of them for the time, waited 5 minutes and asked again, realizing that time was moving fluidly. Talked my way out of it and made it in time for the last set of the night.
>Forgot I pissed myself in this event, so went to go change my shorts after.

>>18493775
>Your name is Ryan too?
What does your last name mean...

Your story is really freaking me out, the fuck does your last name mean?
>I have never met another Ryan that knows what his name means aside from me.

>>18493863
>>18493869
my last name means moss. i didn't know that until i just looked it up.

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>>18493780
>So is that it?
This seems too intense and personal for it to be copypasta.
>How did you get out?
>Do you still have these feelings
My name is Ryan too and I have a savant like figure in my life that I randomly met named David. Hell, I don't even know his last name but he's taught me a lot in the ways of the occult, esoteric knowledge and hidden secrets. I wonder if we are somehow connected.
>My last name means Candle Maker by the way.

>>18493880
Hm, I was listening to American Pie a lot last night for no reason.
>Moss grows fat on a rolling stone, but that's not how it use to be.

>>18493934
Ryan moss here, that played at the new years party I was at while I played ping pong.

Ahah holy fuck.


What I'm the fuck is happening in this thread?

>>18493979
Reality shift.

It happens from time to time.

>>18493904
The first several posts are most definitely pasta (up to where the writer gets a shot of Ativan in his ass). The last part has either been added or recovered.

In the original, the OP spent many posts answering questions and a few suggested he sue the police for "putting him through the wall."

Dunno if this is the same anon back to finally finish the fucking story, or if it's a new writer that just couldn't handle the original inclusive end to the greentext portions.

>>18494039
OP here, I'm reposting the pasta to see what more people think of it. It's the same as where I posted it before, finish the story? The story is done...we are living our lives. I had my big breakdown, the world goes on. There might be more in the future, I don't know. The story is I got out of the hospital, had a real rough time, moved to Florida with my dad, got a job, left the job, moved back to Missouri, and now I'm in Massachusetts about to go to some rehab program for my craziness and depression. I think it'll help, I'm looking forward to being around people who are similar to me. What do you want to know? Ask away.

>>18493904
I got out by waiting, I still feel crazy every now and then but it's toned down a lot. I've managed to use my craziness as energy to have fun and I'm really having a blast, especially thanks to you guys at /x/. I really appreciate you faggots.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=guuKm7Y2yaA

>>18494039
It's very strange never the less and oddly reminds me of myself, not only for the namesake. Seems like he somehow glitched the world around him in that jail, if the events where accurate and not simply a dillusion. I've done similar things on smaller degrees. I've been at parties and start to meditate and all of a sudden it's like I'm in a dream. Like I have a slight control over everything going on by merely observing, but also not fully. It's usually always quite unsettling since they are my firends.

>>18494052
>Other Ryan
>Hey, I'm also a Masshole and have family in Missouri, Kansas City to be exact.
Hm... I don't think your crazy. Your tapped, that's for sure, but crazy is figurative and a situational occurance. Some people experience events and outlooks that would drive anyone mad.
Personally, a lot of the time I think I died long ago and that this reality I'm in now is some strange mock of what it use to be. It's hard to explain. I get these feelings though, that soon it will start to come together.
>Also, did your friend David have a scar?

>>18494085
David isn't his real name btw, he had acne scars.

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>>18494094
Hmm, the one I know had an operation that seeing the scar, would make anyone shutter. I'm not saying where to atleast try to keep him anonymous but it's probably the most important spot and not a common scar in the slightest. I wonder if I'm delving too much right now, but if that's the case I know I'm being watched so I don't care all too much. I think I may be some sort of guinea pig.. meh, might as well have fun, amirite?

I am this person, sort of. I'm a quantum immortal planeshifter, and whenever threatened I facture reality and dip. This is all real. This timeline is utterly fucked.

>>18494094
Massachusetts has some things that are bending our reality, I know this.
I'm not saying where, how or who, but that pic is related.
>Little King OP, if you are about to be institutionalized in Mass, know that it is not a normal state. Keep your eyes open and be aware that what your are experiencing may actually be closer to true reality (or state of things) than you think.

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>>18494151
that's exactly how I feel, like a guinea pig. I watched the movie Arrival with my mom yesterday and she was laughing at the canary in the coal mine. Apparently coal miners used to send canarys down the well to see if they could survive. That's what we are, we're here to see what happens when we dive in. In Arrival they were talking to aliens trying to figure out their purpose and they talked in this multidimensional code because they could see the past and future and apparently we were gonna help them in the future. I just hope everyone can help each other. Let's dive in, but keep our heads.

This is my fault. I steered our galaxy into a black hole. I did it for free.

>>18494169
Great talking with you OP.
If the thread is back up tomorrow I'll check back in.
>Gotta get some sleep before work. Been having very strange dreams lately and had an anon today recite one that I had about David Bowie in a bar. Wonder what I'll be dreaming tonight?
Peace Be Upon You Brother.

>>18493999
Trips of truth. Learn to do it yourself.

This is happening because our souls are ours and we are alive.

>>18494178
peace out space brother

OP here, fuck I had weird dreams...

Pls be careful OP. Your friends and family are worried about you. Don't ever forget about them. Just take care of yourself and remember, it's okay to feel alone. It's okay to feel isolated. I know what you're going through. /x/ will only drag you further into a hole of depression and insanity since no one here can really be verified as telling the truth or trolling. Get as far away from this shithole as you can. The truth is you've got a vivid imagination and the ability to shift your perception. Why not use this to write stories or make something? I'm telling you this to save you at least 5 years of mental torment since I've been through/ am going though a similar experience.

>>18495341
>Anon from last night.
Wasn't able to recall mine last night, but before going to bed I did have very abnormal closed eye visuals of fractals and stems.
Pretty odd day though. On break at work right now and seems like everyone around me in is in sort of a daze.
>Maybe it's just because I had to put away an order and just busted my ass to get it done in time, but I don't know, I did see someone just walk into a door.

>>18495809
There are a lot who float around here to simply discourage anyone being honest.
>Just identify when you start to be engaged by them and disregard the smug salty attitudes.
I can navigate this board still, but this anon may have a point OP. If you find yourself drifting even more due to it, I'd stay take a step back from here. You can find out a lot in some cases, and in others they will try to bring you down for their own personal kicks.

>things that never happened

>>18493748
>The Invisibles
How is /x/ not in love with Morrison's writing? He's been writing stories about meme magic for the majority of 20 years now.

Hey OP if you read this keep two things in mind, your many ideas are bleeding into each other, that's why you have those strange situations happen to you, learn to discriminate between ideas and ignore what you want to ignore, secondly always remember you are the teller of your own story, you can move freely within your own narrative, you create all that which you see, for instance try creating an object you have ultimate control over something only you can use and nothing else can touch within your narrative.

>>18496830
Thanks man, that helps a lot.

>>18495998
The Invisibles is my shit

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>>18494180
@_@ ~ Trips of knowledge

>>18497243
Ya, Boyo clearly doesn't respect the rules of the road.

>>18497243
>>18497325
I'm on my meds and I've never hurt anyone.

>>18497327
There's nothing paranormal about this, you're just mentally ill.

>I ate some shit
>I thought I was the antichrist
>mary magdalene called me
>after eating the shit I stuffed the left overs in a sock and wore it

What does this mean?????

>>18497364
I'm aware I'm mentally ill, thank you. That's why I'm taking my meds and going to the rehab program. This is /x/, we're all mentally ill, deal with it.

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>>18497387
Truth.
>Deal with it
>You are here
>You are nuts
>You are one of us.

>>18497218
I can dig it. Invisible bump.

dude I didn't have to read very far but I'll repeat what others have said
some of the things here are fun but also can be no go for people that get psychosis for whatever reason

the coincidences seeming to have greater meaning of some sort is a red flag.
I'm of two minds about some of the things here (har har)
it can lead people further into illness and that's not a very good thing

if you do have issues you should probably understand your illness more so you know when certain things are happening that yes you probably have missed your medication or something else is off that causes you to step off the end

for example. if you all of a sudden are in public and you feel like people can read your thoughts and all that - are you clairvoyant or are you just having an episode of some sort? probably the latter.

also there's many people that like to pretend for the attention but honestly it's not that fun and it can shit up your life

you can lose jobs, friends, the list goes on and on
I guess I'm just a debbie downer but sometimes I think people need to check themselves befo they wreck themselves

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=8_FmRZEYa1Q

ITT: OP goes insane, everyone goes insane.

>>18497387
>we're all mentally ill
Speak for yourself. I, for one, am well aware that I am truly the chosen one. One day I will heal you all, my children.

>>18499307
evens you heal me odds i rot for eternity

>>18497317
just lucky

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shameless bump for attention