i wanna become a shaman
isolation from society
drug use to experience altered states of consciousness
lucid dreaming for the same
meditation for the same
maybe there's a teacher here
this lifes killing me and ill either end up zonked out on happy pills or dead.
even my dreams further my escapist fantasy
i constantly dream about escaping these peoples expectations
i cant fight them
i just want a small place to belong
You want yo become a shaman to escape your personal problems? That's stupid man
i have much knowledge and many esoteric texts to provide to you. but only if you were to answer my question correctly, that is, is patches the spider fuckable? would you let him caress your face?
take a chance, friend
>>18219376
*squat*
>>18219385
is he sexy?
>>18219376
>>18219387
possibly if an individual is attracted to that
rip the dream
>>18219392
you've chosen well and wisely.
i would recommend artisson's writing.
avoid crowley and gardner. if it sounds pseudo esoteric it probably is. don't cross the hedge until you believe you've earned right to do so, through hard practice and study.
>>18219438
>artisson's writing.
id feel more comfortable with some links, got any? my sources (google etc. mundane stuff) goes so far. plus placebo effect. either way im gonna look into this
>>18219438
i should also add that this isn't as deeply enriching as i'd claimed >>18219376 but should help to put you on the right path, if used well and in the right way.
one should not expect immediate gratification.
>>18219451
are these writings by a man with a bird first name
>>18219460
bird species as a first name *
>>18219460
yes. a bird first name.
http://dl.dropbox.com/s/e9eo0aitlcpx5mh/letters%20from%20the%20devil%27s%20forest.pdf?dl=0
>>18219468
my first step to the occult
guess there's no going back now.
>>18219367
Running from your problems will only get you deeper in them. Stop using drugs. Start meditating. Face your reality head on and overcome it.
>>18219548
fuck off faggot
drugs are good
>>18219367
You sound like a scared little bitch.