Okay, so I posted this on /r9k/ and anon suggested I come to

>>18110049
Hallucinate about Christ

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If part of you wants to kill yourself, it is a vital part of yourself you are not allowing to live. You are prolly repressing your gay urges, or something to that effect.

>>18110066
Thats a beautiful painting.
Saved.

In order to get rid of thoughtforms you need to stop paying attention to them. You have to forcefully forget them to make them go away.

So I will ask again here because thread on r9k got archived.

Why it's perfectly normal.

I wonder. Is it tulpa? Is it really hallucination or a stron imagination?

Like, I'm sick almost like this. I believe that I'm a man who is married and I have an imaginary wife and 6 kids. I also talk to them often.


>>18110207
My oldest son is pretty mad at me and sometimes I cry at night because of it. . .
Also it's an fantasy world.

>>18110049
Repressed negative energy externalized into a hallucination.

Turn and give attention to that which you are afraid/ashamed to look at within yourself. Mindfully welcome the thoughts, emotions, sensations that appear and in so doing your resistance to them will dissolve and you will be ambivalent whether they exist or not. At that point they almost always disappear or balance out.

Alternatively you could do a visualization meditation where your hallucination transforms, healing those aspects that desire integration within your psyche.

Or both.

>>18110049
You are either suffering from mental health issues or negative spiritual forces are fucking with you. Either way you are going to need external help.

Cry out to God in Jesus name for help. Then find a therapist too. If you are RPing kill your self.

>>18110049
Mental illness.