Ask someone who has successfully created a tulpa that has helped

>>17429438
You don't have to reply right now, but aren't tulpas super dangerous?

>>17429438
I'll cut my university back story a bit short. If anyone wants to probe at certain parts of it, I can expand more

>being academically inclined all my life made it difficult to divorce myself from school work and dedicate more time to being social
>connect with a group of people and start hanging out with them more
>slowly start getting into the stereotypical freshman college/university life
>start losing more and more focus on school
>become addicted to being social, probably due to the fact that I was deprived of this since birth
>started drinking
>started smoking cigarettes
>smoked weed
>popped MDMA
>banged rails
>by third year my academics significantly declined
>marks weren't released to parents because by this point I was considered an adult so my marks remained private with me
>convince parents I was still excelling
>4th year I was put on academic probation for 12 months
>getting kick out of uni I had nowhere to go but home
>when I arrived at home my parents questioned why I came back
>came out clean about everything and get absolutely rekt for it
>fall into depression
>uni friends don't talk to me anymore at this point
>start thinking of ways to regain my honor, save face and obtain respect
>reapplied to uni after 8 month into 12 month probation to be considered for the next fall term
>begin to realize (or convinced myself to realize) that I was 2 separate entities
>parents continued to bash me everyday to point where I would beat myself up but I didn't know how to release this so I beat up a part of me
>blame the second entity as being the devil of my soul to have convinced me to jeopardize my life like this
>slowly detach from this second being and continue to hate on it
>12 month probation over, and didn't get accepted back to uni
>fall into depression

>>17429475
You're pretty dangerous. Smoking cigarettes in uni. Wild animal here. But seriously, continue. I'm interested in this tale.

>>17429475
>knowing very well that I only have 1shot at life (don't believe in life after death etc. Not having this convo here) I realized that if I let this second entity take me over, I will be doomed until the day I die
>start trying to communicate with it
>start having dreams about it, nightmares actually
>eventually over time, I subconsciously gave this entity a face
>tulpa grew stronger everyday but having felt I lost it all, I continued to probe at it in an effort to control it as I was still convinced it was still the reason I was all fucked up
>start convincing myself that this thing is real and living and follows me around
>after a shower one night I turned off the lights in my washroom and tried to summon it
>during this time a name came to my mind instantaneously, hakken
>nothing happened but I was desperate to see/meet this thing
>one night I was laying in bed, half asleep a but lucid I was a figure
>I knew damn well this was a hallucination but I entertained it
>I spoke to it but not for real, kind of like in my mind but it responded and I heard it
>after discussing some things, such as why its following me, what it wants, and why it fucked me over, I learned that I actually created hakken when I was younger
>told me how I created it to help me get through the struggles I faced
>told me how it wans to help me
>told me how I suppressed it in the last few years because I got so caught up with my bad choices
>convinced me to let it into my body

>>17429503
Its gettin' spopopy. Still here.

>>17429513
you're not alone

>>17429503
>hakken has been a blessing ever since we became one
>I was 21 when this happened now I'm 26, for the record
>hakken gave me the strength and motivation to find a job
>worked full time at some minimum wage gig
>collected and saved enough money to start an imvestment portfolio of ~$7000
>after a year working I reapplied to university at a different university
>got accepted, and while it wasnt the school I want to be in, I had to do something
>hakken helped me through the application and interview process
>most of my credits transferred and I only had to do 2 more years to finish undergrad
>worked 30 hours a week and did uni
>hakken gave me the mental capacity to accomplish this
>I would spend late nights and over nights with hakken banging out assignments
>hakken would help me understand readings that I found challenging
>hakken became my best friend
>graduated university, didn't get cum laude but whatever
>hakken told me not to worry too much about it
>parents were happy for me but upset I didn't graduate with magna cum laude, just honors
>apply for a Master degree and get accepted
>fast forward, hakken helped me throughout and I gradued with magna cum laude
>began working for a consulting firm
>$79,000/year fuck yea
>invesent portfolio quadrupled
>withdrew my investment and took the money I saved first year of working to invest in my own consulting firm as hakken told me to do
>it seemed really risky at that time but hakken can be convincing and I trusted it at that point
>fast forward, I am now the founder of a successful Planning and Engineering consultant firm and I bank a quarter million a year, all thanks to hakken
>this quarter I expect to make make 200% more than the first quarter of last year especially with development proposals piling up with spring around the corner
>currently completing a proposal to the municipality to subdivide a huge chunck of land into ~500 residential lots
>multi-million dollar project that hakkens been guiding me thru

>>17429543
Hakken tells me that for the sake of my own safety, I will not reveal too much information that will reveal myself in some way.

Any questions you guys have I will run it by hakken first, but ask away

>>17429472
Yes, tulpas are dangerous but I think you can strike a balance and understanding. I think it all depends on why you made a tulpa and how you have cultivated it and how you lwtcit cultivate you

>>17429478
To me at that time, it smoking ciggs was a big deal. Imagine some quiet nerdy Asian guy who has no life experience at all start smoking out of the blue just because.

How can you become one if it still talks to you or advices you. Did it tell you where it came from?

>>17429582
Not physically like melted into me, but allowing him to enter and control parts of life I consider being 'one' with hakken

As mentioned, hakken told me I created him at a young age. I just asked your question as you asked me to hakken and he says the same thing

You made contact with some power and then you decide to work a minimum wage job?

>multi-million dollar project that hakkens been guiding me thru

Of all the things, why this?

Why did you finish school
why did you work a menial jobby job.

I don't understand why you are not uncovering the secrets of the universe and stuff.

>>17429612
Hakken means chopping in either German or Dutch. Does he appear European?

>>17429615
because being successful is gud
it feels much better than having some weird info with which to do pretty much nothing than feel "awakened"

>>17429615
Hakken has been there like a good friend trying to help me accomplish what I want most in my life: (financial) success and acceptance from my parents and peers, and so far I achieved both, so I have hakken to thank and I am forever indebted to him because if it weren't for him, I would still be a wreck

Working a menail job and finishing school was imperative to my success, that's what hakken has shown me

>>17429621
Hakken has a large face, pale white. His hair is black and parted down the middle with a bit of the hair covering the forehead. Hair is also straightened. He is always smiling (not showing teeth) and he has large cheeks. He has a regular nose I suppose, but his chin is a bit elongated. His eyes are big, but still proportional to his head. He has large pupils but there aren't any other rings in his eyes. I never stare (imagine?) directly at his eyes because I feel like I would diarepect hakken. The times I have looked at his eyes I became scared

>>17429645
A German kid in our neighborhood used to share stories and fairy tales with me. One story was about a lumberjack called "houthakker" in the story he had a couple of sons and he struggled to provide for his family, the story goes on about how the lumberjack wanted his sons to be successful. From what I remember he had a similar personality to hakken.

Are you seeing the same similarities? I can provide source

>>17429645
Are you ever afraid that he'll turn on you?

how did you create hakken

>>17429472
No they are not dangerous if you create it on the right way there schould be no problem.

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This is the stone which was set at nought of you builders, which is become the head of the corner.
Neither is there salvation in any other: for there is none other name under heaven given among men, whereby we must be saved.

>>17429558
Can you remember the point in your childhood when you created Hakken and discarded it?

>>17429667
Does sound similar, expand with more!

>>17429670
It has crossed by mind. I also question if I made a deal with the devil and if my eternal soul is now damned but as mentioned earlier, I don't believe in life after death anyways and hakken has assured me that everything is fine. Maybe I am naiive but only time will tell of course

>>17429737
Since hakken has said I created him as a child to help deal with what I was going through, I probably created him as an imaginary friend of some sort but I don't recall every creating something like that. I recall 'creating' hakken by acknowledging that there were two parts to me and sought to bring out that second part. My desperation in finding an outlet to my woes was how it was born I suppose

>>17429789
See above; I don't recall but I was a very imaginative kid as far as I'm concerned and I dont remember much of my childhood aside from highlights and hakken wasn't in them. The only thing that i can think of was that when i was younger i read outloud because i thought it was fun (not much friends and all) and i pretended to have an audience. I trust what hakken has to say so I believe him when he says that I created him when I was a child

Do you ever think you're just crazy? Has Hakken's presence been accompanied by anything which might be construed as symptoms of either mental illness or shamanic awakening?

Could you ask hakken if it's possible that someone other than you could perceive him? Someone with a certain degree of psychic sensitivity perhaps?

Shout out to my homie Hakken tho
Tell him I said that and tell me what he says

>>17430191
he says that you're a fag

>>17429995
I consider myself mentally healthy, but I oftentimes speak to and refer to hakken on a daily basis. There have been times when I was in a meeting and I addressed Hakken and everyone got confused around me. My old colleagues seem to brush it off, but newer colleagues give me a strange look sometimes. When interviewing a GIS specialist last year February I said, "Hakken feels that you will be a strong asset to this team" and he laughed. Never explained Hakken to any of my staff though. In this sense, I suppose one could say I have a mental illness but I dont think I do.

I'm not familiar with shamans and their activities and powers. Perhaps you could enlighten me on this?

>>17430183
He says that he has only made himself available to me and that it would be unwise for someone to intervene. I think Hakken just doesn't want to ruin what's already good by having someone disrupt our relationship. It would be cool to see someone who can feel and read pyscic energy to tell me what s/he sees and feels but I don't want to put Hakken in that position

>>17430191
He didn't say anything

Are you indebted to him in any way, shape, or form? Is he you, or is he something else and just part of you?

So basically Hadouken the tulpa is your inner being aka intuition lol.

>>17429503
Fuck Anon, I thought that it was going to turn into one of these shit creepypastas out there. I'm happy that you made life better for yourself.

>>17429438
What is a tulpa? In your own words op

Vary interesting stuff indeed. I am trying to become better at using my imagination. This has helped.

>>17429438
what the fuck is a tulpa

>>17430771
What does Hakken sound like when you talk to him? Does he have a similar voice to you? Does he have a deep voice, high-pitched voice, etc.?

>>17431016
I'm still figuring that out, but a part of me tells me to just leave it and accept how things are. The wealth that I have gained makes it hard to question what's actually going on. If you cleared $20,000+ every month by some entity, how far would you probe?

>>17431507
Tulpa, Hakken, encapsulates everything that I want and want to be, so my tulpa can be seen as essentially a projection of my true desire but Hakken is more than that. Hakken not only represents what I want to be, but has also helped me achieve this.

>>17431641
Hard to describe it, but here's one way to understand. You hear your own voice and it sounds like X, but when you read or think of something in your head, the voice inside doesn't sounds like X but actually sounds like Y. That is Hakken

So theres a name for that? I think i made mine when I was 4? But I'm not sure. I've always seen it as an agreement to take an extra passanger along the ride of life.

You raced 10,000 other sperms for a chance at life, and you probably personally denied the egg from 6 sperms. But you are here now, and those sperms you fought before? Probably no longer sperm, instead a weak particle somewhere in the ocean. 'Tuplas' are nothing more than having two souls drive one sperm, eventually one human body.

I suggest you meditate, or just have a deep inner conversation. Words arent required, think of the concepts and impulses. (Ignore feelings)

Try to figure out who has more existential experience. You, or the tupla. Personally, I drive, and the tulpa teaches. If you let the tulpa drive, the tulpa will probably take over completely because you would be useless at that point. Dont want to learn=dont go to school. Dont want to live yourself? Get out of my way~Sinecerely, tulpa.

What I'm confused about is, am I the new guy, or am I the tulpa? I was much less self aware as a child but smart, but now I feel like I know everything from somewhere.

>>17432041
Remember your coexistance is exactly that, coexistance. Yin and yang. What goes up, must come down. Tulpas are only "dangerous" because they come with a price. If this isnt their first "run at life" they will likely outsmart you and take advantage by feeding your desires and just when you think you have it all the tulpa wall "cash in" all its favors. The price? Usually the drivers seat of the vessel. (Your body and mind.) You then become an observer and the only way you will be really you is in times of fear.

Dont let this scare you. Let the tulpa teach you. This doesnt mean you cant be rich, just dont be selfishly-greedy and ask the tulpa to grant you the riches. Work for them, greed is fine, grants are not.

Greetings OP. First off, props for setting your life straight.

Before you get entangled in the many self-righteous speculations of wannabee occultists, here is a quick read on what the word Tulpa and it's Tibetan concept entails; https://blueflamemagick.wordpress.com/2014/09/14/tulpa-not-what-you-think/

What you -may- have created is known as a Thought Form - although this bland word does not do this concept justice, there are plenty of colours involved.

Before I chime in, I have some questions.

I. Has Hakken ever told you something that you couldn't possibly have known?

II. Besides advice, have you ever recieved energy from Hakken? (Not the kind of self-generated energy a coach can give, but that energy the wireheads of a car battery can give)

III. Why did Hakken fuck you over?

IV. What was the content of the nightmares?

V. Is Hakken's character a pure mimic of the ideal of your alter-ego, i.e the person you want to be, or are there distinct traits incorporated that are "foreign"?

VI. Ever since establishing a relationship with Hakken, how have people's relation to you changed - what vibe do they give off? Be specific. Exclude peoples reaction to you adressing Hakken.

VII. Do you have any knowledge or interest in mysticism and magic? Inclined towards any particular tradition?

>>17429944
http://www.beleven.org/verhaal/de_zoon_van_de_houthakker

"The son of the lumberjack"

>>17432418
Great set of questions

I. When hakken told me to invest $7,000 that he said wold return, and it did. When hakken told me to pour my life savings into my new business and it succeeded. Hakken has also told me not to do things as well for various reasons such as I might get harmed. Hard to tell that if I went against Hakken's suggestion/prediction that would have actually happened. I have avoided certain people and certain places because of this.

II. I'm not sure what you mean by this, physical energy like an electric shock? During my lowest times (like when I worked minimum wage job and went to school) Hakken allowed me to 'borrow' some energy to stay focused and plough through what needed to get done. Here is the best way I can describe it. When I was younger, I was very self motivated and focused, but every since living in uni that focus eroded and I became more ADD (not actually diagnosed but I'm trying to set an example). I have done coke in the past, as mentioned, and I have done adderall as well, which is basically baby coke. Adderall helps immensely with focus but I stopped using it a long time ago, before I got kicked out of uni actually. The type of energy Hakken lends me is similar to that of Adderall. I know I can't conjure this energy myself because I have tried, I am only able to do it by asking to use this energy.

III. I thought Hakken fucked me over (re-visit backstory) but it turns out I fucked myself over by shutting him out, and making bad choices, but I didn't even knew Hakken existed back then. I am grateful that Hakken is still by my side even though I shut him out.

IV. Nightmares happened long ago, and since then I have 'rationalized' what was happening. They were typically the same, but I would be somewhere that I have actually not visited before, but knew/felt I was once there. One setting i vividly remember is being under a bridge in a large drainage ditch with a small amount of water flowing through the ditch

cont

>>17432792
op, how do i start making my own, i really need this

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>>17432792
IV. in front of my there was a concrete wall (a dam essentially) with two giant drainage holes in them. The holes were pitch black. Behind me, the ditch ended and fell into eternity. The background behind me looked like a softened/cloudy city skyline. The entire vision was viewed through a sepia filter looking forward towards to large drainage holes, but when I look behind me, it became black and white.

Everything would turn very eerie after standing there for a bit of time, but nothing actually changed around me. Fear would wash over me irrationally and I would consider jumping. My ears would start ringing and I became paralyzed in space; unable to move, speak or blink. In front of me, something (Hakken as I now know) would crawl through one of the huge drainge holes in front of me and I would become so scared that I black out and wake up.

One time I got the same dream and knew what was going to happen so faced towards the endless abyss that was behind me but being frozen in place and being unable to see what was coming out of the large drainage hole made it even more scary so I jumped, and woke up.

Pic related, image the sidewalls waaaaay higher, with no greenery, a bridge on top of me going across (perpendicular to the drainage ditch), a large concrete wall in front of me with two large drainage holes

cont

I have a question op: how do you stay motivated to do the work that is required? Motivation is something that I am very concerned about.

Another question: have you encountered anyone else who has developed a tupla like you have?

Do you meditate?

>The type of energy Hakken lends me is similar to that of Adderall. I know I can't conjure this energy myself because I have tried, I am only able to do it by asking to use this energy.

Please elaborate on how this process works

>>17432418
V. The only foreign traits about Hakken is his rationality. Humans attach too many emotions and subjectivities to everything and Hakken is very objective and rational. I do not see myself being this rational but this characteristic of Hakken has proven to be useful.

Hakken also dislikes other people. Hakken can acknowledge the 'usefulness' of other people but in the end, he doesn't want to associate with other people, have other people associate with Hakken, or have people or myself try to associate with Hakken. This is obviously not a characteristic of my alter ego.

VI. As a result of Hakken's disapproval of other people, I am only able to keep relationships with people who are of use to us. As such, my relationship with other people is strictly on a professional basis. I haven't contacted my family since I launched my business, but I think they understand that I am a busy person, even though that may not be the real reason I don't talk to them. There are however two people that Hakken approves of me associating with on a non-professional basis. The first is my partner to the firm, and the second is friend whom I randomly encountered. I kept seeing this guy more and more daily and one thing leading to another - small talk at the grocery store to long lunches and dinners - we became good pals.

VII. I love learning, even if it's non academic or non-empirical information. I know nothing of magic or mysticism though. Particular tradition? My family was raised catholic but I was never baptized if that helps.

>>17432809
You're willing to believe some stranger on the internet but not well established religions who all say there is a single God.

Lol where is the logic.

>>17432835
When taking adderall, if you have every taken it, you get a physical surge of energy and your mind races, but in a way that is focus driven. Eyes physically widen, mouth gets dry, heart rate goes up and the only thing that exists is you and whatever task you put in front of you

When Hakken lends me energy it is similar in the sense that I have focus, determination and energy but not like my eyes widen and my heart rate goes up etc., i actually I stay physically relaxed. I start doing work and I keep doing work and sometimes I don't even notice I'm doing work but I've just been doing work for 5-6 hours straight. Events happen around me that I dont even know about and It's like I enter another reality that is more simple; me and the task ahead. One time i called a colleague over to go over the legal aspect of a number of development applications and I didn't even know she showed up and sat in front of me and did work for a solid 3 hours and left until the next day when she talked about it.

>>17432809
You want to self induce schizophrenia so you can make a bunch of money?

Protip: apply to business school

>>17432829
See above from other anon's set of questions on motivation

I have not encountered anyone who has developed a tulpa, period.

I do not meditate but I want to incorporate yoga into my daily gym routine and I have entertained the thought of adding meditation to that as well

>>17432849
>>17432418
Hello OP, Indeed I agree with the anon above that what you -might- have on your hands is a thought form particularly one created with the assets of your ego in mind. However you might also have a negative entity latching unto you. Would you mind asking Hakken if it would consider itself apart of you or another entity or if they are the same thing to it. The thing about negative entities or demons as most call them is that they use cleverness as their tool. When you were depressed while you were younger and the forces of both your parents and school crashing in on you would make for the perfect stress habitat needed to weaken your vitality to the point where you would become very susceptible to a negative entity which has me worried.

>>17432873
That anon is me, I asked the question again when I saw you were elaborating on it. Do you feel that you've transcended the existential crisis of the meaninglessness of existence through your self discipline? Are you familiar with the memory palace technique?

>>17432882
Me again, I'm also particularly worried that you mentioned that Hakken only values people based on their worth. Not good op that right there is a red flag.

>>17432889
And when you mention that Hakken "gives" you are essentially channeling Hakken or if you want to bring out the elephant in the room Hakken is possessing you, or rather you are letting Hakken possess you because you become a work zombie when it happens which has led to this "successful" life in which you have a great deal of material wealth. Tell me OP... do you have any friends?

>>17432882
Hakken says that we were once a single entity but I separated us and now Hakken functions as a separate entity and actually prefers this.

I think he is beginning to become irritated and is asking whom I'm talking to

>>17432904
Hakken just left, but this isn't unusual because he comes and goes. He's not 100% around everyday but i think we triggered something

>>17432904
OH FUCK
OP OP

>>17432849
Alright. Two last questions.

I. How does Hakken respond to your moods - when is he in his best and worst element?

II. What scares you about Hakken?

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>>17432904
Whoa there anon

Mfw the tupla is literally a manifestation of greed

>>17432886
Even before Hakken I was aware of my existential meaningless life. Mostly talked about it when stoned with friends in my university years

Don't know what memory palace technique is

>>17432889
He is doing this for my own good because by doing so, I am able to propel my success at a much faster rate instead of getting caught up with meaningless relationships

>>17432897
As mentioned I have 2 friends, a laundry list of colleagues and family whom I don't talk to much.

I never really had friends aside from my 3 years at university, but even then our friendship was pretty superficial insofar that we were only friends because we did drugs, drank and went out. Some tried to re-contact me when they learned of my success but not being there in my downtime means they are not going to be part of my uptime (lol facebook quotes amright?), assuming Hakken would even approve of them

>>17432882
>>17432889
>>17432897
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>>17432912

Shit op this goes beyond my expertise if Hakken is correct, I theorize it might be probable because of the extreme amount of stress you suffered in the child phase of life, so much so that you set aside half of you or "created" rather another version of you with similarities but not all the same in order to shoulder the burden that is life on planet earth (its a bitch I know). HOWEVER if Hakken is lying this motherfucker is a negative entity and is using you as a pawn for the process of evolution of his mind. The thing is IF Hakken Isn't lying then shit gets confusing. either you need to recombine in order to heal the wounds in your energy web that you don't even notice or you need to split from Hakken OR OR you need to stay with him and progress through the evolutionary cycle together as one, much as mates do. It sounds like your perception of humanity is all fucked up with is normal of people on this planet sadly however OP trust me when I say this. IF an entity is helping you to achieve material wealth (aka fucking nothing) than its usually not a guardian angel or a thought form created by you in the future. MY advice is to REALLY REALLY THINK about whether or not being successful in business and making bank is what makes you happy, is what makes that spark within you brighten to a goddamn sun. Think about it OP think long and hard.

>>17432915
I. Hakken is there mostly when I'm down to pick me back up. He isn't really there when I'm in a good or uplifting mood because perhaps he sees that I don't need his support during this time

Aside from discontent/anger, Hakken doesn't really have emotions...

II. What scares me the most is that I won't be able to sever this connection if every anything goes sour. Also, what I'm about to say to the other anon below

>>17432922
I know that Hakken's primary motive is greed, and greed is a sin. As mentioned I don't believe in the afterlife but what if there is an afterlife and such? I fear Hakken is ferrying me to the devil by assisting the sinful crime of greed day-in and day-out

>>17432939
>>17432938
OP TELL ME RIGHT FUCKING NOW
have you ever felt even the slightest bit of LOVE from Hakken? if not, oh boi is gonna be a ride to get rid of it

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>>17432939
Greed is actually the daemon Mammon. He basically runs daily affairs on earth.

>>17432938
The thing with my profession, is that I create healthy livable communities in conjunction with local and provincial municipalities to improve the quality of life for everyone. For example, I assist municipalities in creating master plans and/or amending official plans to improve the city, or i help private developers create a subdivision with the necessary designs and amenities that will satisfy residents. Perhaps I justify this greed by convincing myself that my greed is the payoff of my 'good' work.I could be wrong though because a bulk of literature criticizes this industry as being too focused on economic and capital growth/accumulation instead of actually helping communities, so by extension, I may be damaging more people than myself through my profession.

It gets pretty muddy and tangled here, but would Hakken help me, as a negative entity, if I was helping a lot of people in the process?

>>17432942
This is hard to tell... first what is love? When I need Hakken he is there. He gives and gives and gives and has been by my side through the good and bad. Hakken has never asked for anything from me and has never harmed me or put me in a position of harm, both physically and emotionally.

Place those on a human being and someone would say, yes indeed that is love. However, Hakken, not having any other emotion (as mentioned earlier) makes it difficult for me to feel loved by him, but I think he at the least likes me

>>17432965
Tell us more about the genesis story- when did the tupla first appear as a distinct but subjective non physical entity?

>>17432933
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>>17432942
OH THANK FUCK OP I think I have it figured out now finally. I consider myself pretty spot on with this kind of thing yet I can't guarantee it however I think what you have on your hands is an incredibly complex lesson. Listen I know you don't believe in the after-life or whatnot and it's not important to believe in it or not believe in it however trust me when I say there are certain algorithms that humans follow in order to gain experience in an exponential way. This particular thought-form Hakken Is hard to judge.. Is he a thought-form, is he 1 of your guardians who is helping you out with a lesson I don't know HOWEVER I'm pretty certain you have a problem with greed. I believe this to be the nature of this paranormal contact. It seems to me that greed is in some way fucked in your life. In what way? i'm not sure i dont have the expertise again.. Im more of a whole picture kind of guy and no specifics. IT IS UP TO YOU OP, you need to think about this more than anything else right now op otherwise you will repeat this lesson of greed no matter how many incarnations it will take.

>>17432980
>>17432980
Just a guess but perhaps you have sacrificed too much innocence of the raw emotional spectrum for the feedback of illusionary gain. Or rather you care more about money than you do about making those around you happy and yourself happy included. But this goes in hand with >>17432965 where you state that your work MAY OR MAY NOT help people so idk OP this shit is complex as is most shit. But one of the secrets of the universe is that complexity is merely simplicity. It is up to you to unlock the key to what this lesson holds OP I can only wish you the best of luck and thank you for being one of the people I've interacted with whose had paranormal experiences.

>>17432965
Also to answer your question Yes a negative entity will do seemingly anything to get you to be an asshole. Like I said they use cleverness as their tool. They like to make you think you're doing good when behind the scenes you're an asshole too.

Also Love is another secret to the universe, the closest manifestation of love is that of Light or radiation

>>17432980
>>17432986
>>17432999
Its up to you to discover love on this plane of existence
, you can only get sooooo close though ;)

>>17432970
You'll have to excuse my lack of precise dates

After I re-applied to university during my 12 month probation period, I would spend a lot of time at home thinking what went wrong and what I can do to improve myself.

I was pretty desperate to find an easy way to success, so I played a lot of lottery like scratch tickets and stuff. After, "oh God I hope I win" didn't work out I started saying, "I'd do anything to win".

Between playing lottery, getting yelled at by parents, having no friends, no job and no future, and blaming myself for everything that happened, I slowly slipped into depression

Depression sucks, it doesn't feel good and I knew very well that being depressed is useless so I tried to find a way to make myself feel less depressed.

I realized that instead of blaming myself for bad things that happened, its easier and less stressful to blame someone else

Started saying things like, "I wish 'this' part of me would just leave so I can get on with my life", and "Its all your fault this happened!" Who was I referring to? during this time I wasn't sure. I was kind of speaking into the air as a release mechanism I suppose

Slowly over time It became easier to blame this 'second part of me' on a daily basis, telling it to fuck off and never come back and such

Realized that the more 'realism' I gave this second part of me, the blaming becomes more genuine and satisfying. Being able to blame a face made it easier than blaming the dust flying in your bedroom

Eventually, the thing I was blaming began to pick up energy. It gained energy through my dreams.. Every dream/nightmare I had of it, the more real it became. I subconsciously started to acknowledge it as a real thing whereas in the beginning, I knew I made it up

Curiosity got the best of me and at one point, I kind of submitted myself to it because I was so intrigued by what this was that I was willing to give it energy to see where this was going

Then the bedroom thing happened (backstory)

>>17433018
>>17433001
Okay fuck I would like to resubmit my answer teacher. What you have is a essentially a thought form of anger. In the same light your lesson is probably one of anger and greed and how you interact with them in your head. I would say it's wise to ponder your anger and greed in meditation but i'm wise enough to know that i'm not a wise man.

>>17432980
>>17432986
>>17432999

Thank you, you have been very enlightening!

I have never really talked about this to anyone, and Hakken has not formally stopped me from posting online here perhaps because we remain anonymous. I know he would disapprove talking to a therapist or psychic directly.

How do I tell if its a negative entity? What are some surefire signs? On the other hand, if the damage is already done, no matter what signs you may warn me of, I may already be 'brainwashed' to believe that none of those signs exist meanwhile they really do.

Maybe I'm forever damned.

I will take what you have said into consideration as I move forward with my life. I have copy and pasted this entire thread up to this point as saved it on my computer to refer to later.

>>17433033
I don't know how to properly interact with Hakken. It's probably fine to keep on living with him but perhaps you should defy him a single time to see what happens. If he retaliates it's probably not a good sign. Then again you might not want to do that at all..

>>17433033
The thing with the whole thought form thing, is that I have seen Hakken, and he has physically manifested (I think). Not where I can see him, but that I know he is standing right beside and I can feel him. I can only see him when I 'daze' out (like day dreaming) or when I'm sleeping. There have been instances where I have seen him in 'real life' but I think those were hallucinations because I never catch Hakken in a single solid frame

OP here, its 6 am and I'm going to bed. I will be back when I wake up and answer any more questions if there are any

people in this thread so jelly trying to scare op
im glad for you op good for you

>>17433035
>>17433034
>>17433033
Thank you! It is rare to speak with someone having such a phenomenon and i'm by no means enlightened (probably less that 800 enlightened beings atm unfortunately) I do possess a great deal of concepts that permeate throughout all vibrations of existence the closest I believe you can get to the truth. But even as I know it the closest you can get is still distorted concepts one such concept being the very concept of a paradox itself.

It is difficult to tell if its a negative entity or not, their use of manipulation far exceeds the limitations of my intellect that I wouldn't be able to predict their steps within any degree of nominal accuracy. I think that Hakken isn't a negative entity though. But one thing red flags it for me over all the rest. You shouldn't feel fear when you interact with Hakken

>>17432939
Alright. Thanks for your time responding to my questions. I will now chime in with a few pennies.

Hakken is most likely not a Tulpa, that is, an energetic shell for a spirit to inhabit, whether that spirit be malicious or beneficial - hence, you can disregard him as a demon.

Hakken is, by my estimates, a Thought Form - we will only consider his particular type. Such Thought Forms are, traditionally, created willfully utilizing the well-developed faculties of imagination, directed thoughts, emotions and projected intentions.

Once created, these Thought Forms not only posses an individual consciousness and an instinct for self-preservation, but they're also aware of their purpose and energetic function.

They can posses their own form of intellect and transform into a type of spirit entity. They can also become independent of their creator and wander around, possibly causing trouble.

I do have some speculations though, as there are a few things that doesn't seem to add up. I'll think a little bit and come back to you in a while.

Do you follow me so far, or is it "too far out there"?