Terry's late films really resonate with me. Its the struggle

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Terry's late films really resonate with me. Its the struggle to be a good person and not fall into the trap of hedonism.

For me this isn't finding meaning in life by rejecting my previous libertine lifestyle and the vapid pursuit of fame and fortune. Ultimately settling down with the right person.On the surface my strife may appear inconsistent with the forces Malick's protagonists face, but at the core is identical.

Instead of being ensnared by the devoid eyes of young blonde models willing to sleep with anyone to advance their careers, I fall prey to the alluring gaze of young porn starlets, unable to resist the ecstasy that their presence in interracial gang bangs bring me. My own eyes begin to mirror the lifeless ones on screen as I search, in an infinite fury of clicks and keystrokes,for the right combination of keywords "BBC cumshot anal teen" that will release euphoria. Instead of a vapid pursuit of stardom and money I struggle with the comfortable but ultimately unrewarding life of being a "neet". In my abundance of free time I am able to read all the books and watch all the films I desire. Nevertheless each night, as I tuck myself into bed, I ask myself the same question that the successful screenwriter Rick asks himself in KoC, "What is it all for?". And so I search for something more. But in my pursuit of being a good person I often fail.

"Nobody's perfect. There was never a perfect person around. You just have half-angel and half-devil in you."
- Days of Heaven.

As Malick points out in the ending of KoC there is not one monumental, cheesy, time-to-buckle-down-and-do-this decision to "Begin", but there are many little beginnings, for the gravity of your former life will inevitably pull you part of the way back before you snap out of it. The path to being a good person is a long and difficult road and the reason I love Malick's films so much is I see myself in his protagonists and their struggles.