>when people talk about how you're a "great guy"

let me suck your dick

>>6437619
you have to love yourself, anon

get it together

>when you're a legitimately good person but everyone thinks you're a terrible human being

>>6437646
I find it even hard sometimes to look myself in the mirror

I just now assume when someone says I'm great they secretly hate me

>at a party with a friend
>everybody's drunk
>group is laughing at straight-up normie cartoon porn on Paheal
>pinups of sexy cartoon moms and like.. some weakass Batman porn or something
>everyone is laughing loudly and freaking out over it
>"Ohhhh my god, that's soooo gross!"
>"Who would even draw this stuff?"
>"Dude I cannot think of a sadder thing for someone to jerk off to."
>"Hahaha, this is so fucked up! They're cartoons, man! They're not real!"

>meanwhile I'm wondering why they haven't sorted by score yet

That was when I realized I can't ever make friends as an adult.

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>>6437656
sounds fishy

I'm waiting for the day when it all comes crashing down around me. I know it'll happen eventually, a tab left open, someone borrowing my phone, something is gonna do me in. I've thought of telling my closest friend just so I feel better but I can't trust that so I go here. When it happens, I'll either have to kill myself or leave the state/country and try again. I've been working on kicking my perversions but as I'm sure you all know, it ain't that easy.

>>6441449
I'm just waiting for people to call me out on what a horrible friend I am
And tell me how I'll die alone because I have no qualities that a girl would find attractive

>>6440800
>meanwhile I'm wondering why they haven't sorted by score yet
>That was when I realized I can't ever make friends as an adult

that hit really close to home, anon :(

>>6441651
horrible friend? Unlikely. If they didn't like you there wouldn't associate with you. No qualities females find attractive? Again, unlikely. Even the most fucked up person can find someone. And who cares if you don't? Imagine all the money you'll save on not having to pay for a bitch and kids. You can do anything if you put the time into it. The whole world is out there, grab it by the balls and squeeze em for all they've got.

>>6440800
why are all yanks shallow dudebros
especially californians

>>6441730
I just feel like I'm not as good a friend as I can be; people are good to me but I don't usually return the sentiment even when I want to, and to change that I would have to do things that make me nervous

I'm about ready to accept that I'll probably be alone, I just want people to see me for what I really am and be true to me. That way I free myself from pondering on what can happen if I somehow deviate from routine or get lucky even if I don't and instead just be happy to no longer worry about burdening anyone. I'll just do what I want in life to make me happy and not worry about sharing it with anyone.


Sometimes I feel that certain people are only nice to me because they think I might hurt myself if I have a bad day. I won't, but thinking if that's true does make me feel weak.

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>>6437619
>parents are proud of me as far as academics go and staying out of trouble (and prison)
>most of my friends say I'm a bro and reliable
>most people that guess my age are off by almost a decade
>only my cousin knows I've been a massive degenerate furfag for almost 10 years now

>be a nice guy
>try to be funny around people
>they are comfortable around me, never told me to piss off
>see all those girls being in relationships with Chads that act like fucking assholes to everyone, sometimes even to them too
What am I doing wrong? Do I have to be more alpha?

>>6441847
It's not all yanks, anon, that's just the unfortunate truth about California: it's an absolute shithole of a state, and is literally a combination dudebro breeding ground and hobo toilet.

>>6442028
I don't know why people worry about how being into furry could be a bad thing. Everyone has their weird kinks, there's nothing wrong with it. You got nothing to worry about if everything is going right for you personally and socially, hiding your power level should just be a subconscious thing.

>tfw tsundere towards everyone because I'm afraid of bonding with another human bean

>>6442044
Maybe you need to consider that it's true that nice guys finish last.

I myself have decided to maintain my integrity and accept it. I'm too much of a coward to change who I am, and that's okay. Whether I wind up alone or not, I'll be happy I stayed true to myself.

>>6442222
I'm sort of the same, I'm afraid to get attached to people. Too many times I've seperated from people I've thought I was good friends with, exchange contact info, but after that we never really talk like we used to.
Maybe it's my fault.

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I'm a defective organism.
I don't play by the normal rules of my kind and am failing at my most vital function for survival which is to pass on my genetic information that has been written for hundreds of thousands of years by my ancestors.
But that's okay, since at least there won't be more of me and it probably wasn't meant to be.

>high school/college
>huge social circle
>constant opportunities to meet new people
>friends everywhere
>tons of people into the same things
>even friends with full-time jobs make some time in the evening
>long parties with video games, cool new shows, interesting board games, and companionship
>conversations about future plans, fun ideas, and upcoming projects

>adult life
>officemates make an already-unbearable workplace even more tedious and frustrating
>share my hobbies with others to try meeting new people
>become topic of break room gossip instead
>any get-togethers are snack food dinners where everybody talks about their job (again) and their kids (again)
>sometimes, somebody tries to turn the conversation to something on Netflix/Hulu/HBO
>before somebody immediately shuts all talk of it down because they haven't watched it

>Noooo, ohmygod no spoilers!
>Please, I totally haven't had the time to watch it!
>I'll catch up for next time, I swear!
>(but they never fucking do)

>whole thing goes barely three hours
>everybody leaves by 9PM
>try to arrange anything that might go an hour or two later
>try to arrange something different, like a strategy game night or something
>try to do something on any night other than Tuesday, maybe a weekend so there's more time
>get the same old excuses

>I've got work in the morning, sorry
>The kids have school in the morning, sorry
>No time for playing games these days, sorry
>Weekends are all for the kids, sorry
>You know how it is, right?

I don't remember getting old.

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>Built up the facade of normalcy for over a decade

>Have always been a sexual deviant, was fapping to chinese cartoons and furry since I was a young lad

>find normal girls not worth the effort/genuinely not as sexually excited by them as I am with cartoons

>Hits me one day that my fake normie life is actually busywork that's slowly draining me of my happiness

>Madness is the gift that has been given to me

Get up and get down with the sickness

>Tell all my fake friends what I actually think of them

>Phony, goonybearded numale orbiters that just get drunk every weekend and browse reddit on their smartphones

>Delete everything I had on facebook

>Replace it with my /entire/ raunchy, degenerate porn folder for all to see

>release my powerlevel in the most blunt way possible

>Nothing really changes, I just feel like I'm finally living the way I want too; as a total freak

feels good man, just let it all go...

>tfw you were borderline retard in elementary and middle school but realized how much of a fucking idiot you were/are so you try to salvage yourself in high school but it doesn't work
Welp, maybe cool egg will be different.

>>6443608
Damn I'm not sure I can ever embrace the degeneracy that much but your post is pretty much my last resort in life.

>>6443704
Are you rich? College is a great place to rebuild yourself if you're rich. Oh, and white. Are you rich and white? You probably shouldn't bother with college if you're not. Your degree will not get you a job.