I'm a guy without much experience in his early 20s. I don't really like the fact that I have sexual urges since I'm not that sexual of a person. I've tried doing hobbies and enjoying my alone time since I'm not good at being a sexual person but it doesn't work.
Instead my instincts force me to try to be an extroverted sexual person and I hate it. I hate flirting and touching people but I need to if I want a relationship. The only times I've ever had sex I very dryly manipulated the other person by pretending to care about their interests before getting the better of them I suppose. It was terrible.
I know I'm a bad person but I'm just at a loss as to what I should do. I'm not depressed enough to kill myself but I feel this psychic agony when I even think of flirting with someone or making my intentions known to them.
I'm fucked I fucking HATE this.
And to top it all off I'm a retard apparently since I posted this on the wrong board.
Dammit