Admissions thread. Make an admission about yourself you wouldn't

>>24184011
I've fapped to traps on several occasions.
It's funny that my darkest secret is pretty common on 4chan.

>>24184228
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I've fucked trannies on several occasions.

Only one female friend knows.

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>>24184011
I hate my life and think about taking my youngest daughter and running away all the time, like one day we just disappear. no one knows I feel this way

I am in a great relationship, have been for 2 years now. Our sex life isn't bad but it's not exactly what I would like, I often fantasize about before he and I got together how I fucked my virgin friend and taught him about sex for a month. It was some of the most fun sexually I have ever had.

When we fuck sometimes I pretend he is a virgin and I am showing him the ropes.

>>24184295
You can still do this. Just instead of introducing him to sex, introduce him to the thing you specifically like. Then let him do the same if he wants.

>>24184328
We do this already, he just isn't into much outside of vanilla sex (which still feels wonderful but isn't exactly at my level of gross pervert)

>>24184295
>great relationship
>unhappy with sex life

pick one

>>24184344
Not unhappy with my sex life, just not used to it being so very vanilla. Sex is just one factor of a multitude of things that are important in a long term relationship. It most has to do with me being a bit more into kink and him being vanilla.

I'm 36, gay and in an open relationship with a 25 year old. I love fucking 18 year old boys. I don't pay them, but they leave happy. It is always nsa. I get off on fucking thing guys. Virgins are even better. There is nothing more fun than dropping a boy full of your cum at his parents after you have used him.

>>24184295
>>24184349
Why won't you just talk with him about your needs? Christ, that's what people do all over the world...

>>24185028
As stated above, we try new things together all the time most of it just isn't in his wheelhouse or he isn't into it. I can't force him nor do I have any interest in making him do things that aren't pleasurable to him. He is well aware my sexual needs are a bit more extreme than his, we openly talk about it.

>>24185046
Have he told you what does he like? Or is it just you trying new things with him and waiting for response?

>>24185056
He likes very vanilla, missionary or occasionally from behind sex. Toys don't do much for him, bondage, watching porn together and so on. Like I said it's something we talk about. I ask him often what floats his boat, if there is anything he would like to try and so on.

>>24185064
I'm in the same boat as u anon, my gf is great in so many ways just isn't as kinky as i am and i feel like a part of me is missing... i used to cheat on past gf but that is no longer me. what u gonna do? is there a way to get the kink and still stay in relationship

>>24185079
Eh, not much can be done. We try things if I come up with an idea and eventually either he will open up more and be down for something else or not. I wont give up easily, at least the vanilla sex we have is good so I am never bummed out when we have it. I have toys and stuff I use when I need or want a little something extra.

>>24185089
ya our sex is great too, she doesn't like getting oral as much as i like to give it (which i think is strnge) ..ever talk/think about inviting someone else in to bed with u 2? how do u satisfy your urges? would u cheat? Skype sex someone else? u gonna stay together or break up? i really wanna stay with my gf but unsure how to fix this part

>>24185064
Seems like he has no issues then. As far as I know "kinks" and "fetishes" are results of external influences and experience.

It is confirmed that many people developed interest in dirty stuff while watching porn. Two of my friends admitted that they developed interest for bdsm after watching so much porn that they got bored with vanilla and started searching for something new and fresh (same for me tho)

The fact that people who like vanilla sex are among the most reasonable and normal people, and those most open-minded and prone to experimenting are often seriously fucked up on a day to day basis only confirms that.

>>24185104
I asked him a few times if he ever thought about bringing someone else into our bed male or female and he wasn't into it which I understand. My urges are mostly satisfied with regular sex and masturbation to gross porn or fantasies with toys outside of that, I would never cheat, never skype sex or sext anyone else. We are in it for the long haul.

I know some women are really self conscious about having someone go down on them, that could be a big part of her problem.

>>24185089
What worked for me and my partner to spice things up was for each of us to make a list of things were wanted to do to/with each other. Then we each picked 3 things from the others list that we were willing to try and did one a day for the next six days. On the sevenths we each picked our favorite and had some fun.

>>24185117
i>>24185117
see. good advice..what kind of gross porn u watch? whats ur top fantasies?

>>24185126
nice. what were they?

I am happily married to a wonderful woman. She was the first girl I ever kissed (and obviously slept with).
However, recently I started regretting not experimenting more when I was younger. Making out with girls in school, sleeping with girls that threw themselves at me.
It is however against my religion, so I'm also proud I didn't. But it's really causing inner conflict lately.

>>24185111
Okay? I am not sure what the point of this post was. I am not shitting on my bf, he is easily the best person I have ever known, I was simply venting about my occasional frustration with our sex life. He watches porn, he just isn't interested in doing the stuff he watches in real life, which is fine. I just came here to vent.

>>24185126
We've done this extensively, a lot of our sexual interests just aren't on the same level. I feel like in time something will give and we will find a happy medium.

>>24185130
Not really stuff that needs to be gotten into here.

I was kicked out of the military and told I have no future for confessing a "suicide attempt" I had in middle school, and now I actually want to commit suicide cause it ruined my life.

>>24184011
I'm a 25 year old virgin. I've had one girlfriend when I was 16 and it lasted for about 2 months. She was a slut and we WERE going to fuck but her little sister was asleep on the bottom bunk so I couldnt go through with it.

Cause I'm ugly and overweight I couldnt stand going back to being a single virgin while she went around with other guys so I said to a few friends I was dating I girl who used to live near me. Fast forward to today and people at my work think I'm having relationship trouble with three different girls

I have no confidence whatsoever so I make up this shit so people dont think I sit in the house playing vidya all day whole they're out having fun and socialising. Its easy really to make up a fake person you just give it a little thought

oh and I've "turned bi" through excessive porn and masturbation along with fetishes. Usual route, too much porn, find 4chan, find traps and tumblr, slowly switch from wanting to fuck a trap to wanting to be a full time trap slave

>>24184011
I'm a trap. If i shaved I'd have a trap physique. But I'm a permavirgin. I've never even been in a relationship. I want to give my virginity to someone i love, but the closest person like that who i know lives 3000 miles away and we may never meet face to face. I don't even know how to have a relationship. At 26 years old i know I'm getting uglier and becoming more and more of a failure, even though i spend my life working with no hobbies. I feel so alone and incompetent and i fear I'll wake up some day and it will be a decade later and I'll have not improved at all. I feel like ending it, but i don't have the guts to do it, on the off chance death is worse.

>>24185132
Watersports, public fun, restraints, showing off for a third to jerk off to, sex on a plane, making a video, and broadcasting on a camsite

>>24185142
that's what it happens when you settle for a sweet nice guy.

You need to chose between your libido and his self respect.


What do you want to keep in your relationship? You can't have both, you have too much of a head start in your sexuality. (sex "positivity" FTW)

>>24185155
Well, the means they were right, sorry dude, but if a change in career makes you suicidal, you should not have a gun in a stresfull enviroment
>>24185181
gay clubs? brasil? literally any online kink comunity...(unless you live in Nk) You can live a fantasy life or a secure vanilla socialy acceptable fantasy, you can't do both long term, don't even try.

>>24185179

>be 16,
>making out with slut in the same as her little sister
>can't go trough with it.
>years later decide I "turned bi" because internets

sorry dude, you've always been gay. Get over it, get in shape, get waxed all over and enjoy all the cocks.

My girlfriend of many years is on holiday and I've spent a bunch of the time of her being away looking for some random girl to stick my dick in. Might have something lined up for this weekend then I'll kiss my girlfriend a welcome home when she's back afterwards.

Hate my job. I kinda hope I show up one day to find it burned down. I've played out getting fired and it's always a sigh of relief. I wouldn't even be mad. I hate most people but primarily old and/or dumb people which is 99% of who I work with and for. My friends are super shitty and kinda wish I could just cut them out of my life. I take interest in what they care about and will pay for stuff or let them leech off of me. They never give a shit about any of my interests and they're generally unemployed and do nothing but bitch.

Im a virgin, but no one knows. Im just really good looking and for some reason guys assume I get more vagina than they do.

I have BDD, but no one knows about that either really.

>>24185343
>gay clubs? brasil? literally any online kink comunity
I'm bi but I'd rather be with females, and I'm not even kinky. I just like being a trap, it feels more comfortable that way. I don't want to go to gay bars or Brazil or some online kink community, I just want someone relatively normal.

>>24184011
Well I have none really except I'm into loli although everybody already knows, my friends and family although they might've erased that from their minds

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>>24185179
24 year old femanon here, people just assume I'm either a lesbian or that I fuck people on the regular despite me being a mega virgin haha

>>24185155
I mean, you should have read into that before saying anything about it, since it's considered lying to the military about your previous history.

but things will continue to get hard, just like the military you have to keep going no matter what.

otherwise you committing suicide just proves them right. find something else besides the military, there are millions upon millions of ways things can go in your life, but you're the one that ultimately decides what route to go.

>>24185409
you sound like a huge whiner, literally everything that's wrong in your life is because you allow it, you have nobody to blame but yourself.

if you're unhappy with your job, go out and find another one, then quit once and for all. nobody is forcing you to give people stuff either, if you can't say no that's not just their fault for asking, but your fault for not having the common sense to say no.

fuck, people like you are so annoying for blaming others for your shitty life and I'm going to guess you're still in high school

>>24185567
BDD is a pain in the ass, and honestly it doesn't matter if people assume things that aren't true about you as long as it doesn't change how YOU view yourself.

i used to hide the fact that I'm a virgin too but recently started letting people know; i've been surprised that so many people are fine with it, although you'll still get some surprised people here and there.

work on yourself and getting over your BDD; even if it takes until you're 30, 40, 50, or never to lose your virginity, your friends aren't going to care unless you care about it.

>>24185395
she'll find out eventually, no matter how much you try to hide it women have a sixth sense for this kind of stuff. be an adult and stop wasting her time, or admit to her that you're interested in making her a cuck so she can have the freedom to stay or leave

>>24185181
if you're anything like a friend of mine who's going through the same thing, you're probably terrified of actually putting yourself out there. that's her biggest issue, she expects to run into people and fall in love this way or at work (even though realistically she hardly talks to customers unless it's a professional tone), but that's not how it happens. you need to find things you enjoy, go to events or places where you can volunteer etc. to meet like minded people who enjoy like minded things.

>>24185137
sounds like you're romanticizing youth and missed out opportunities; however, talk to anyone who's actually been through these things when they were younger and many of them regret doing what they did, since most of it is pointless.

if you were to leave your wife, it might make you feel fulfilled but after a while you'd crave the relationship you had and it'd be too late.

>>24184349
Lol, get back to me in 10 years.

>>24185008
It's people like you who make people associate homosexuality with being predatory.

I wish I could meet someone with big boobs. It's all I want

I honestly dont know why I dont kill myself. Im not suicidal, but in the past year my wife has left me, im working a deadend minimum wage job, for the past 6 months ive been living out of an office unit i rent, and I'm just a wreck. Objectively I should just off myself, because I know for a fact its only going to go downhill from here. Being social is a work slill for me, so noone knows that I'm basically homeless, have nothing left to enjoy, and am basi ally just pretending to be human at this point.

>>24185808
it's just funny guys assume im more sexually active than they are.

I actually plan on losing it soon, Im finishing college in may. So I plan on having a job and moving out in the summer. Also im pretty fit right now but im really going to try and get in good shape Im like 10% bf and im going to go lower and really change my diet to improve my looks.

I kind of want to try tinder just to see if any girls actually talk to me.

>>24185808
>if you're unhappy with your job, go out and find another one
Are you from the city, cause smaller towns it's not possible

I still want to take heroin every fucking day and I have to constantly remind myself how much worse my life would be if I relapsed. It fucking sucks.

>>24185876
I would definitely say give tinder a go, it's always nice to see people that like you and actually get a look at the person saying they like you/would diddle you. it's a pretty good ego boost imo, so I say go for it

>>24185868
this isn't the end and part of you realizes that. you have so many years ahead of yourself for so many different things to change, there are so many possibilities for your life to take once you get through this rough time.

>>24185895
I just got off of morphine and oxy myself; I slipped up once after that and the disgust I felt with myself was physically painful. I managed to take pictures during my withdrawal and will usually pull them up when I need to remember the pure hell I went through to get to this point.
if you ever need someone to talk to, feel free to message me, anon. even if it's just to stop yourself from giving into an urge, it sometimes helps to have someone else understand what you're feeling and help you figure out another method to help for that day, a step at a time.

[email protected]

>>24185842
Ain't found out the other three times from years back. Think I'll be fine bro

>>24185918
Thanks anon, I'll keep you in mind. It's hard to explain it to friends or family because I always feel like they're judging me despite their best attempts to support me.

>>24185883
I lived in Parrish, Alabama which is a literal shit hole and still managed to find other options after I quit my job.

either you find something else or you make the best of your situation, you're the only one letting yourself be miserable and choosing how you respond to the things happening to you at work/customers, not them.

>>24185808
I don't really live near major cities so my job options aren't all that great. I am actively looking though and I have bills and a house to pay for so I can't quit and then find one. I could just literally tell my friends to fuck off but then I'd be completely alone. I also complained that they're generally lazy and unemployed. It's not like we go shopping and they point at shit for me to buy! They come over to my house (because I'm the only one who has their own place) and hang out all day, eat my food and drinks and such. Sometimes on the weekend I'll order a pizza and nobody will chip in. In very rare cases we'll go out, get a group meal, and they'll claim to pitch in, say they don't have cash but will pay me back, and never do. I could bother them about it but it's not worth it to me to hound them over $10-$15 after the fact.

I also never complain about ANY of this out loud. This is an anonymous message board in a thread about confessions and getting things off your chest which is the only reason I made a post at all.

I sexted with a grill from soc for over a year even though I was married. She's the only person I'd ever fully cheat with, or so I tell myself.

We fell out of contact though, maybe for the best

>>24185925
>ain't

you're from the south, ain't you?

that being said, she'll find out eventually, trust me. you'll slip up one day.

>>24185928
feel free to save it for a rainy day; and yeah, haha, I honestly know that feeling so well, my family wanted to be helpful when I was withdrawing but still held a lot of anger and disgust towards me, which made recovery that much more stressful.

>>24185931
Wow so many houses

Anyway I'm not the anon who was complaining, but I have a friend who is drinking himself to death working at mcdonalds supporting his dad mom and brother

I visited him once and there is no place that was hiring I walked around the whole place in less than a hour.

>>24185974
Not from your country. You with all the (incorrect) answers.

I wish my parents hadn't caught my uncle molesting me. I enjoyed it just as much as he did.

>>24185974
I went through withdrawal at a friend's place - someone who I'd fucked over in the past but was willing to give me one last chance, so I didn't have that aspect of it. He was in college at the time so the house was empty 9 - 5...I spent most of that time curled up on his couch or in his bathroom. Without his trust I don't think I could've done it.

I've been talking to someone I met here for the past couple of months. I really like them but they live on the other side of the world, I hope everyday that something comes of it but common sense is telling me other wise...

>>24185842
>if you're anything like a friend of mine who's going through the same thing, you're probably terrified of actually putting yourself out there
I'm not afraid of it, I just don't know how to do it and meet decent people at the same time. People say go to bars and clubs, but I've found that attracts very similar types of people. I want to meet like minded people too, but it's difficult, especially who I am. I pay be a trap, but I hate gay pride and I hate the social justice crowd. I lean more right wing than left. And at the same time, I like women more. I feel like I'm a walking contradiction in many ways, and where I live doesn't have people like me.

I'm lucky (well, previously cursed) to have a really large penis, and my latest girlfriend called her sister to brag about how big I am. And now I'm having sex with her, too.

On the flip side this is the first time being hung has done anything beneficial for me.

>>24184011
I'm engaged with a woman I couldn't bear to live without, but I'm afraid I'm falling for someone else.
What's worse is, I think she likes me back.

>>24186070
Run man, run. Marriage changes nothing, you're going to still hate living with her. Marriage. Changes. Nothing.

Just tell her the engagement is off (let her down easy) and cut off all emotional ties.

I regret getting married sometimes.

>>24185918
>this isn't the end and part of you realizes that. you have so many years ahead of yourself for so many different things to change, there are so many possibilities for your life to take once you get through this rough time.

Eh. Im mid-life ans have just balled everything into a 10 year overseas relationship. Im going to end up deported because if this, and Ill be in an even worse situation. I dont see a future upside, and if I was hit an killed by a bus I wouldnt complain, I just dont have a drive to go out and do it myself

>>24186100
The problem is I don't hate living with her.
THAT'S THE PROBLEM
We've lived together for over a year. We have spent every day together since I met her.
We've built a life together already, and I want to see things through to the end, but also I kind of feel jealous of polygamists.
I think I'm just a pig and deserve nobody in my life, but I have someone that makes me happy and I'm ungrateful for it.
I just wish I could stop liking the other person.

>>24186108
I know I don't have the authority to talk about this, especially because I have never been in a relationship, but I have seen enough of them to know that you are ending the "honeymoon" phase. Spending that much time together means you have in essence saturated yourself. I don't know how long you have known each other, but you need to analyze this. It affects many different relationships, including all of them my friends have been in. But you should cut off the other relationship, especially if you want to marry your girlfriend.

>>24186181
I'm not in a second relationship. It's just a coworker, but I see the way she looks at me and how she reacts when I leave. She often asks me about things I do with my gf and compares them to how we are together at work.

>>24186260
Then tell her it is making you uncomfortable. Because clearly, it is. Sexual harassment and unwanted comments aren't just from men to women, women do it a lot. And some women just get jealous and like the idea of "stealing" someone else. She will never love you, she's just being that way because it's a game to her.

>>24186274
It's not like that either. It's like she understands nothing will happen between us and it kind of bothers her. She brought up being faithful to her future spouse and how she though ill of guys who flirted with women when they were in a relationship. I just want to stop thinking about this, but it's hard. This is helping, honestly. I have nobody to talk to about this.

>>24186288
She may not be true to those words. Many people come up with things like "but I would never do that" and still do it because it helps their psyche in handling something they find emotionally wrong. Don't let her get to you, it is possible she is being manipulative and saying this to get you to believe she isn't.

And you're in luck. I'm studying to become a relationship counselor. Yep, someone who hasn't been in a relationship being a counselor of one, it's ridiculous.

>>24186302
Don't worry, I used to be in that same position as you.
It's easier to analyze when all you've done is observe others in their relationships. You see faults from the outside, rather than be blinded on the inside.
The other girl and I only see each other at work, so at least there's that.

>>24186308
>It's easier to analyze when all you've done is observe others in their relationships. You see faults from the outside, rather than be blinded on the inside.
It's funny, I've used that same explanation in the past.

It helps that you keep it a work thing. A lot of people tend to get that way when working as well. You'd be surprised how relationships change when one or both start working. You start yearning for someone or something to get your mind off work. And for some people it becomes a workplace fling. It's the environment you're in fostering these feelings, both in you and her. But you need to refocus. I suggest carrying a picture of your girlfriend in your phone or wallet if you don't do the whole technology thing. Some people hang pictures of their significant others at the cubicles for this very reason. It could be worse, you could have turned to drugs like many people do.

>>24186336
I keep her on my phone, thankfully.
I used to be heavy into alcohol, but I've expressed to my gf that I don't want to be about that anymore, so I doubt I'll be falling back into old vices.

I want to break up with my girlfriend when I'm not with her

Also I don't know what that means, any help?

>>24186351
That's good. And yep, alcohol and smoking falls into that sort of thing I mentioned, so it's great you are not heavily drinking. It can honestly be anything. Try calling or texting her during breaks, if you don't already. Calling preferred, of course. You need to channel any energy you feel with the girl at work, which is misplaced, back to your girlfriend. And remember, there is the off chance that she is manipulating you as well.

>>24186363
I hate this, man.
I get along with her as well as my gf, but she's more attractive.
But, I know, the stupid shit I'm into would drive her away immediately and I tell myself that and it doesn't change how I feel. That's one of the reasons I love my gf so much. She accepts me and all of my annoying quirks, habits, and interests.

>>24186379
That's really awesome, to be able to find someone who accepts you for you. Looks are nothing, anyone can make themselves look like anything nowadays, and there is much more to a person than their looks. Most of my acquaintances' relationships started with infatuation, all ended because no substance. Also another thing, if she is this attractive as you make her to be, you have to ask yourself questions. Why is she single, and why is she talking like this around someone who is not single? Why is she even asking what you and your girlfriend do, as it is definitely not her business. Don't let outward attractiveness distract.

>>24186404
Thanks for being me when I can't be.

>>24186424
I don't know who you are but I can try to relate. I'm just trying to put into perspectives things that you are already thinking or have thought. Sometimes examining your own thoughts as dictated by someone else allows for a better understanding of them.

I wish my husband would have sex with his gf already. She lives so close to us, and I'm unable to have sex right now until my doctor gives me the go-ahead. It kills me that I can't satisfy him right now, and I know she could.

I love them but they're both so damn stubborn, and our plans to get together always fall through.

I am a high functioning Sociopath,
I manipulate and do everything to influence people in my surroundings to skew them in in my favour regardless of how it ends for them.
I deeply in love with my step sister.
I can see a small part of UV spectrum despite having a lens (not as awesome and fun as it sounds) .
I have been raped twice.
I once convinced a straight male to be my sex slave for a week, just to see if I can turn him gay

I can self suck and I really enjoy it... Sometimes it makes me question my sexuality, but then I think well if that were the case every guy that likes jerking off likes jerking off all guys.

>>24186585
Sounds more like psychopathic behaviour to me...

Then again since you're posting you must feel guilt to at least some degree, which would suggest sociopathy...

>>24186729
Hey armchair psychologist. Sociopath = psychopath = antisocial. All are considered synonyms.

>>24186738
Thanks buddy

>>24185842
That's the thing, I would never leave my wife. I mostly just regret the opportunities missed, feel sad and sometimes mad at myself.
Keep hoping that virtual reality technology will improve to such an extent that those kind of experiences could be had virtually.

>>24185343
Settle? I didn't settle, I sought after him and initiated the relationship. I didn't once in the thread say 'I am thinking of breaking up with him or cheating on him' in fact I have said many times I will keep on exploring with him and I enjoy the sex we have even if it's not kinky. As for the 'head start in my sexuality' I am not sure what you mean aside from my tastes being a bit more kinky than his, he's even had more sexual partners than I.

>>24185918
I've never ridden the horse, but I got off something myself. Mind if I email you too?

>>24184011
I've had sex with over 50 hookers and had at least 80 happy ending massages

The only reason I'm here is for the batshit insane 16 year old girls

I find it extremely awkward to initiate conversations or even just say hi to anyone. I can barely even do it and will walk well out of my way to avoid passing neighbors.

Once the silence is broken I can talk quite easily, but have severe anxiety regarding the initiation of conversation.

This leads to me seeming really weird whereby I say "hi" in a super awkward and shaky voice, then begin talking confidently and charismatically right after. It must seem REALLLLLY weird and it never gets better even though I've been this way for about 7 years.

I fucked 9 escorts over the course of the past 10 months. Besides the release, my self esteem has dropped to an all time low, because I've wasted so much money rather than just finding a gf. Even though I don't believe in religion, I feel like I have a huge sin wavering over my head.

I'll never let a soul know about this, and it's not even that terrible.

I slept with a trap once and I'd do it again

>>24185111
<As far as I know "kinks" and "fetishes" are results of external influences and experience.

You know about as far as I can spit a brick.

>The fact that people who like vanilla sex are among the most reasonable and normal people

wait, I overestimated your knowledge

>>24185181
Virginity isn't a thing you can give to someone. It doesn't exist. Even as a concept, it only has any worth whatsoever when you cling to it. The instant you drop it, whether because you grow up and get over it or because you have sex, it becomes a ridiculous joke to even waste time thinking of it.

Get out there and enjoy your life. You're starving yourself for want of the greatest meal ever created, but you'll never even know what that is if you don't try a few starters first.

I want a really sick and twisted romantic relationship with a psychopath.

I'd honestly rather hire an escort every other week than try to form a romantic connection with someone. I'm relatively social, I see friends pretty often, play in a band, go out drinking with coworkers,but to actually pursue someone romantically would be way more effort than I could put out right now, emotionally speaking. A relationship would have to fall into my lap at this point for me to get involved.

I look through all my fiance's emails, texts, calls, browsing history, bank statements, gps location, and facebook messages everyday. I've caught him cheating, watching gay porn, and on cheating threads. Something about it turns me on. I don't know what. Please halp.

>>24190728
It's okay to be turned on by that.
You're really going ham on the big brother stuff though.
>>24190721
It may very well. Keep your hopes up

Theres a guy that I hate that I cant seem to stop being friends with. I dont trust him in anyway and feel like hes going to steal my girlfriend away if I ever come across another because I've done it to him on a few occasions. How the fuck can I just ghost someone I have mutual friends with if I feel like he's always there waiting to strike?
>insecure fag

>>24184011
I played with/killed a few mice as a younger teenager

My first sexual interest was 4 or 5 years younger than I was (I was 20), I'm horrified that I may have influenced how he views relationships due to the age difference between us. I remember telling him how I just wanted to fuck, but I couldn't bring myself to advance the relationship due to crippling insecurities. I haven't talked to him in years

I want friends but I feel nothing when I'm around them. I can't tell my few friends this because then they won't be my friends

I masturbated with a cucumber

I am sure I am going to off myself before I hit 35, yet I do nothing to enjoy the life I have now...

I hope some amazing person will just come and take me away from this life.

I don't know how to connect with people. I have such a narrow array of topics to discuss. I work a lot and that's what I talk about.

In fact, I'm so bad at connecting, I don't even want to fuck my girlfriend. I don't even want to be around her or anyone. I just prefer solitude. I don't think I belong in this world. I'm not part of it. I simultaneously want to be alone and be with people.

I can't be in groups of more than three (including myself), and that's uncomfortable. 1-on-1 is also uncomfortable.

C'est la vie.

>>24184011
I have been married for 7 years. I have cheated countless times, with women, men, trans and cd's.

Finally came out that I wanted something more open than the relationship... Then it all went wayward.

>>24184011
i miss my ex still and it's been 3 years. i've been dating another girl for 3 years now and i cannot get my ex out of my head.

I've fallen for a beautiful girl who's 4 years younger than me (I'm 22, she's 18), and I feel ashamed for liking her. I notice so many little things I love about her, how her nose wrinkles when she laughs, how adorable it is she jingles when she walks because of the bells she always has on her ankles, so many little things about her that culminate together. She hates herself though, probably more than I hate myself, and she hurts herself and it makes me want to tell her how wrong she is about it all, but I know my words would fall upon deaf ears. I'm just trying to be her friend, since I know she'd never be interested in me like that, but it's hard to pretend I don't feel that way about her in front of my friends because I feel so guilty about it all.

I pee sitting down

>>24184011
>Oh, wow, are you my girlfriend? This perfectly matches us.

>she hates when we have sex
>I hate when we have sex
>she fucked around with her virgin friend for while before we dated

You use your vibrator to get off every time?

I'm happy but I think the weight both my wife and I gained is interfering with our sex life.

>>24186585
>I can see a small part of UV spectrum despite having a lens (not as awesome and fun as it sounds) .

I've got that too, along with severe colour blindness. Fields of plants and flowers in sunlight can be cool, but otherwise it just makes my colour perception worse.

>>24185895
I was addicted to the heroins too, anon. I went on a slow, two-year-long methadone taper and that's what did it for me. Nothing else really worked to take away the cravings. Methadone did, and it was able to put enough time and distance between the heroin and me so that, coming off of it, I didn't immediately feel like using again. Just a thought. Don't know if that helps.

>>24191654
Same here. Got tired of splashing pee all over the seat and having to wipe it

>>24184011
I fucked my best friends mother

>>24192401
Thread is for admissions, not fantasies

I actually have no friends. My first year in college was spent in an apartment by myself crying and listening to sad music. I went to a bunch of activities on campus and a shit ton of clubs (oh and we cant forget about classes), but I never hung out with anyone for anything other than school reasons.

>>24184011
Im going to kill myself

>>24185847
*gasp* oh no! I feel so predated as a man on this board

>>24185008
Only 18 y/o? Contact? Also are you fit and a husky guy? I wouldn't let myself be fucked by a fatty or someone with a small cock

I wouldn't keep fucking her if I was halfway decent at meeting new people. Being new to a state sucks

My husband is incredibly gorgeous and kind and loving but not great in bed at all :(

>>24192314
Well I've been off it for over a year now, so starting methadone now would be a bit late I think.
I suppose I have good and bad days, but even in the good days there's always a moment of "I'd love that feeling again".

>>24184269
Lucky dude. Where'd ya meet em?

I cam for guys and have a mistress

>>24185844
Kek

Admission: im very confused in my current situation, also i just saw a very tiny insect crawl from the depths of this carpet but when i tried to squish it it disappeared. Fug

>>24191536
Ew bro

I am a closet diaper fag.
my family and friends don't know.
It disgusts me when I cum while fapping to the diaper porn but I can't stop it just gets me hard as diamonds, at least the humiliation aspect of it.

I love wearing sexy panties. I am married and my wife has no idea. I would love for her to be into it but she is not. I put on s pair of hers once in front of her and she just laughed and said i looked silly. Meanwhile, i was so turned on my dick was ready to explode. I have hired prostitutes just to try on panties in front of them, no sex.

>>24195094
Just tell your wife... Explain how you feel... Randomly putting on her panties is not communicating how you feel. Im sure she would indulge you rather than have you waste money paying whores for literally nothing

Guy here, want to meet someone over the internet and just up and move to where they live if we match. But I'm too shy to really go through with it.

I actually hopped on a VPN to post this...

I met a gal on a hookup thread on /soc/ and we lived close. 2 hours later we were fucking and she convinced me to let me put a vibe my bum. Haven't drank much since.

>>24195198
Aw goodluck

>>24195198
How shy?

>>24195198
This but I'm to broke

>>24195376
Tfw not even shy I just want to straight up start life a new with somebody I connect with

>>24195360
Too hard to meet people, and afraid no one is even interested in me :(

>>24195382
Pretty much what I want to do

>>24195392
could you post a pic?

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>>24195590
i have a feel that i shouldnt post but w/e
ignore my stuffed anime characters lol

Sometimes, when I'm bored, I'll post on here or /r9k/ and strike up conversations on Kik with awkward, shy guys who know from the start that they have no chance of ever getting anywhere with me. I'll let them try to flirt with me, and the vast majority of the time I'll just respond with cold indifference, but I'll occasionally be a little bit warmer or show some slight vulnerability--just enough to give them a glimmer of hope so they'll keep going. I've kept some conversations going for weeks. One even lasted a month or so.

It's pretty fucked up and sadistic, but I really enjoy it, and I like to think that maybe someday, a guy will prove himself worthy.

>>24195619
cute

>>24195731
Yup that's really all I ever hear people say lol

I'm m and I got drunk with my 18 year old m cousin. Woke up to him playing with my cock. Let him continue, he put my hand in his cock. Pretend I woke up checked my phone, laid down and kinda lowered my pants, rolled over and stuck my ass out. Couple mins later he stared fucking me. Still thinks I was asleep. Loved feeling him cum in me

>>24184011
one day i will kill her, myself or both. my obsession wont stop.

>>24184228
>>24184269
Chatted to a couple traps online.
They're both super attached to me now.
Like one thinks we're going to be a couple even though I've never implied that could happen and have a gf, which they know about.
Fucked the other. They got more attached afterwards.
Both msg me everyday, which was fine before but now that I've noticed a bunch of red flags that I ignored earlier, I regret talking to either of them.
Don't want to be a dick and just ghost both cause they'd be crushed.
This is what I get for putting my dick in crazy.

>>24195221
Was her name Ingrid?

>>24195667
Attention much, kill yourself

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I met up with a really lonely guy from r9k and essentially babysat him, he paid me to watch films and things with him while he had his arm around me. It was fucking bizarre and I regret it.

I really want someone/something to lay eggs inside me
Tempted to get some small balls or something and try it on myself at some point.