ITT: Suicide >ASL >Number of attempts >Age at first

>>24146691
>ASL
28/m/CT

>Number of attempts
One but it was a sort of half-hearted attempt. Father had a gun safe in the basement and I tried looking for the key, then tried picking the lock... actually it was a valiant effort I guess. But I wasn't successful, so...

>Age at first attempt
That was when I was 17.

>Reason for attempt
First "real" girlfriend broke up with me. Loved her to pieces, man. God, I had never felt pain like that before in my life. I just wanted it to stop.

>Try again?
Probably not. But now I own several guns so it would be a whole lot easier to accomplish...

>>24146691
>>ASL
19 / F / CA

>>Number of attempts
One.

>>Age at first attempt
15.

>>Reason for attempt
Because I was a little shit honestly. Depression got the better of me, I was cutting constantly, stopped giving a shit if I lived or died, wasn't really miserable so much as apathetic toward anything and everything.

>>Regret it?
Now, yes. My life since then has gotten progressively better and there are many people in my life that I love and that I know give a shit about me.

>>Try again?
No. Unfortunately the thought flares up every now and then but I don't think I'll ever act on it.

M 25 Germany

2 half-hearted attempts

about 16, then about 21

felt hopeless and worthless, self-hating, ridiculous

sometimes I regret the scars

thinking about doing it if things don't work out well. I just feel ridiculous and hate myself. I am kinda masochist and can't feel happy. I always feel jealous of others

>>24146691
>ASL
18/F/AUS

>Number of attempts
3 so far lmao. Last one was a couple of weeks ago. Worst one yet!!!!!!!!!

>Age at first attempt
16 kek

>Reason for attempt
very overwhelmed by life in general, no friends at school, step mum and father are cunts, mum is an asshole. Just wanted everything to end.

>Regret it?
nope haha

>Try again?
Yeah im already planning out my next one. Trying something different though this time !

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>>24146691
>ASL
24 / male / Europe
>Number of attempts
20+, depends on what you call attempt. Hurt myself numerous times thinking about dying, but never bad enough to kill myself. 2/3 real attempts otherwise (drugs, cuting).
>Age at first attempt
16 yo
>Reason for attempt
Realizing the vacuity of existence, the nonsense of our lives, the futility of our actions in a cosmic scale, finding no more pleasure, barely eat, barely sleep, no one to love, no one to be loved.
>Regret it?
Yes and no. I didn't do it till' the end for family and relatives finding my corpse, grieving many years after my death, can't make them suffer. But still want to die.
>Try again?
Since I suffer depression from my 12 years, probably, one day.

18/m/LVA

1 attempt, not sure how I survived. Did do some damage though - had alcohol poisoning symptoms, so liver/kidney. Used castor beans, 50 total (37 in one go), even though the lethal dose should be 5 to 20.

Was 18 at the time, but it was in October, so some time has passed.

"Casual" depression

I regret that I did it because I survived, but if I had a gun or something, it'd go better.

Will likely try again sometime, no current plans.