Were you abused at all as a kid? Post details >who did it

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>who did it
Dad (physically, verbally, emotionally and sexually) Mum (physically, verbally and emotionally) Step Dad (physically and verbally)
>how did it affect you
Possible PTSD and diagnosed mixed personality disorder
>how do you feel about it
Meh
>A/S/L
24, m, SW England
>contact
Kik - saviour74
>face if brave enough
Woo!
>why you posted in thread
tfw no local qt potential fwb/gf who relates
>post about yourself!
I am obsessed with 74-75 Bowie, I'd like a qt to relate to, I like museums and visiting the bigger cities...

19 f us
my stepdad had been having sex with me since I was 12, he would make me masturbate with my moms vibrators and stuff then put them back. If I didn't have sex with him or do what he said he would threaten to tell everyone it was my fault and I was dumb enough to beleive it. He beat me a few times when he was drunk, if I came he would give me treats.

I am so fucked up. I just want that again. ugh I am broken.

>>24111602
>always fucking American
>never local

>>24111552
Mum, stepdad, some random cunt.

I took pretty much every drug you could think of the name of over a period of about six to seven years in quantities that would shock you.

I actually don't give a fuck now, really.

23/M/Aus

Kik at atrollhasnousername

HAHA, nah, people might recognise me and I'd be embarrassed feeling like I was whining.

It seemed like something to do.

Nobody from the new life I'm living ever believes the stories I tell them about my old one. I realise it's probably a good thing that I've made so much progress that it's unbelievable for them, but it still gets under my skin, especially when it's a good story.

>>24111602
How long did this last? How did it end.

>who did it
Mom
>how did it affect you
Will probably end up ruining my relationship with other human beings
>how do you feel about it
Bad.
>A/S/L
>18, M, Portugal
>why you posted in thread
Bored I guess.
>post about yourself!
Living in a broken family where my mom hates everyone else and by proxy ruins my relationship with pretty much every other family member. Completely made my life miserable during my primary school years (threats of murder-suicide, bankruptcy, abusive boyfriends, scammed by coworkers). As a result I never brought friends home, gone out with girls, went to the movies with school friends, etc. Now she says we only have money for two more years and after that she'll "end up under the bridge," so I'm going to start working and saving for college. Maybe I can get out of this shithole, she'll die in the meantime (keeps saying she won't last long, always says she'll die of cancer or a stroke one of these days), and I'll get to have a normal life with my grandparents and other family members.

Sorry about long post but I'm just laying off steam.

>>24112199
Lasted unti i was 18 he and my mom split up and he left

>>24111602
>>24112591
>I just want that again. ugh I am broken.
You're not broken. Girls (even 12 year old girls) like getting fucked, and guys like fucking them. Two hundred years of social taboo telling you it's wrong don't really mean much when stacked up against a couple of hundred thousand years of evolution telling you it's fucking great.

The trick is to separate the sex part from the other stuff your stepfather did, and realise that you can have a guy who'll fuck you like you're 12 years old again without him having to be a controlling alcoholic who beats you occasionally.

>>24112591
Did she ever know?

>who did it
my parents, and neighbor hood kids
>how did it affect you
it made me very timid, and not super confident, and overall very quiet
>how do you feel about it
It kinda sucks, but i tend to bottle myself up
>A/S/L
19/f
>contact
aciddroplet
>face if brave enough
not brave enough :c
>why you posted in thread
I'm just feeling bad and looking for people to talk to.
>post about yourself!
lol sry

>>24112642
I tried to tell her what happened when i was young, she didn't believe me so I just gave up

>who did it
Stepfather (verbal, emotionaly, rarely physical but it happened) was the main abuser, but my mother wasn't great either.
>how did it affect you
I'm rather convinced the anxiety and panic disorder I have was either caused or exacerbated by the abuse. I also have other traits I can trace back to my childhood.
>how do you feel about it
It happened and there's nothing I can do about it except not let permanently affect who I am, or where I'm heading in the future. I'll never forgive my stepfather, nor will I forget, but I don't live with the pain every day. I am ultimately a better person because I learned how to deal with the anguish.
>A/S/L
26/M/Wisconsin
>contact
skype: blindeffigy
kik: dgrwl
(I don't mind if anyone adds me to chat :D)
>face if brave enough
not brave enough
>why you posted in thread
A little bit of morbid curiosity and boredom.
>post about yourself!
I'm studying Accounting and music is my life. I love standup comedy as well. I have a wonderful boyfriend and two adorable cats.

>>24112264
Not to condescend, but when I was 18 I wasn't sure I could really handle the abuse I endured. I think in all likelihood you will eventually be able to overcome and find some hidden strength within yourself, and you'll make it out okay. :)

>>24112686
That's... discouraging. I don't see how a parent could flat out ignore an accusation of that sort by their own child.

I'm sorry nobody stood up for you, anon.

>>24111602
How did you feel about it when you came though?

>>24112709
Thanks buddy. It feels amazing to know I'm 18 (no longer legally bound to this woman) and starting college. The rough years are over (I remember saying to myself how I was on a countdown to freedom, only X years left) and I can finally taste it. I mean, this woman is the single reason why my social life has sucked and I've been depressed for all these years. I cannot wait to finally be free.

>>24112866
Just remind yourself that when it seems too difficult. You're on the path to recovery. Life is never stagnant. Nothing ever stays the same. It'll evolve. College will be a huge relief for you.

>>24112866
I know it's not easy, but is there a reason you can't get help from your grandparents or the rest of your family before she's dropped dead?

>who did it
~Mother (physically and verbally). Slapped me on a few occasions, yelled at me and threatened to publicly beat me up in the streets. Made me feel worthless no matter what I did.
~Younger sister (physically). Hit me on several occasions. In her defense, she has severe autism. Still hurts like a bitch though...
~Play-cousin (sexually). Molested me when she wanted to practice kissing. I never realized it was molestation until I was older.
>how did it affect you
Depression, anxiety, lack of motivation, development of strange fetishes/kinks, thoughts of suicide.
>how do you feel about it
I love my mother and sister, but I can't wait to leave home... it's like a prison here.
As for my play-cousin, she's been long-gone somewhere for years, so I don't care too much. I still hate myself for being so naive to let her do that to me.
>A/S/L
19/F/USA
>contact
Idk right now... maybe if someone wants to talk to me.
>face if brave enough
Noooo way.
>why you posted in thread
To get it out of my system. It's too difficult for me to bring up to family, and I have no friends, sooo...
>post about yourself!
I'm extremely shy about everything, but I can be friendly and joke around as I open up more. I like to draw and play vidyas just like everyone else.

>>24112934
Hey... maybe I can help. We have a lot of the same issues it seems..

>>24112956
Oh, really?

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>>24112934
>Molested me when she wanted to practice kissing
what exactly did she do? And how old were you?

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>>24111552
>who did it
I lost my virginity to this boy that was only a year older than me and I can only assume cause he never told me but he was probably sexually abused by his dad or something
>how did it affect you
oversexualized from a young age, watched porn like it was just normal tv, jerked off at least once a day up to 10 times on a saturday or friday night, tried "playing" with other kids including my sister
Sometimes it keeps me up at night other times I go into a fit of rage and want to strangle that kid
>how do you feel about it
at first it wasnt all that bad but after I started jerking it like 20 times a week I was just in this mode of post-nut-regret 24/7
>A/S/L
21/M/NJ
>contact
no thanks, I've never told anyone
>face if brave enough
heres a body pic that I took to track progress with weight loss
>why you posted in thread
cause its a cruel fucking joke
I lose my virginity when Im 8 to some kid thats probably sexually abused but I cant for my life get with a girl cause Im just so awkward and even when the opportunity presents itself I just crawl into a shell like a snail or something
I've had two girlfriends that I wasnt sexual with either one and the worst part is there is no sensible reason that I can come up with why I didnt do it just everytime it comes down to it I say no even and then when I get home I want it so badly I usually end up crying myself to sleep after jerking off like 5 times and tell myself next time I'll force out a yes
>post about yourself!
alcoholic, spending 3 years at some shitty community college and working a shitty minimum wage job on weekends
the only time I feel any joy is when I play vidya or hang out my 3 close friends

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>>24111552
Fug

>who did it
My "Mother". (I don't consider her part of my family anymore
>how did it affect you
Don't talk to her anymore, but I'm kind of submissive when it comes to women. I'm not able to feel motherly love with my step-mother.
>how do you feel about it
Meh. What happens happens.
>A/S/L
19/M/Canada
>contact
kik: mlkkd123
>face if brave enough
>why you posted in thread
I dunno I'm bored af
>post about yourself!
What's there to say?

Does getting beat up a few times count? Because I really don't think getting my ass kicked by my dad counts as abuse. I mean one time he clocked me but honestly I don't feel bad at all.

>>24113078
>be me
>was about 6 or 7, she was 13
>we were watching a movie, and it had a really heated kissing scene
>she turned to me and asked if I wanted to try
>said it'd be fun
>I agreed, since I was a naive kid and I was big on following the directions of people older than me
>she layed on top of me and pulled the covers over me
>we started kissing
>feels somewhat pleasant
>kissing escalates to her lifting my nightgown since it was getting hot under the covers
>she starts touching my nipples and... that spot as we kiss
>feels weird but I go along with it
>dad walks in to tell us it's time for dessert
>doesn't realize what she's doing because it looked like we were sleeping under the covers
>we stop and go about normally after he leaves
>she tells me to keep it a secret

She did this every time she came over to sleep over for a year until she moved away.

>who did it
my mother
she ridiculed me constantly and invalidated every feeling i ever had, used my physical disability as a way of controlling me and making me feel worthless, made fun of me for trying to kill myself and then dragged me downstairs, pulled my pants down, and showed my grandmother where i'd cut myself while she screamed at me, sometimes she would slap me or choke me
>how did it affect you
i have really horrible anxiety and regularly have panic attacks, i still actively contemplate suicide, and i was recently diagnosed with bpd and bi-polar
i never believe that anyone really loves me or cares about me or wants me around and usually assume that everyone will either leave me or hurt me or they make fun of me behind my back and would laugh if i was dead
i also have a pretty bad drinking problem and issues with promiscuity
>how do you feel about it
i'm pretty miserable a lot of the time but i attribute most of that to mental illness. i still live at home and she still tries to tease me but it has calmed down a lot since high school.
>A/S/L
21/f/us
>contact
only if someone asks
>face if brave enough
i'm too embarassed for that shit
>why you posted in thread
i don't ever really get to talk about what my mom did to me
i tell my therapist but that's it
i just want to get it out
>post about yourself!
i really like film and photography and my cat
i am usually a lot happier than this and really bubbly and people always tell me that they never would have suspected that i'm as sad as i am but it's only because when i was sad as a kid my mom yelled at me and bullied me for being sad, so i just push it down now
i don't wanna be a burden
i am glad that i can make other people happy though.

>>24111552
>who did it
Twice, once a girl I liked which was fine I enjoyed it. Was around 5 I think. Second time was with a gay dude twice my age who sodomized me. Did not enjoy that at all.
>how did it affect you
Emotional instability, especially since the second one was in my same school with me and those I told sorta went off that I lied or I should've enjoyed it (something to that effect.)
>how do you feel about it
First one, pretty great honestly. I'm hazy if I technically went all the way but I did pretty much everything. Second time, pretty terrible. Being also unable to talk made it worse (was deaf as a kid so I couldn't properly talk for years.)
>A/S/L
23/m/USA
>contact
If I had a throwaway maybe.
>why you posted in thread
I don't have people to talk to this much with, so just letting it out in the air helps.
>post about yourself!
Pokemon Go and chill?

>>24113209
honestly, I don't really think that's worth getting too worked up over. You were six, of course you didn't know what she was doing - there's no point in being angry at yourself. Really, what harm did it do anyway? (I take it she didn't penetrate you)

>>24113291
Yeah, I guess you're right... I still can't help but feel exploited though. (No, she didn't thankfully.)

>>24113221
I'd like to talk to you anon

>>24113221
Kik: TevyeJohnson
Skype: gamerfankg
If you want to talk.

>f
>my cousin who is 5 years older than me and also a female
>i don't remember how old i was, about 6-7 i guess
>i wanted to play with her all the time
>she would play with me and the game we were playing got too far one day
>she told me to wait without moving when i was lying in bed and she would get on top of me and literally grind on me
>she would touch my butt and squeeze it and stuff
>this happened a few times

I never noticed that I was being molested. I used to think it was just a game. idk it didn't affect me at all.

>my mom
>she's a drunkard. again when I was 6, I noticed that she would turn into a monster whenever she drank that drink in those bottles. I didn't know it was booze.
>when I used to get home from school she would wait for me on the balcony. so this one time, i yelled at her asking if she drank any "beer brand name" so that I wouldn't talk to her if she replied yes.
>she told me that she would tell me after i get home
>i went home, she beat me really hard.
>she beat me whenever she wanted to since then, sat on top of me (she weighs like fucking 180 lbs), choked me.
>then I got stronger and shit and fought back.

i'm not angry at my mom because she physically assaulted me. i'm angry at her because she fucked my life.

>>24112885
Oh I know it will be. Thanks.

>>24112892
My grandparents have given me emotional support all over these years. Without them I would've honestly given up a long time ago. My mom has a love-hate relationship with them because of how they brought her up (she was their first child - who screwed up her life and made my grandparents life a bit of a struggle - compared to her brother (my uncle), who is an exceptional family man with his life on tracks. It makes my mom feel like "the black sheep" of the family (which, to me, is completely justifiable given how bad she fucked up her life throughout the years).

>>24115723
I feel like this should get a reply, but I really don't know what to say. That's just so sad (the abusive mom, not the cousin stuff).

>i'm angry at her because she fucked my life.
In what ways?

>who did it
My babysitter /family friend.. Mind you she was also young so looking back now I imagine she must have experienced similar abuses. She was 12 when it started, it lasted over a few years until she was in high school for a while. I was.. Maybe 6 when it started?

>how did it affect you
Sexually as an adult I think my desires are specific, I expect any guy I want to date to be on the same level. If he's too vanilla I'm uninterested. And I always find out his interests before dating. I never developed any real lesbian desires or any hatred or disgust towards the same sex either.

>how do you feel about it
I don't know, I guess I feel like I'm not allowed to play victim. Like.. I feel Guilty that it might effect me negatively in any way. Because she was also young, although much older and more sexually mature. That I'm not supposed to care or think about it.

>A/S/L
26/f/ NA

>contact
I don't talk to people much.. No kik or anything

>face if brave enough
Not brave

>why you posted in thread
Never told any family or anything, I guess seeing other people's experiences is just.. Comforting.. Almost.

>post about yourself!
I will walk down grocery store isles that I need nothing out of just to avoid walking down the crowded isles with the items I actually went there for.

>who did it
step father and some chic I went to school with

>how did it affect you
I'm socially awkward and can't keep relationships, or even friendships. I hate having sex with other people but I masturbate like it's no tomorrow.
>how do you feel about it
it upsets me that I let that happen but I was a naive child that didn't know any better.
>A/S/L
18. F. OH
>contact
iffy about that

>>24118313
Mind taking my info instead?

>>24118313
what's your info

>>24118313
Damn, what happened? I mean with the girl from school, was there an age difference, was she a bully, how long ago was it. Kids can be so cruel

How do you think it's made you socially awkward?

>>24118350
Kik Lamapunk

>>24118411
I know it doesn't make it any less traumatizing, but it doesn't sound like she would know how damaging that might have been. I wonder what led her to do that...

Were you ever able to tell someone about your step-father? idk what age you were or how long it went on

>>24118352

I was invited to a sleep over and this girl pretty much made her way into my sleeping bag in the middle of the night and did things to me she should've have done.

the events that happened with my step father made me socially awkward. I'm sure of this because I was kind of ok, and functioned alright until those things happened.

Brother and his friends
Im weird...and perverted and strongly caring for children.
It doesn't phase me that much to feel anything special.
19/f/tx

Text me if u wanna chat...
9204746452

>>24119212
I'm wary of how real you are considering actually posting "your" phone number to 4chan...

Could you elaborate some on what happened or why you think it made you that way? What do you mean by feeling anything special?

>>24119225
It's a throwaway number.
Well it happened a few times ...usually, rubbing his dick between my legs. me being cooerced at 6 to give a bj. His friends played me with while i pretended to sleep. Once he poked it in my ass, and it hurt extremely bad and i Took a bath....

How i really feel is numb, man. Those memories are like muck at the bottom of a deep deep lake. Im not ashamed or damaged . I don't want to dwell on it.
I'm still really nice to my brothers.
Additionally, I'm attracted to lolicon and abuse and teasing.