>tfw don't want to pursue a better life because I don't

this. I deserve to be locked in a room and hit all day

Things keeping me from being happy:
-guilt
-laziness
-fear

>>39619022
this feel i know all to well, also repeating digits checked.

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>>39619022
>>39619049
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>>39619275
if you don't take those opportunities for a better life someone as equally shitty (or worse) will take them instead of you. if it really bothers you that much just try to be less of a horrible person in the future

>tfw gave up pursuing a better life because other people didn't feel like I deserved it
>tfw your loved ones give me grief for accomplishing things for myself and not helping them first
>ie: penny pinched for years to get a used car
>got grief for "holding out" and "being rich" instead of giving out cash to "more needy"
>ended up giving up my left over savings to pay for a family members medical bills out of guilt
>now have a used car that has various issues but now have no way to pay for them
>be in need
>nobody gives a shit
>be told that i gotta get my shit together myself

Nice :')

>>39620434
This. Wow.

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>>39621167
That's called "crabs in a bucket" mentality, look up into it

>>39621223
How is it crabs in a bucket when they're all doing better than me but still give me shit for not helping them whenever something good happens in my life

>>39619022
u are decieving yourself because you're afraid. you were born to be a great young man anon. go get it

>>39619022
No one deserves anything, good or bad. Just go out and do something you lazy fag.

>>39621328
You don't owe them shit. I unironically hope you have learned a very valuable lesson from all of this.

>>39619022
The problem is you KNOW that mode of thinking is how you end up being a slave.

I fear success more than failure.
I'm used to mediocrity. Things I do is within the tolerated limit, but never reach extraordinary. Like a dull flat-line of a life. So when things work out, it's foreign to me. I don't know how to handle things going good, it's undeserved and the people offering me whatever good is mistaken and hasn't seen the true me. I never worked hard to achieve greatness, so I don't deserve to be treated as such.

Can't make decissions on my own, things like sending simple e-mails is hard. I assume the worst, that a bad choice of word will have fatal consequences, that one slip-up will send the mail to the wrong person and hell will break lose.

Blabla raised as a slave, only to be "freed" when reaching adulthood. So all it does is leave me with the choice to be a slave for the rest of my life.