When did your life turn to shit, fellow robots? What was the

>>39599599
Nobody in the mood to confess?

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>>39599599
I was always a social outcast because autism. All you fuckers don't know what it's like to actually have autism. It sucks man

I dropped out of highschool my freshman year and started online schooling. I thought it would be cool cause I would have more freetime for vidya. But eventually the isolation started to fuck with me and I turned into a lonely hermit. I'm in college now and live in a dorm, so I'm slowly making my way back into society.

I was on my way down during the final few years of high school, but once I moved away for university and was faced with the harsh realities of life I became a depressed shut in within a few weeks.

Moving back home after a failed first year and experiencing endless existential terror as I realised I had nothing to look forward to in my future only sealed that fate.

>>39599740
at least you dont know what its like to become a normie and then drop it

Probably when my mom took me and walked out on my dad at age four. They were fighting for a few years, but I had no idea that we would leave.

You guys because robots so late! I was consistently ignored and called ugly in elementary school, so I really had no other choice

>>39599792
you were already unstable in high school
your parents should have noticed that but they didnt act

>>39599794
That's sucks as well man, stay safe out there anon

I was never truly happy for longer period of time

>>39599599
It happened one day, a bit over two decades ago, when I was born.

>>39599819
My mother actually did. She knew I was in no way able to look after myself, but for whatever reason either she never told me or she did I just ignored her. My dad thought it was a good idea, so I went along with that.

It's actually caused quite a few issues since then. I've been so fucked up as a result that my mum constantly blames my dad for my state, but honestly I don't know if staying at home would've prevented it or just delayed the inevitable.

>>39599852
they could have taken care of you and sent you to a consultant.
your mother probably thought it will work out eventually

2012 is the year things started to go.

Now things are going, going, gone.

>>39599852
they'll get a divorce over that issue maybe?

>>39599599
Moved cities in 7th grade, was a normie as a kid. Ever since then life has been worse then kid me could ever possibly imagine. Legitimately thinking about offing myself if I can't nail down some sort of job soon.

>>39599887
Oh I mean they looked after me as soon as I moved back home. In fact they still basically do.

Honestly I'm convinced that I was just wasn't made for this world. Everything seems to so grey and cruel and pointless that I fail to see how anyone can be happy.

Still, thanks for the concern robot

>>39599901
They've already separated by are still married

>>39599900
what happened in 2012? xxx

For me 2007
>fucked up lots of things for myself.

oh and media escapism lost quality.
Like nothing really good happened after that year.

My whole life turned to shit when I watched both of my grandparents die, my grandfather in particular. This was around 9 years ago and I'm pretty much fucked in the head as a result.

>>39600376
what things did you fuck up

>>39599599
It was the moment I realised that I was being made fun of for being happy and fat. Made me feel fucking terrible, and basically isolated myself from everyone by 6th grade. Only have had 4-5 friends irl ever since

i was fucked in kindergarten believe it or not i would never play with other children and was pretty introverted in that time and i dropped out of kindergarten because i insulted other kids and threw things at them they because they ignored me for a long time all my school time i was bullied and made fun of until i dropped out now its fucking impossible to get a fucking job thx normies to destroy me like that and saying at the end "just be confident XDD"

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>>39599599
when the school told me I wasn't allowed to be at school during lunch because I was a danger to other pupils (At 5-6 years old) Then I had a teacher who was hired specially to follow me around all day & make sure I didn't go crazy and get in trouble. Fast forward a life of shit & mental problems, I'm finally diagnosed with autism at 27. I want to fucking die.

When I was born.

I was born severely premature, with my umbilical cord wrapped around my neck, and apparently thought I wouldn't survive very long.

Jokes on me because I wish I would have died as an infant.

I think I gradually evolved from a way too happy autist to a cold hearted person.

Basically grew up

When i found out my crush for years only started dating me because she felt sorry for me, then got all sad and shit, then actually looked back and realised i've never been happy.

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I never had the chance to turn social because of my dad. The will of socialising was always there but eventually died off when I was 16 or so

>>39599678

It was in 2007.

First year of college.

Asked out a female friend and got brutally rejected. After actually being pretty popular with women in high school my self esteem was permafucked. I have been incel for 10 straight years because my self esteem was just full on crip'd.

>>39599599
When I dropped out of middle school to stay inside and play video games for ten years. Up until that point I was shy, but still had friends.

I talked to a friend of mine at the age of 12 about how we would both end up as 80 year old alcoholics living alone. He ended up marrying a fat woman and he has two kids now. I live alone these days.

My first day of high school. No specific reason. I was hot shit in my grade school class of 30 kids, but suddenly high school was so much more bigger and more intimidating that I never quite felt right again.

>>39601960
Seems like you have the better life?

>>39599599
I think the thing that really got me was this one girl who I was getting close to (and she seemed to be reciprocating, she told a friend that I was cute and funny at one point) ghosted me hard. I eventually saw her at school with another guy. I didn't even know they talked.

Talked to her a few years later after they broke up and she hates him. That's what she gets for getting with chad though.

Shit still hurts a lot.

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>>39600587
>tried to hang yourself inside of the womb
Did you know what was coming to you or something?

17, first time smoking weed. Had a major, major panic attack.

I know it sounds strange, but nothing is the same since then. That was when I started getting anxious and depressed for no reason. First year I started seeing a therapist. Things have only gotten worse since then.

If I could, I'd go back and stop myself.

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>>39599599
First time: birth
Second time: about 9 or 10 months old
Third time: about 2 years old
Fourth time: almost 7 years old
Fifth time: 13 years old
Sixth time: almost 16 years old
Seventh time: 27 years old
But this time, I'm not even trying to get back up

Mom tried to kill herself in front of me.

After that it was pretty downhill. Shut away in my room out of fear she'd do it again, so my friends became distant. Played MMOs for years as my only real form of social interaction outside of school.

She died anyway. I couldn't save her.

>>39599599
>be me, elementary school age
>have huge crush on young chad
>always star at him and stalk him around the playvround
>he gets the idea
>he is absolutely disgusted
>one day starts yelling at me and throwinh rocks at me
>" YOUR SO UGLY ANON GO AWAY I HATE YOU"
>weep and hide under the slide
>outside one day and i e backed off of chad
>im just playing i a little stream next to the playground
>tiny chad runs at me full force and i fall into the stream
>chad tells everyone i fell
>im so upset i just agree that i fell
>he would call me tarantula everyday until he finally moved to a different county
>im half mexi and have really hairy arms for a girl, always have

That little boy ruined me. He ended up marrying a girl who picked o me almost equally as bad in highschool. I hope they both rot.
I statted shaving my arms in 4th or 5th grade and i still do to this day

>>39602409
Fall down seven times, get up eight. Give it one last shot, anon.

>>39602098

Apparently. I'm almost 30 now. Life has never been pleasant. It never has gotten better. And as you get older that all the things you hoped would fix you won't.

I should have died. I want to find the doctor that delivered me and sock him in the nose.

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>>39599599
First time: 2002. Best friend pulled out of public school and I was bullied a lot with no friends. It hurt that I later found out that he pulled out late enough to find he was supposed to be in the same classes with me in the new school.
Second time: 2006, starting high school. Became no better than the obviously autistic kid that would be loved anyway, and even that took years to achieve.
Third time: 2010, college generally wasn't good.
Fourth time: 2015, no real job in sight, no real friends. The weeds of bitterness and anger sown in my earlier years came up and choked me, leading to a cynical asshole. Still with a heart that wants to do good, but often with "means to an end" method.

>>39602452
>I couldn't save her
you didn't even try, you just hid in your room

>When did your life turn to shit, fellow robots?
>Younge, innocent, didn't know of the cruelty of rosties
>had confidence
>ask out a stacy and get let down hard
>'not interested in dating'.
>less than a month she was with chad.
iv been lurking ever since