The past couple of months have been horrible. I've literally

It all went wrong for me too. Someone could need you alive though Anon.

All things must pass op ride out the storm and you wont regret it

Incidentally you dont want to fuck up a benzo related attempt its quite a horrible experience waking up in a psych ward. Best to just find a garage and car somewhere for a couple hours

>>39582820
listen to this OP
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=LC--1XERlOI

we love you anon

>TFW no way to kill myself

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=rCoGkMlfz9I

>>39582825
Apply yourself anon

The worst part is I literally don't have anyone I can talk to about my problems. There's no one I'm close with whom I can talk to about anything. Something shitty happens to me I just think about it all day until I fall asleep.

oh fuck off. a hurricane is coming to kill thousands of people.
toughen up buttercup
quit the caffeine
get off the internet
clean up your diet, which means all water and no fucking meat or processed food.
fruits and veggies and potatoes
go walk thru your neighborhood and if see somebody walks past you say hi.
go and meditate three times a day

>>39582829

lol

>>39582828
Therapy is your best option right now.
>>39582829
lol fucking moron

>>39582829
I don't know why you're getting heat. this is the way to feel better. Also lifting.

Daniel Johnston was great when I wanted to die

>>39582820
They've been so horrible but you're still alive and posting, OP. Just do it already, or take steps to start improving yourself until you feel better. But don't kill a thread in some half-assed cry for help/attention.

Try to make positive changes in your life dude. Stay strong, I'm rooting for you, if I can change my life around so can you.

I think i'm just going to give up everything

>>39582829
as someone who is in a similar situation to you OP, this is sound advice

stop taking life so seriously

Not OP but I'm thinkin about throwing myself under a train/subway soon.

I'm going to the gym, I have stuff going on but I'm fucked up in the head for good, I can't seem to enjoy things anymore and this is killing me slowly.

>>39582820
>even learning about which drug combination is the most lethal (which is opiates and benzos)
you'll be fine. I've abused benzos and opiates. I dropped out of college and live with my parents, unemployed.
Just so you know, it's only going to get worse. But it'll also get better.
>>39582829
>>39582831
I've tried most of this, therapy is the most helpful.

>>39582829
>go and meditate three times a day
>no meat or processed food. only fruits and veggies and potatoes

these are weird things to do. nobody normal does these things.

>>39582840
just to clarify, this is not OP of this thread. left my trip on from another thread

>>39582840
>these are weird things to do. nobody normal does these things.
compelling argument , s en p a i

>>39582829
based anonfag

>>39582842
meditate once a day, fine. but 3 times a day? what's the point?
depriving yourself of essential proteins - what's the point?