>tfw people tell you :''you hear insults that doesn't exist'' ''stop being so paranoid anon''
>tfw everyone looks threatening to you even after rationalizing
>tfw you walk in the road you always looks behind you in case someone wants to hurt you or something, checking the shadow of people if they walk behind u and always being ready to punch someone in case he wants to beat u or something and escape strategically
>tfw you wants to kill whole people close to you because you think they are plotting against you, already threatened them to death (telling them how you would slowly kill them)
>tfw you don't trust any psychiatrist psychologist whatever it is called
>tfw you send death threats insults people you get attached to (clinginess) because you get weird, more 'lucid' and realize that you have been sharing some informations with other people that could be used against you, not even talking about the like of personal address or name, but just about your syntax , tastes, thoughts etc (also stalking them all the time because you become obsessed with them)
>tfw you always change mood/opinion about people, which get them to call you a 'psycho' (in addition to some paranoid thoughts)
>tfw frustrated , jealous and have 0 self esteem
>tfw people are 'incoherent' , tell you that you are incoherent, rationalize try to think about it then some kind defensive mechanisms strikes in
>tfw you probably are going to be an hero in some weeks/months
never took any kind of drug in my life or got traumatized in my childhood btw. I don't i have any problems honestly, i seem 'normal' irl
but people keep telling me i have symptoms for schizophrenia/ppd/bpd but i don't think i actually have any of this and i might just be attention whoring because i'm bored of my life (that is what r9k is for anyway)
What do i might have ?
Sounds like a case of faggotry to me desu
I suggest application of a rope to the neck, should do wonders about improving your outlook on life
>>39581158
dude thats rude
>>39581117
>I don't i have any problems honestly
You have problems otherwise you wouldn't have typed this all out.
>i might just be attention whoring because i'm bored of my life
People attention whore for a reason.
Also what you describe about your IRL behavior goes beyond r9k attention whoring.
Regardless, it sounds like a fucking pain to live with. I'd rather you don't an hero and actually try to fix it, but it's your life.
>>39581117
I didn't bother reading past the first three lines of green, but it sounds like you got raped. Just carry a knife and don't let it happen again.
>>39581261
>You have problems otherwise you wouldn't have typed this all out.
internet is full of liars tho
but thanks
>>39581752
Eh, liars lie for a reason. Let's say your OP is 100% lies: it sill sounds like you have problems, otherwise you wouldn't be here doing that.
>>39581158
Always someone trying to make their life better by making others feel worse.
>>39581989
blumping again, originally
>>39581876
blumping againn
>>39581117
are you per chance a woman?
>>39583165
no i m a male (not erp trap fag)
i have schizophrenia and if youre not hallucinating chances are you dont have it but i can heavily relate to this post. also ive definitely had a traumatic childhood and have done lots of drugs so
>>39581117
Life is short anon.
Buy a dog
>>39581117
Don't worry, you'll always find plenty of real insults here you gigantic reposting faggot.
>this pasta AGAIN
orgimoli
You have autism and are just really smart. Stop posting this thread every day
>>39581876
>Let's say your OP is 100% lies: it sill sounds like you have problems
Fiction can be just as revealing as facts, if interpreted correctly. it's less serious if OP just has problems with perceiving themselves as potentially unstable or fantasies about being prosecuted for his supposed insanity- then if these things were actually happening irl
but you're right it's still a kind of a warning sign.
Having violent impulses towards people close to you is as much of a red flag as attempting suicide tho. You would need to talk about that to someone.
>>39584216
actually wanted to train on animals this way i could get used to killing/blood to defend myself, idk if its supposed to being a 'weird thought' or not
i'm still planning on doing it, i need to reduce this empathy to defend myself, i'm not superman, i won't be able to like 'hurrr without any training i can beat anyone' no i need to train
>>39584855
originally blump
you have been posting this same thread for days
fucking stop
>>39585666
i'll stop soon dont worry blump
>>39586312
last blumpling
>>39587011
i promise this will be the last blump
>>39588204
I don't post in this thread because I've posted in it before.