>tfw people tell you :''you hear insults that doesn't

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>tfw people tell you :''you hear insults that doesn't exist'' ''stop being so paranoid anon''

>tfw everyone looks threatening to you even after rationalizing

>tfw walk in the road you always looks behind you in case someone wants to hurt you or something, checking the shadow of people if they walk behind u and always being ready to punch someone in case he wants to beat u or something and escape strategically

>tfw wants to kill whole people close to you because you think they are plotting against you, already threatened them to death (telling them how you would slowly kill them)

>tfw don't trust any psychiatrist psychologist whatever it is called and probably gonna kill myself in some months

>tfw send death threats insults people i get attached to (clinginess) because i get weird, more 'lucid' and realize that i have been sharing some informations with other people that could be used against me, not even talking about the like of personal address or name, but just about your syntax , tastes, thoughts etc (also stalking them all the time because i become obsessed with them)

>tfw always change mood/opinion about people, which get them to call me a 'psycho' (in addition to some paranoid thoughts)

>tfw frustrated, jealous and have 0 self esteem

>tfw people are 'incoherent', tell you that you are incoherent, rationalize try to think about it then some kind defensive mechanisms strikes in


never took any kind of drug in my life or got traumatized in my childhood btw. I don't i have any problems honestly, i seem 'normal' irl (more like the average robot but 'mentally sane')

but people keep telling me i have symptoms for schizophrenia/ppd/bpd but i don't think i actually have any of this and i might just be attention whoring because i'm bored of my life (that is what r9k is for)

What do i might have ?