>quit 3 jobs this year >no more source of income >barely

The fact that my life is all there is or every will be according to me keeps me going. Eternal oblivion doesn't need to be rushed. It's eternal either way

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If I kill myself, everyone and everything I hate wins.

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>>39443476
idk this exact specific feel but i know sort of the feel. trying to make it rn freelancing but it fucking sucks i have no motivation and just lay on the couch for most of every day and my health is definitely bad.
pretty much just alive because it would hurt my family if i died.

>almost 29 years old
>haven't had a job in 8 years
>on the bux
>spend all my money on ingredients to brew my own booze and buy PC and audio hardware

Sure I get lonely once in a while, but my day to day life is pretty comfy desu, idk if I would trade it for a normie life.

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I've been through a lot of shit too but it doesn't really make a difference what happens to me. I've been teetering on rock bottom my whole life. What keeps me going is a misguided,delusional and far too naive belief that I can save my people. That there is a fire that never truly goes out and even someone like me can re-ignite it.

>>39443755
This 1000 times

>>39443776
And additionally this

>Got fired from job of 5 years
>don't work for 6 months, survive off of credit cards for the most part
>find job in same field
>make half as much money
>absolutely unmotivated
>get my final warning today after 3 months working for excessive tarides/call offs
>gonna get fired again
>1000's of dollars in credit card debt, collectors calling every day

I really don't see a light at the end of the tunnel, not feeling suicidal just less and less motivated everyday. How do I get neetbux without disabilities?

>>39443476
>boo hoo had a gf and now I dont

Try suicide.