I've hit my breaking point.
>Only ever had sex twice
>Both times with the same girl
>We had been dating for several months now
>I begin to actually enjoy life
>Just holding her makes me so happy
>Only girl I've ever dated in my entire life
>I'm in love
>I was honestly considering marrying her
>The other night her phone was blowing up with texts
>I get curious
>When she's asleep, I check her phone
>Turns out she had been cheating on me the entire time
>I'm furious and we get into a fight
>She lied about being a virgin
>She lied about loving me
>I left that night while I was still pissed
>The next morning I realized what I'd done
>Out of desperation and 0 self-esteem, I call her begging to take me back
>I send her countless texts and voicemails
>She's ignoring me now
What do I do? I've never felt so shattered in my entire life. I don't trust myself around the gun in my apartment anymore.
>>39431282
>call her back
you fucked up anon
a decision is made once for all.
the first pussy is always like that, sucks that you got a slut anon.
you'll soon forget her and find another gf.
keep ur head up and dont look back.
>>39431282
You're better without that thot. Take this opportunity to find another.
You did it once, you'll do it again. Be it you get laid, fall in love, or get dumped. History repeats itself, but you learn.
>>39431282
>>beg her to take me back
You deserve everything op.
>>39431282
>had sex twice
stopped reading there
>>39431282
>tfw you live in england with no access to a gun
You did the right thing to begin with. Only mistake you have made here is asking her to get back together.
>>39431282
Man, words won't heal you but time will
I honestly believe it's better for you because you will find someone else who doesn't treat you like shit and respects you
Imagine if you found out way later, it would be even worse
At least you didn't kill her, so please don't kill yourself
We all got to carry all them feels, and you are not alone