i'm so lonely. i'm not even sad right now, i just need

>>39354111
haha shit sucks my man

I share the exact same feeling OP
If you wanna talk and shit I'll be here

I just want to be cute and comfy. Is that so much to ask?
Today I fell asleep holding a pillow for an hour, hugging it tight. Best I've felt in ages.

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Life is difficult. I try not to think about love, because it slows me down. My philosophy is that everyone is alone, always, and nothing can fix that, no friends, no one who loves me. This works pretty good for me, keeping me focussed on my goals. Off course it might be a lie, it's just something I tell myself. But I'm dealing with different shit, which I'm stuck in right now. I have little motivation to work on things, dieing would be easier. This is no advice, just my feelings.
Only after I compleet some of my goals, or become a better person, or at least have a job and live on my own, I will allow me having a gf.

I think every single human being contemplates the complete release of death once in a while and that what motivates most people to stay off the guilotine, so to speak, is the fear of death/missing out on what could have been.

I think it's a great thing, OP, that you still have hope and are not ready to throw the towel yet. Realise that you possess a drive that most don't even have here. It's this drive, however small it is, that drive men to save themselves from their fears and allow themselves to live. It's this drive that have saved me. Life is hard and it's always going to be hard and cruel and unfair and chances are that you are never going to get that one kind of girl you've always wanted and that this illusion we conceive around us that we will be rewarded by karma for living a good life and being good people with a woman that fits you like a suit is just that, an illusion, but what makes the difference between men who experience crazy wonderful shit in their lives and the ones who don't is the willingness and ability to act and to act you need a strong drive, a strong desire never to give up.

So keep trying, anon, I can't promise you you will find love out there and I can't teach you how to live your life, but I know for damn sure about one thing and it's that if you trully believe that you have a chance, if you refuse to give up, then you can go far with that sentiment so long as you focus on it and work really fucking hard towards your goals.

>>39354111
>i just need to have something in my arms and against me to fill the empty space that's there
thats where I keep my bottle of rum or whatever cheap vodka im drinking that night