When was the last time you felt normal? For me it has to be the

>>39313209
End of grade 5 for me, been a tough road and I've only really begun to recover starting two years ago, with this year being the best so far. I'm 36

4th/5th grade, i had like 2 friends, and thought i had a future.

Belonging is something sold to us a long time ago by everyone we know.
Success in this regard is when we stop trying so hard to look for it and put our efforts into the aspects of ourselves we trust can keep us sane.

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Prolly 13 or 14. I wish I had died a decade ago.

Never, I was homeschooled because of my autism and I knew I was different from the start.

I don't get how anyone here ever felt normal. Even when I was a little kid, I didn't feel normal. Though, I think my first real freak out was when I was like 5 and they told me about living forever in heaven. Scared the shit out of me.

>>39314128

What is an average day for you like, what gives you fulfillment

4th-5th grade. had two greally good friends, but then i moved to a new town. outside that brief period, i've always been an autistic loner.
>>39313276
are you me?

>>39314145
Always hated the thought of infinity. How the fuck can something not have a beginning or end? Also i was convinced I was going to hell because I didn't feel any love for god or jesus. I wished for the ability to do so but knew a selfish desire for it was pointless. Then I stopped giving a shit what gods thought because I had enough problems already. Real, fake, it's not important to me. If some fag decides to cook me for eternity after a life of hell, not gonna stop him. Who knows, maybe me and Satan will get along. He always seemed like a much more reasonable guy.

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>>39314164
I'm you but more autistic.

>>39313209
Second grade. I was a pretty social kid before then. Adults liked me, other kids liked me. Then I moved to another town for a few months, and moved right back to the old one a little later. And moved again. Then moved back to that old town. And moved again.

I moved a lot, basically. Guess my social skills suffered, or maybe I was always weird and everybody in the first grade seems normal.

>>39314159
Now? Sitting inside browsing 4chan, or hanging out doing whatever my aunt is doing. What gives me fulfillment? Nothing, human desire cannot be satiated.

>>39314218
Sounds sexy. Do you and your aunt ever fool around?

>>39313209
Probably third grade, when I moved abroad. The worst thing was that my parents disguised the move as a summer trip, I was devastated when they told me I'm not coming back to the only class that perceived me as normal.