who here afraid of public speaking? >tfw i will never have

>rhotacism and a lateral lisp
>sound very much like a retarded faggot
>somehow have less anxiety about public performance than socially succesful normalfags
Someone explain.

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Mfw im a great public speaker but i cant hold a basic one on one conversation.

>tfw stammering and brain fog
i'm not meant to be people person

>be me
>be in top class, or set, in English
>sit next to one of my best friends- lets call him Evan
>teacher starts creaming because our school was entered in a public speaking competition
>no one else wanted to
>we didn't want to
>Evan's parents forced him, I kind of just nodded my head and didn't think about actually having to do it. I didn't want to let my teacher down or leave Evan high and dry
>day of the speech comes
>feel sick, dreading it
>there are like 6 other local schools there
>game faces, teacher trying to perk us up and get us feeling enthusiastic
>2 other schools before us. The wait is killing me and I feel like dropping a giant log in my pants and running. This kid claims to be a member of mensa and starts boasting like hell
>gg kid, good stuff
>we do the speech and Evan has the bulk of it, I have to say some contrived shit and invite people to ask questions. Thank God for Evan, man
>watch the other schools
>try to relax
>now it's over I don't care how we've done
>somehow we end up getting third place and this one nerdy ass swatty girl was giving me the shit eye
>go to Pizza Hut with Evans family afterwards
>still feeling sick but I went along with it
>never have to worry about it again
>feels good man.jpeg
That was a few years ago now, and I haven't changed a bit. If anything I've gotten worse. But the point is, I did it. It was an experience and although I'd never do it again in a million years, I'm proud of myself for giving it a go.
Evan, if you're reading this you know who you are- you're awesome. I'm glad to have met you, you're a wonderful friend.

>>39302726
>have found a way turn off my everything and become a perfect and responsive orator
>can't do this in a private setting between individuals

>>39302726
I can speak to groups easily if i know what I'm talking about. Very impersonal form of communication.

It's having dialogue that I don't like. Feels like everyone expects me to entertain them in simple conversation and I don't usually have much to say