>tfw depression has gotten to the point where I literally want to be high every second of the day just so I can get away from my life
>tfw limited access to drugs because I have no friends and still live with my mom
>tfw can't drink alcohol despite being 21 because I'm on antidepressants
>tfw the most I can do is abuse prescription benzos two nights a week
>tfw those two nights are the only things I look forward to in the week, the only times I ever sleep well, and the only times I don't feel like shit about myself
My life is a mess.