>be me >everytime change opinion/mood depending on the

File: 1497248774605.jpg (17KB, 250x311px) Image search: [Google]

17KB, 250x311px

>be me
>everytime change opinion/mood depending on the hours/day .
>don't get along with people irl or ivl , always want to break the 'bonds' that you create with people quickly before they do it first .
>leave them around thousand of messages while they are away
>attaching to them to quickly and trusting them too much even thought you aren't 'naive' and is someone with a pessimistic point of view
>almost fall in love with them
>block/ignore them , then try to contact them again
>block/ignore them AGAIN then feels bad
>pretends its trolling to yourself .
>regret
>stalking your 'friends' all the time because you are curious, you want to know who are 'they' and what they think of 'you' .
>struggle to stop hourly stalking
>paranoid af about 'someone' find out about 'something', about your life, your hobbies and everything. You don't want anyone to know these
>suicide thoughts and threats
>your dream is to stop talking with people and continue talking with yourself because you are a coward
>want to remove your empathy this way you won't feel the need of being with someone else
>people already told me that i was 'very weird' and now someone told me here that i might have 'BPD' from reading my messages which i don't think is true, think of it as barnum effect and i'm a male so there is less chance i might have it

being this retarded and toxic is painfull.

life is shit seriously.