When would you say your depression started and why? Did you

Age 16 when I realized how absurd and meaningless the world is. Nihilism has consumed my soul, I've become an empty shell of a man, no personality, no hobbies, nothing. I can't even cry anymore, I just exist. Any attempt to create my own meaning have failed and I'll probably kill myself tomorrow if I can motivate myself to leave my room.

When I was born. Ashamedly because I was born. Depression doesn't need a reason unfortunately.
Yes, when I was 12 or 13. Had therapy and anger management shit before then.

>>39225125

since I was a kid; dad left; brother fighting a lot with mom; never had any friends; now I'm still in my early 20s

I'd say about 7 years ago. Got a new job and I lost that excitement about my job. It just got worse from there.

>>39225577
Oh, forgot. I didn't get it diagnosed, I feel like that's mostly quackery.

>>39225125
When I was about 12, it got worse over the years due to bullying and social exclusion. I was put in the psych ward multiple times as a teenager. They had me on multiple different meds, the worst were the anti psychotics, I eventually stopped taking them. Began isolating myself at 16, lost my """friends""" at 17.

Now I'm 23 and I never leave the house.