>What keeps you awake at night /g/? Alternatively >What

knowing my life is heading downwards and that I can stop it but i am not even trying to.

>>39081839
I know that feel bro

>>39081838
> at night
Morning here. Greetings from Kolhapur!

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>>39081838

>>39081842
^_^

>>39081841
1:21 AM here

>>39081843
Same here my dude. It's 1:26am and there's only two other people in the gym right now.

>>39081844
Stop slacking off and start lifting...
Reminds me, I should go tomorrow after work

>>39081838
>>39081842
best girls

>>39081846
agreed

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>>39081838
>>What keeps you awake at night /g/?
knowing I'll die

>>What keeps you going?
knowing I'll die

>>39081848
p-pantsu

>>61895888
11/10

how do I get a waifu?

>What keeps you awake at night /g/?
crippling lonliness

>>39081852
(;ﾟ︵ﾟ;)

>>39081848
did the loli died?

>>39081851
Watch a lot of anime. When you find her, you'll know it.

>What keeps you awake at night /g/?

Money

>What keeps you going?

Money

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>>39081851
you don't find a waifu, she finds you

>>39081854
dunno

>>39081857
>>39081855
this

>>39081854
She's fine. A heroic grandpa jumped into the water and saved her.

This happened in my city and it was on the news constantly for days.

God

i sleep at night, sleeping is probably the best thing in my life and there is no worries during sleep
idk what keeps me going

>>39081856
What do you want the money for?

>>39081861
This but unironically.

>>39081838
Why are you greentexting random shit? dumbfuck

>>39081865
>being this buttblasted
>2010 + ~10
>being a newwfag
>implying implied implications

>>39081838
Revenge.
I was bullied hard in primary school. Only one of them (other than me) got into university, the others went into dead-end type jobs. Most of them didn't even get a trade or something similar. Despite all this, most of them are having their third or fourth child while barely being 25 years old, and very little income. They are reliant on the parents/other relatives for money who are also uneducated and make very little money.
I will destroy their life piece by piece by writing software for robots and other machines which automates processes, making their jobs obsolete.
Automatization is my weapon.
When I see them homeless and broke, I will know that I've won the long game.

So much for bullying, you fucking retards. You ruined my childhood and I will ruin your complete life.

>>39081867
that would be cringy if it wasn't so sad...

>>39081857
she is so cute

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>>39081838
AMD

methamphetamine usually

>>39081871
how 2 get?

My fear of death and the thought that I'll be able to cuddle with my current girlfriend once more

>>39081838
>What keeps you awake?
The thought of never telling her how I felt.
>What keeps you going?
Improving myself, growing some balls in short.

Right now its heavy hallucinations and sleep paralysis thats keeping me awake at night. If I lay my head down I'm instantly paralyzed again, heart rate increases, I get that feeling of pure dread and terror.
I can't sleep, I need to leave for work in 7 hours, I havent slept in days
Fuck

The only reason I keep going is I'm too broke to buy a gun and shoot myself. But in working on it

>>39081872
Go to the street you dumb fuck

>>39081875
>tfw guns are illegal here
I'm to pussy to try a toxic gas or overdose on SSRIs

>>39081839
This.
Absolute desperation over the fate I found myself binded to. I am already dead

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>tfw I will never embrace Kurisu and tell her I love her after a long day at the lab

why live?

>>39081838
>What keeps you going?
Gentoo, 4chan, anime and the thought of not waking up when I go to sleep. I'm too apathetic to have a waifu.

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>>39081838
My cat.

>>39081879
There really isn't a reason.

>what keeps you awake at night?
Life and mental state going downhill
>what keepsya going?
Dunno, seeing Technolo/g/y evolving is interesting enough

>>39081880
>I'm too apathetic to have a waifu.
It's probably for the better.
Life without your waifu is suffering...

>>39081882
T_T

>>39081881
Cat hair is going to get into the vents

>>39081879
Yep. Just die already

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>>39081884
>Cat hair is going to get into the vents
That's fine.

>>39081846
>girls
Heh!

>>39081885
Sometimes I wish

>>39081886
kek, I don't know why cats make me smile
I'm allergic tho

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>>39081888
>I'm allergic tho
Me too.

>>39081838
>night
My many failures in life. My regret that I'm not good enough to be an innovator in the tech world.
>reason
Not quite sure yet.

>>39081889
haha, I might buy black shorthair and call him nightmare...

>>39081857
more?

>>39081838
slice of life abd cgdct anime

>>39081838
>What keeps you up at night /g/?
My job. I work 3rd shift at a power plant.
>What keeps you going?
The drive to do better today than I did yesterday.

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>tfw anime is the only thing left in my life that doesnt suck

>>39081867
If you're gonna get revenge on Chads, don't fuck up the job market for the rest of us, that's just being a nigger. Be more personal about it.

>>39081838
>>What keeps you awake at night /g/?

My fucking wife when she rolls over and wakes me up.

>What keeps you going?

My paycheck, pension, and annuity.

>>39081895
3D CGI animation will make sure you begin to hate that, too

All the unpatched servers at work

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>>39081838
>>What keeps you going?
2D girls

>>39081900
>2D girls
^^^^^^^^^^^

>>39081838
>What keeps you awake at night /g/?
Nothing, I sleep like a baby
>What keeps you going?
I have literally no goals in life. I'm kind of just coasting by. You can't miss if you aim for nothing.

>>39081902
pointless, but I guess it works...

>>39081898
once it becomes to main stream i guess your right but you can still avoid it well enough not to care

Satellites in every orifice keep me up at night. Then it's the electrical noise from caimbridge. After that it's the amoeba. Then the can't-find-any-clean-socks. And finally, for now, it's the underground bunker that was made recently and hollowed just properly enough to discourage my pertaining in the domicile for a length beyond their measure which I will not be discussing.

1 small dude, and a shit ton of rich bitter old folk looking for a quick way to put to use a requisitioning system that they simply opted in to. Think Tesla. None of the work was proper and none of the rewards will help establish the workers.

Also they slam sledgehammers and let the local drug dealers and bums down there to harass me.

That keeps me up at night. Also the cops driving by in their home vehicles and helicopters shooting me with lasers and infrared pulse arrays, shooting blanks at my house or threatening me in the street keeps me up at night. Also the little scp-999 dealies in my ears from several directions doesn't help.

Terry had it just as bad if not worse because has actual skills and a degree. Also he wrote a fucking compiler. What have you done? Ily terry.

>>39081905
>satellites shooting heat lasers, infrared and sonic arrays in every orifice**

>>39081905
Also, this is done bu several different countries not just one set. Some over night, some during the day. My sleep schedule is sporradic to say the least.

>>39081838
I want to entertain people.
I wanna make stories that you can play with, and games that make you go "Oh, that's awesome". I wanna create the next Quake 3, the next Counter-Strike, the next Memecraft (well, more like a dungeon crawler/town builder that has blocks so it's memecraft guise :^D )
But first I need large amounts of cash and I need to git gud.

>>39081908
You just need to make things. The cash comes after you git gud, not before.

Your first game isn't going to be a AAA title, bro.

>>39081909
I've got a couple little games I've made, both top down shmuppy things. But the shit I wanna do to fix Autismblocks is burning a hole in my head. I watch people flip the fuck out over it, and watch devs get paid millions, only to wonder why it got so big when it's broken and the only enjoyment people get out of it anymore is optimizing as hard as they can for the one option that isn't gimped to all hell.

>>39081838
Nothing anymore except for the fact that im too much of a pussy to kill myself, also im used to depression right now it doesn't even bother me anymore.
I've just lost interest in doing anything, and i just go on by distracting myself with video games,masturbation and smoking.

Previously i used to look forward to manga releases mid week, literally the only thing that i looked forward to was when the next manga was going to be released but i lost interest in that aswell

Right now waiting for my conditions to get so bad (i have no interest in getting a job) so i finally have a reason to suicide, also waiting for my parents to die since it would break their hearts :/

I never had and, I think, never will be open up to someone.
I have built walls, higher than Mexicans, to protect myself from other people and their bullshit. And if I really do need some help, I can search in the internet to know how to do it, or pay someone to do it.
I might dig my parents grave but I don't know if someone will also do that to me when I die.

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>>39081842
Amazing taste.

>>39081838
>What keeps you awake at night /g/?
My nonexistent sleep schedule.
>What keeps you going?
The fear of losing even that little will to live that I still have.

>>39081838
>>What keeps you awake at night /g/?
Taking naps in the middle of the day.
>>What keeps you going?
The need for protecting imouto's smile.
Also, Ruka > Kurisu.

>>39081838

>her

Particularly a transgirl I pretty much can't talk to anymore because she distances and distanced from me, she just sits there on my Discord hard to get her off my mind shit sucks

>What keeps you awake at night /g/?
Daydreaming
>What keeps you going?
I enjoy things

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>>39081838
my crippling depression and anxiety but i'm going to keep on going because i hopefully will have le gf one day to cuddle and fuck

>>39081838
My rare INFJ/INTJ imaginary waifu.

>>39081848
The outcome is always predetermined but the inputs are always non-deterministic.

Fly, jump, run, and live to be reborn out of the shell as ascended not swallowed by the earth as an eternal sufferer.

The future may not be yours but this reality is yours forever.

>>61902424
Sorry

>>39081921
Thank You

>>39081918
>Pinning your hopes on a girlfriend (female)

How much of a masochist are you?

>>39081846
My favorite girls, you just need to add senjougahara and you've got the holy trinity of waifus

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>>39081917
>daydreaming at night

>>39081920
Iam14andThisIsDeep

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I have nobody but you fags to relate to. I have a gf, a great job, and other friends, but I feel so emotionally and intellectually unfulfilled.

Every day I make small talk with everyone I know, even the ones I love. Nobody gives a fuck about the music I like or the movies I like or my hobbies. It's not that I even have good taste, because I don't. It's just a slight deviation from the norm and so I'm stuck between pleb island and pseudo-intellectual atoll.

I had a few people in my life who I truly connected with and felt like myself with, but they've all gone away or died.

If I have to watch one more kids movie, I'm going to fucking kill myself.

That's what keeps me up at night. I'm 26 and I didn't know I could be this lonely with so many people around me

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>>39081927

>>39081927
I can become your friend if you want o be my sugar daddy,

>>39081927
You have everything but you are still sad

>>39081927
I felt this on a personal feel

>>39081927
what are you top 4 bands

>>39081838
>>What keeps you awake at night /g/?
insomnia
>>What keeps you going?
energy consumption/blood circulation

Your mum

>>39081876
;)

>>39081927
>having a job and gf
>emotionally and intellectually unfulfilled
so you work a wageslave job and your gf doesn't love you? you did this to yourself.

>Nobody gives a fuck about the music I like or the movies I like or my hobbies
why would you? what are you, 12? this should only matter if you're looking for someone to go to concerts with. do you go to concerts anon?

you're worthless. how about you dump your gf, find new friends, and work on getting a real job.

>>39081927
This but unironically. I have a gf whom I don't have anything in common, my parents barely speak to me. I only feel happy when I shitpost on /g/ and others boards.
The only people I feel connected are my bros, but due to GFs (mine and theirs) and work I can't find time for them, and I'm slowly loosing them.

>>39081929
I don't want online friends. It's not the same.

>>39081930
I know

>>39081932
That's hard to pick because I cycle through so much music. If I had to pick what I've recently been listening to:

>Touche Amore
>La Dispute
>BoC
>Radiohead

>>39081936
No, not wageslave. I'm a salarycuck, and the work is fulfilling enough. My gf loves me, but I'm just wishing we didn't have to make small talk. I wish we could mutually gush about things we're interested in, and could feed off each other's energy and passions. It's the opposite.

I got tickets to Touche Amore in October and I've got nobody to go with. And having someone with the same interests as me is important to me. I just want someone it feels like I have some kind of deeper connection with

>>39081938
>I don't want online friends. It's not the same.
I meant if you are in London.

>>39081939
I'm babe

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>>39081916

For fuck's sake I even removed her I just can't take it anymore it's really getting to me I kept her on my old Discord on my tablet though, I just can't connect with her at all. I wouldn't be able to explain anything to her because she never gets it nor understands anyway and or she plays fucking dumb and yet I'm the crazy nut with the problems

I have no job. I got sick with Crohn's for about 4 months until my flare died down with new medication. I've only had two interviews and no luck with either of them. I hate being a NEET, I want to work again.

I have no friends because I can't drink and eat 90% of food at restaurants. I'm basically a freak.

>>39081838
why would a data harvester care?

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>>39081938
Well, have you ever told her any of this? Tell her how you feel.

If she isn't for you, find someone who is.

>>39081916
>becoming obsessed with manipulative narcissistic mentally ill "women"

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>>39081937
Fucking leave your girlfriend. If you're not happy with her because she isn't your type, then maybe she's just not your type.

Go find someone you have stuff in common with

>>39081946
you sound like you'd make a great girlfriend.

>>39081945

She doesn't seem manipulative.....

>>39081947
I would, desu

>>39081911
>also waiting for my parents to die since it would break their hearts :/
I know that feel

>>39081838
>what keeps you up at night
thinking about my oneitis probably
>what keeps you going
unironiically focusing on bettering myself and getting as many different skills and abilities as possible

>>39081951
>oneitis
I know that feel as well

>>39081839
THIS

>>39081838
I have no friends (not to mention any kind of female interaction) and am in a constant state of loneliness which I can not escape for fear of social interaction.

I spent my time posting here calling people names because they use software I disagree with (but still use myself) as an escape from actually spending time doing useful things while lying to myself about tomorrow.

Every day I wake up and realize that I am fucking old and have done nothing in my life.

>What keeps me going
Shit posting here, especially pretending that I care about CPU brands or that it matters to which OS you are using.

>>39081954
This

>>39081954
Pretty much me as well.

>>39081839
this, every night...

>>39081954
Same here except for the being old part... I want to turn it around, but because I've been away from people for so long I don't know how I can.

>>39081954
i'm sure you aren't alone in this.

>>39081949
only one way to find out.

>>39081895
Don't worry. Soon enough even that will cease to bring you happiness.

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>>39081838

>>39081957
>>39081840
>>39081839
>>39081878
>>39081953
We're all gonna make it brahs, take as many breaks as you need but never give up, as long as hope exists everything will be daijoubu.

>>39081893
>abd anime
What is that?

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>>39081964
Absolutely Based Degeneracy

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>>39081966
That doesn't give me any anime results, are you sure you aren't just memeing me?

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Anime, manga, moege and shitposting with you guys are pretty much the one who keep me going and not killing myself desu.

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>>39081963
that's the spirit, anon

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>>39081839
This

The fact that for every challenge I overcome in life there's always another one right around the corner makes me just wanna say fuck it and give up friends used to keep me happy but I don't have as many friends as I used to feels bad man

>>39081838
>What keeps you awake at night /g/?
knowing ill never be able to be the son my mom wanted.
it hurts.

slightly less painful is the fact that i have no friends.

>>39081971
Ya anon I'll learn Programing I can't wait to get started tomorrow!

>>39081974
>knowing ill never be able to be the son my mom wanted.
it hurts.
It took me years to realize my mum wanted girl instead of me, especially cause of the relationship she had with my late grandma who died when i was like 1yo and of how she's always treated my cousin like a princess.

>>39081927
Do you have any form of mentor or role model?

my unfinished projects :(

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Clearly fate looks well on me. I've never had real rough patches that set me back. I always get out of those situations pretty fast.

>What keeps you awake at night /g/?
I don't understand people and it's really far too late for me to try. Like probably quite a few of the regulars here I spent my childhood with a computer and electronics instead of having a social life. So that's where things are, understanding machines instead of people. It was an escape but now it's the only thing I have. I'm fortunate enough to have had sparse intimate relationships where people have tolerated it, but people that understand how to treat you when you're completely socially inept are rare and still difficult to keep around. They're all really gone now and it's just myself, isolated with the machines.

>What keeps you going?
Hoping if I spend more time with the machines someone will eventually treat me like a real person because they'll be impressed with my status and accomplishments. For now though, the machines will have to do.

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>>39081879
Just for you anon.

>>39081838
The emptiness of my evolutionary use.

Information

>>39081981
thanks!

I will treasure this.

>>39081984
>painless
no pain no gains

>>39081983
No problem. You should check out the /c/ thread if you haven't already.

>>39081986
thanks!
I'm lurking now..

>>39081916
>she
WEW

hi from /g/, we got moved here

>>39081838
Ans for first qn : My girlfriend
Ans for second qn : Knowing that I'm living a wholesome life