>think I'm misogynistic or even misanthropic >think

>>38991298
The only viable solution is to hide this inside of yourself and let your hatred manifest as violence. It will improve your sex drive but you will have a craving to torture small animals.

>>38991366
The only person I really hate is myself, I realize. If I go that route I'd just harm myself, again.

>>38991389
What do you hate most about yourself? All that stuff about being 'mysogynisitic' is just a bunch of leftist banter attempting to give you male guilt, so there must be something physical, or something that happened a while back which you are repressing. Open up OP.

>>38991457
>What do you hate most about yourself?
Thinking on it, I hate hundreds of things about myself but most of all I think I hate the fact that I don't think I'll ever change. I don't think I'll ever do anything to fix that and I resent myself for it.
>All that stuff about being 'mysogynisitic' is just a bunch of leftist banter attempting to give you male guilt
I used that word because it's to say that I hate women as a whole which, at the time, I did.

>>38991638
What was the best thing that happened to you today, OP?

I'm not ignoring your previous statement, I'm curious to see your outlook on life.

some people are just built wrong, through birth or rearing. the greatest source of pain is the fact that you still hope to get better when there is no good end to this. it prolongs your suffering and makes it worse every time you try and fail. for some people simply existing is cruel

>>38991711
My mom brought home some hamburgers but she usually does so while I was happy about it I expected it. She also bought herself a big cup of ice cream again, this upset me a lot, she says she's trying to lose weight and I try to help her lose weight by telling her to eat less sugar but she doesn't listen to me. I ended up just retreating to my room and numbed my mind with 4chan, porn and vidya. I guess the hatred toward women stuff really sparked up a few hours after that.

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There is no solution
We exist to suffer

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>>38991857
Sounds very accurate. Typically hatred towards women stems from a disconnect/flawed relationship with a motherly figure.

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See a therapist, bro.

A therapist is just going to stick you with zombifying meds that at best will turn you into a "productive" member of society and you will be just as miserable only you won't care.

>>38991298
The only solution is to change your reality, like me. I'm going to go to school and become an economist, use my skills to take advantage of the stock market and use my wealth to run for congress position. It's the world from there. The only thing you can do if you hate the world is to change the world. What's stopping you?

>>38992062
then what choice do I have to get better?

>>38991298
Go be somebody you wouldn't hate. One by one identify the things you hate about yourself and then pick out a few to work on. I guarantee there's at least one or two things on that list that are thing you can actively work on. You just work on what you can one at a time and at whatever pace you can you'll just eventually fix some things. One day you'll wake up and you won't hate yourself anymore because you'll see how far you came and how much of a better person you are.

You need to find out who you really are OP, so lets start at the beginning.

Where did you begin?

>>38992695
"You"? The current me began when I was 12, my parents forced me out of school after the 6th grade and I hadn't attended formal education since, until I turned 20. During that 8 year gap I spent most of my time on the computer wasting away, neglecting myself and the world around me in favor of staying in the room every single day. I think most of my problems probably stem from this. I don't know how to fight a decade of learned behavior, I don't know if it's possible.

>>38992689
I've done the list in my head and on paper before but the latter just made me feel like shit. One big insecurity is my body I suppose, I don't like how skinny and out of shape I am, I think people are disgusted by my appearance. I'm usually afraid to look in the mirror because of it. Every attempt at sticking to a routine usually fails though so I don't have much hope there.

>>38992825
But what about your conception? Then your parents meeting? Their conception? You have to draw it back further anon, see how far those connections go. Because really, you, and me from my perspective, began at the same point, and it doesn't end with you and me.

There is a network anon, and no such thing as an individual thing. Think about what's happening right now, that whatever's going on, at least something is, because you can think that, an realize you're real. Once you break through your ego, the thing that tells you that you end with the surface of your skin, that realization of being extends.

I'm saying that you aren't a guy experiencing the universe, but the universe experiencing a guy.

>>38993221
>>I'm saying that you aren't a guy experiencing the universe, but the universe experiencing a guy.
Anon, I'm glad I went back to my thread because all of this is profound. I think I can see what you mean about the network, that everything is connected but I'm not sure how the breaking through one's ego thing works.

>>38993845
You are not your name anon, it can be that simple, I can't show you everything in a single moment though, you'll need to think this over to have a personal understanding. Your ego is that I that you've identifyed with your whole life, and has been cultivated by the society you live in. Realising it can be done through anything from long meditation, psychoactive drugs like cannabis or LSD, or in some single rush of understanding out of nowhere, be very apprehensive with the drugs though because they only open the doors, not show you the way. I'll recommend some of the audio recordings of the late Alan Watts as he could explain it better than anyone I've been able to find so far to Westerners like myself.

Another thing, the past and future are measurements, it has always been and will always be right now. It's the little changes of perspective that can make some of the most wonderful differences.