>Even the lowliest normies are enjoying themselves, having great laughs and experiences while working at wagecuck jobs, or even being in debt
>People at my age are working at Goldman Sachs and McKinsey or starting their own successful company making tons of money
>I'm a GDE so even when I go to the gym I feel shame knowing that 16-18 years old who do retarded routines are out-lifting me within half a year easily
>I'm a GDE so people much younger than me are benching 2x bodyweight for reps, squatting 600lbs, setting olympic records in sports, all while balencing their sexual relationships, their friendships, their GPA's at target schools and more
>The pornstars I masturbate to everyday are younger than me
>Everytime I come up with an idea like making an app or website I give up and get frusturated because I know some normie with a much smarter brain than I have will do it BETTER, much quicker and will advertise it better to users
>Walk around at night sometimes wondering if God will one day give me a divine intervention and help me realize what i need to do make it in this world
>Sometimes look up people I went to highschool with on Linkedin or instagram and see how they're living life to the fullest while I mope around and feel sorry for myself and never change anything
>>38969481
>The pornstars I masturbate to everyday are younger than me
I won't tell you to stop fapping, but you really should try to avoid porn. It's not good for your mental state, more so if you're a robot.
>>38969550
It's really my only joy in life these days.
>>38969481
I know that feel anon
>Tried lifting, spent 2 years at it. Eating extra every day and sticking to a strict routine. Somehow gained 35 lbs but never progressed beyond novice lift (To this day I can't bench more than 120 lbs)
>Every single member of my family is white collar - Doctor/Accountant/Lawyer
>Have never succeeded at anything in my entire life
>NEET for the past 6 years
At some point in my life I just broke, gave up, and now am a smug NEET. Life has nothing for me. Some people were meant to make it, others were not.
>>38969622
>Somehow gained 35 lbs but never progressed beyond novice lift (To this day I can't bench more than 120 lbs)
That's literally impossible
>>38969651
It's really not. I did some research and apparently a small portion of the population just can't get strong. Bodybuilding.com has an article on it
https://www.t-nation.com/training/truth-about-bodybuilding-genetics