Have you ever saw a video of yourself just being? Like not during perfomance or some shit, but just acting like you normally do.
Holy shit it was a fucking eye opener to me. Ive been to a house party at a friends, but just sat around drinking and talking. Some guy was going around with a gopro and plenty minutes of myself was recorded too.
All that fucking tics, constantly doing some shit with my hands, constantly straightening my back or stretching shoulders, it all looked so damn annoying and cringey and wanted to punch myself.
>>38955125
Listening to my voice on a recording device is painful for me. I never realized how fucking beta and flat my voice sounds
>>38955125
yes. this shit is 100x worse when you're fat too.
I have thought about this subject a few times. Sometimes I wonder how people perceive me on a daily basis, so I wonder how it would be to observe myself from a drones birds eye view. I don't think I could handle to watch myself through the span of a whole day, it would uncover so much autistic shit about myself I'm normally to ignorant to acknowledge.
>>38955125
yea this the reason i isolate myself at home all day
Have you ever thought you are judging yourself more harshly than is reasonable?
be here now
try to be more mindful and that stuff won't be so cringe
you don't wanna be cringing at your life review at the pearly gates or whatever, get conscious while you still can
>>38955125
I have seen videos of myself just being, a few times. However, it was long ago, so I can't remember or couldn't really judge. After reading your post, I realized that nowadays I have the same tics as you. Nice Duke art, by the way.