>hate narcissists
>am narcissist
can't tell if it's a defense mechanism for my autism or just how i naturally act but i hate it
>>38896738
get out of here with your self diagnosed bs
also, I am the greatest.
>>38896738
Thisis just the way it is.
>>38896813
what's wrong with self diagnosis? it is clear to me i am a narcissist.
>>38898164
The last person who thinks he's a narcissist is the narcissist himself since thinking you are would require some degree of self-awareness of your imperfections.
>>38898220
i think that's some pop-science, like the crazy person never thinks they are crazy. it's not an arbitrary valuing of myself as selfish, it's that i've done some reading on the way narcissists create and foster an identity and i relate completely.
the worst thing someone can tell me is that i am a fake, which is narcissistic injury. it reveals the falsity of my narrative. i think the truth is i have no identity, or else my autism and social retardation stifles it, but to compensate i have created a separate self with a lot of pretenses of being better than people. when someone pokes a hole in this identity i feel vulnerable and enraged. i act subconsciously to protect this identity, i lie, i act, i am shamefully exhibitionist at times, i am stubborn, often asserting my values to others to reaffirm my identity matters more than any other outcomes of the situation.
i need validation of this false self. i am self aware of this but i cannot stop it. i don't know how to otherwise act and i just want to be normal.
We often hate in others what we hate about ourselves the most.
Personally I hate pussies and selfish people the most.
Wouldn't you know it those are the aspects of my personality that I hate the most.