>Tfw you just know you're gonna kill yourself one day

I don't want to man. I want my life to go right but shit keeps happening one thing after another. I'm tired of it.

>>38831912
In middle school I decided that I would kill myself someday, yes. Two failed attempts during high school one of which was going to sleep with a bag over my head lol

>>38832119
too many methods are humiliating and or long and painful. shooting myself doesn't seem that bad

>>38831912
we have the underlying feeling that you'll never do it because youre a pussy

>>38831912

I had that feeling when I was 13. That was over a decade ago. Still here.
I don't want a family (wife+kids etc), and I don't have the creativity for the hobby I actually kind of enjoy partaking in, so I know once my friends drift away and my parents pass away I'll likely off myself eventually. I'm guessing in my 40s sometime

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>>38831912
I want to die but I can't afford a gun and every other method either requires too much money or is too painful/slow.
Existence is a fucking meme. I didn't ask to be born.

>>38831912
am a tranny, i feel pretty good about myself a lot of the time, not depressed or lonely, but i feel like the high tranny suicide rate statistic will catch up with me

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I do think about it everyday, since I live in an economic wasteland and a soon to become third world country I'll most likely end up homeless. Also I'm dirtpoor so it doesn't help either.

i have to say having a near death experience sucks. my car accident happened almost four years ago and still recovering. my friends moved away, i'm at the point of my life where i need to find a wife. i don't have a car to go out.

If I had a gun, fuck yes I would. I'm a pussy and don't want to feel pain when I try to kill myself, so a gun is really the only method I consider.
I already realized that I'm living life to try and pursue happiness, and that eventually I'll pull the trigger. It's just that I can kill myself any time I want to, but I don't have all the time in the world to find my reason to live.
I guess just the thought that I can end it whenever I want is comforting enough for me to keep going, and if outside forces take me out before then, at least I still was able to die, but doing it trying instead

I know I'm probably going to die young via suicide but that's what I'd prefer to be honest. I'd rather die in my prime when I look and feel my best instead of watching it all fade away into old age

>>38834063
i view that as just another phase of life. ill probably feel different tomorrow, but i want to experience the complete apathy that comes with old age as you watch everything fade out. theres lessons to be learned there, even if its suffering. its a feel id like to know, just to add to my long list of shit ive learned in life

anyone else find it weird that the last act he did before shooting himself was taking a sip of water.

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>>38831912
I think about it almost every waking moment of everyday. I try to supress the thoughts about blowing my brains out but it feels impossible. All ive seen in life is meaninglessness and hopelessness. I was once very religious but after certain circumstances i lost all faith i once had in God. I wish i could go back to that time tho, when life seemed to have so much meaning. But hell even then, deep down i felt something was "off." What that is? I'm not really sure. One thing feels certain though, ill end up killing myself one day, and one of the biggest reasons is i just dont belong. I have no happiness all i seem to know is mental anguish, and as of late also physical pain.