What would you say was the main event that turn you into a robot?

>>38745113
Fuck I thought I'd at least get one reply.

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>>38745113
>be me
>be like 12
>be fat and shy but intelligent
>actually very outgoing and socially smart online even though am a train wreck irl
>have lots of good internet friends
>meet cute gril online
>a year or two older, same country but 400 km apart
>develop oneitis
>become closest friends
>swn love me the same way I love her though
>become depressed for 3-4 years
>after cucking myself and gently guiding chads to her pussy in 3 occassions decide to confess
>get rejected as expected
>she still wants to be friends
>i only want to JUST
>get over it but be mentally and socially fucked up forever despite becoming kinda attractive
>mfw wasted my whole teenies cucking myself and murdering my future

If it weren't for my two true friends I'd fucking neck myself.

finding furry porn/hentai when i was 16. was fucked ever since.

>>38746171
Hah, That's nothing, I've been watching pornos since I was 11, also had my first cum when I was 11 too.

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It's not one thing. I guess I was just destined by God to become a robot.
>Legitimate doctor-tested autism, couldn't speak until I was like 5
>Unlimited internet access from very early childhood
>Nobody ever told me I was being weird or creepy or stupid and only realized much later people were probably wondering where my handler was I was such a mess, was "that kid" all throughout elementary school
>Can only function with others well enough to get by day-to-day, meaning I can go to the store or go to appointments without spewing spaghetti everywhere but can't make friends or network because it's just too much socializatioin to handle
>Niche interests (e.g. old computers/consoles and Eastern Bloc life) but not enough to truly fit among other spergs, can't truly get into anything
>Sometime in early high school realized that the things preventing me from getting a girlfriend went far beyond just being a fatass and that I was damned to die alone, have comes to terms with celibacy

>>38745343
>wasted my whole teenies cucking myself and murdering my future
Oh I know that feel anon, sadly I don't have any friends like you do so I have no reason not to kill myself.

I was made too fundamentally different to ever have a chance as a normal person. I am actually sort of pleased with that because there's so much more to life than that.

>>38745113

A head injury when I was goofing off with some friends right after I graduated high school. It destroyed all my social skills.

>>38747997
Story time please anon-san.

Getting cheated on.
I've had crippling self-worth issues for as long as I can remember though, so that didn't help at all.

There is no definitive moment that turns you into a robot OP. You may try to find some solace in thinking "it's not my fault I'm like this, it's the times!" but deep down you know you're wrong.

We are robots because we are born this way. We are half-baked, bumbling, awkward dregs that would never succeed in any society that is, will be, or was.

All these moments? They are merely symptoms of the pestilence which afflicts us. A pox for which there is no cure except to leave the gene pool.

You aren't failed normies, you're all just trash.

>>38748018

There's not much to tell.

* Had been perfectly normal throughout high school; close knit group of friends and a girlfriend
* We were goofing off, and someone yelled "catch" and tossed a brick, or a chunk of metal or something at me.
* It hit me in the head, and knocked me out.
* I didn't go to the doctor or the ER. They just put me on a couch until I woke up
* Ever since then, I've been unable to understand emotions, or relate to people. I also get massive headaches every couple of weeks.
* I gradually drifted away from everyone I knew, and didn't make any new friends.

This was years ago; I went to a doctor recently, and had a MRI, but they didn't see anything.

>>38748325
This is really interesting, not trying to sound like a dick or anything but you were pretty much chad all though out your high school years but one hit to the head pretty much gave you autism and turned you into a full fledged robot, it sounds like the plot to a movie or something. also remember to > greentext when you write a story anon.

Starting secondary school. Was 16 then. Making friends is easy when you're a kid. But I wasn't friends with anyone in my class, and I couldn't talk to anyone, so I became a shut-in. Now it's been about 5 years.

>>38748325
Sounds like your temporal lobe got affected in some way, probably a hematoma or something that fucked up neural pathways and went away with time.

I blame everything on my mother. Bitch just goes on and on about the most useless things. I've learned less from her than from one of my friends who tried to bully me into understanding what I'm doing wrong in life. Fuck her

Pretty much geting bullied and having more interest meeting people online than irl

>>38745113
I was born this way, have Autism, not the meme, but actual Autism. I never had a chance in this life.

>>38749690
>actual Autism
OP here, same her anon, same here, I would do anything to lose having autism, even lose my NEETBUX get from having it.

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>had a lot of friends throughout kindergarten and elementary school
>had a lot of confidence and was always trying to talk, socialize, be funny, make new friends etc.
>have to move to another state suddenly and know nobody at school
>completely stop talking to people and develop serious anxiety
>quickly become "that kid" that everyone avoids and laughs at behind his back
>lose whatever confidence and social skills I had at that point
Kind of makes me wonder if I'd still be like this if none of that happened. I was always a weird kid even when I had friends and was liked but so were half of the other kids I went to school with. I'm diagnosed with social anxiety disorder but that didn't happen until my late teens and I was already far gone at that point. Multiple psychiatrists and therapists throughout my childhood have said they don't think there's any chance of me having the 'tism or 'spergers despite my father suggesting it to them.

>>38749090
Ah yes the ancient mother bitching about trivial bullshit meme. I know it well friend.

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>>38745343

Having true friends puts you ahead of a lot of us sadly.

>>38748030
fuck man what happened

>>38748038
this

for me it's devoting myself to doing well in school. Now I'm here and barely made any friends on my own, never mind girls

>>38749957
>fuck man what happened
We had to live 150 miles apart for a couple months at most and even with a fuckton of back and forth visiting she couldn't handle not being the center of attention and calming the fuck down for two minutes so one day she got drunk and went slutting it up.

Ive always been a loser
I realised i was less than nothing in kidergarten and ive just come to live with it
Put on the mask and be a good cog

>>38750102

I don't blame you for having trust issues if you do. I hear this and wonder why even bother with some girls

Page seven
So longy bowser

i am too afraid to post my story because of the archives

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>>38745113
I never really cared but the constant antagonism from other kids back then really drove the point that I shouldn't care about what they want or think. Adults aren't that much better about it, they're just quieter. I frequently find myself uninterested in social normalcy, it just doesn't matter to me. The antagonism was all my childhood, and I don't think any one particular event could have turned me into what I am so drastically. I think, if I did have to sum it up, it would be my entire school experience. Elementary, middle and high school, as well as college even. At least people in college left me be unless it was necessary, interactions were optional. I thought after the normal school experience, I might be able to finally make friends like my family continuously urged and pushed me to relentlessly. It made me miserable, getting rejected by person after person, group after group. Just like after high school though, it took me a bit before I finally reached a conclusion that allowed me peace of mind.
I'm not really sure what category I fall into anymore, but I'm content with my life now. I think that's a lot more than what many normal people have, and I'm a "friendless virgin loser", as it would be said.

>>38745113
My birth. The reason I cant keep a girlfriend or a boyfriend is my mental problems. No one wants to deal with someone as clingy as I am. They cant handle that I just want to exist in the same room as then 24/7 if possible. It drove me to deep depression where I tried to kill myself multiple times but due to lack of eating I didn't have the strength to climb the wall on my roof. Now that I've recovered I'm scared of love. I don't want to get attached anymore then have them leave sending back to that same dark place.

There really is no one event. I think its just anxiety from my mom. I dont know if i got it genetically or just hearing her sperg about the littlest of things has caused me also to worry about stupid shit. No one even knows how constantly nervous i am about everything because i have trained my self to just look constantly apathetic.

But every time i even hang out with a girl i get so nervous i throw up beforehand. If i ever started getting intimate with a girl i would probably have a heart attack or somthing. I also constantly worry that all my friends secretly hate me and that i will never find a good job and be a loser my whole life.

>>38747474
>have comes to terms with celibacy
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>>38745113
>be sorta normal
>band geek, social misfit, didn't understand lots of social conventions but still had a few friends/gf's

>get hit by a car at age 19
>spend about a year in mental recovery, re-learning how to do things like speak and brush my teeth
>oh, also, mouth was wired shut for about a month (broken bones, etc.), so not only did I have to re-learn how to use my mouth with certain parts not working but my teeth are also rot to hell from a month of not brushing
>social autismo, outcast, first few months of recovery were spent in a mental ward which gave me fucked-up ideas of human contact anyway

>now, hate "normie" social stuff
>hate social scene
>hate first-world culture, the rat race and the constant pursuit of validation
>hate the idea that you have to constantly better yourself for money or social validation, rather than self fulfillment
>hate pretty much everything about my country's culture, TRIGGER WARNING
which is America
>listen to stories about my great-grandparents on their farm (which none of their 7 children kept up, it was sold to Shekels Inc. when they retired)
>drive through small towns and talk to people in it
>wish I was small-town religious, unfortunately fedora
>want to move to the middle of nowhere and homestead, unfortunately also love the Pacific coast and it's all expensive as sin

I just want to be alone and die in peace, why can't modern culture let me do that? I can't even go full innawoods, because after getting hit by the car I'm dependent on prescription meds so if I don't stay inside that whole system I'll be dead with a week after my current stash runs out.

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>>38745113
>Only 18

You still have time, after 22 though...

26 year old virgin here, far past the point of hope. I've had a few chances to lose it but due to my fear I always self sabotage my chances.

>>38747474
>old computers/consoles & eastern bloc life
Horry shet, are you me?
I'm not a diagnosed autist tho.