i like to listen. i like to learn. and today, i want to hear

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>>38599760
Pretty much me since I was 14...Fuck you.

>>38600224
so you skipped school and drank?

Well, you can go anywhere on the net for that, including this site, but I guess if I had to sum it all up...

I've learned that the most important factor in a person's life is how good and functional they are physically. I didn't want to face it, but sex is really so essential in life, and if you don't get it, you'll usually end up feeling very depressed and jealous. And still, maybe for some people, it's not so important, but for me... damn, I wanted it so bad. And now, later in life, I really want affection. It has just destroyed me now. But my main problem is that I'm physically sub-par, and I feel unlovable.

The other thing I blame is being born to my stupid ass parents, who chose to live in a stupid ass community (because they are stupid and can't deal with anything more). And I blame my time, which was just before the internet really took off, which would have helped me greatly. I think my life could have been different, if only circumstances had been different. But mostly, I think if a person has great biology, they can overcome any issues like this, and go on to live an accomplished and happy life, no matter where they were born. So that's the most important thing.

Because of the internet, I don't even believe kids today can have quite the same confusion as me, so I don't even think they even need me to give them advice. So, I just feel incredibly unlucky. (I'm 32 btw. ...And I post that so much, a few people probably hate me by now.)

(Thanks for asking, because I felt especially down today, because I've been trying to work on something for 8 months now, but I'm seriously afraid that I'll never do it...)

(Mainly I posted because maybe you'll be a therapist or something someday, if you aren't already, and this should help your perspective.)

>>38600224
You didn't miss a damn thing. Wish I had done that.

do you have steam OP?

I went to college, graduated, now i do absolutely nothing because i didn't plan to do anything afterwards. There's so much i could do but nothing seems really fun or meaningful, so i waste my time here or watching stupid shit on youtube and animus.
Sometimes i have intellectual wank sessions by taking courses online (coursera is great btw) or applying for jobs i don't really want and half-assing the interview like a sad sack of shit because i really can't be fucked to do it.
Don't be like me, plan in advance, keep getting involved with stuff and hobbies because once you fall into laziness it's difficult to get back on track. Life is motion and it stops when you're dead.

(1/2)

I was always sort of an outsider, a wildcard. Dont have any behavioral or mental disabilities or disadvantages nor any history of mental illness nor does anyone in my family. Yet I dont fit in much anywhere, I guess alot of us feel that way. I have a normal sized group of friends and I dont have any difficulties socializing, I much enjoy it if I meet someone with similar interests or frame of mind.

Normal family, normal dad, normal mom, two sibblings. Parents divorced, but the divorce didnt affect me to much and my father just moved a little outside of town so he was always around.

Nothing out of the ordinary happened during my youth. Went to school, did OK, not that I ever tried. Got some friends, went to parties, lost my virginity one late drunken night. I consider myself really boring and I probably am, I am not the natural center of any social gathering unless it's a social gathering of people less confident than myself.

Average looks, dress normally. I guess the only thing out of the ordinary with me is my sexuality, gay if you wondered. Not that it matters much, dont sleep around much. Dont date much at all, I feel like nobody deserves to be with me and not in a flattery way. Nobody deserves to have to put up with me, that's how I feel. Or maybe I'm lying to myself and I dont find anyone good enough, havent figured that one out yet.
If anyone shows interest in me, I get stressed out, anxious and I put up walls around me. I guess its a selfdefence mechanism, my heart has been broken way to many times before.

>>38601789

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I guess I fake self confidence really well, I dont know the difference between confidence and faking confidence anymore.

I dont have much life lessons or experiences out of the ordinary. I am very much a creative guy, loves music, art, movies, books, loves to draw, paint, compose, produce, write whenever I am in a inspired mood.
Get lost in daydreaming alot.
I would be much more into songwriting and poetry if I felt I had anything to offer, but I dont. I dont have any insightfull lyrics or heartwrenching stories to tell. Nor can I sing very well either so it's probably for the best.

I gues I am sort of an disappointment to my parents, got a shit job at the grocery store. Never amounted to anything special. 26 years old and got nothing to show for it. No achievements, no long relationships, no decent job. What I got is a loving family, good friends, healthy mind and body, roof over my head and food in my stomach. For the majority of us, that is abut as good as it gets. Complacency is stagnation, but it hard to trade complacency for uncertainty and motivation.

I dont know what the fuck I am doing with my life.