God I'm pathetic...
>decided to go outside after months of shutting myself indoors
>sunlight stings my skin and fresh air aches my lungs
>see a happy couple holding hands enjoying each others company
>waves of anger mixed with depression hits me like a sack of bricks
>struggle to hold back my tears as i try to decide whether to rush back home or to the nearest bathroom stall to quietly sob
>fuck it, rushed back home trying to hide my watery eyes
>bumped into several people because i was looking at the ground, daring not to look up
>finally made it back to my room, my safe space
>burst into tears at how pathetic i am
>made this shitty post
At least you tried m8, and you can't rush this type of thing.
It might not seem like it now, but it gets easier. I got like this once and it took a while to get over it. The key is to take small steps.
Look at it this way OP, you made the effort to actually go outside for the first time in ages, that's an achievement in itself. Don't be disheartened that it was too difficult, you can always try again tomorrow.
>>38573137
keep trying. it gets easier.
>>38573137
wow how much of a fucking pussy can you be
>>38573137
Man I have a pretty okay life and go outside every day and even I can't handle happy couples. It's the fucking worst.
Don't get discouraged by those fucking normies anon
>>38573137
After doing that many times, you won't cry anymore.
You will just go outside, see a happy couple, tell yourself ywn experience that, smoke a cigarette, buy food and shut yourself in your room again.
Till death do us apart brobot.
>>38573137
>months
you still have a long way to go before getting accepted in my squad for the Uprising kid