I'm so sick of being alone /r9k/, I know nobody will read this but I want to vent as I have nobody.
I lost all of my friends because I never wanted to hang out. I met a girl a year ago, found we liked all of the same things but couldn't form a relationship or friendship with her. I compulsively check her social media accounts because it feels like I'm living with her vicariously. I see her nearly every day. I can honestly say there is no worse feeling than being infatuated with someone and having them not even acknowledge or think about you. I've dealt with depression, anxiety, abuse as a child and this is still the worst pain I've ever felt. I've also been dealing with health problems for the past year, as a result I've had to maintain a shaved head thus I've felt and looked unlike myself, so she doesn't even know the "real" me. I know we're never going to be friends or anything, but I don't know how to get over this obsession. It's unhealthy to let a person affect your life so much without even being a part of it.
Please help me
my best advice to you
is to keep yourself busy
just distract yourself from all those thoughts
First of all forget the fucking girl.she aint gon fix anything.
Your options:
1. Stop overthinking about how to socialize ,instead, man the fuck up and force your self to have fun doing shit with other people until you like it.
2. Become a fucking neet and get it over with. Drown yourself in vidya or anime to cover for your insecurities and stop fucking trying to fix them.
>>38573007
>I can honestly say there is no worse feeling than being infatuated with someone and having them not even acknowledge or think about you
Going through something just like that, with the added "bonus" of thinking I had some connection with her, which I clearly was badly mistaken about.
So I am not only feeling obsessive af. but also like I can't even rely on my own intuition anymore.
Can't stop thinking about her and feeling like an pawing at an unsolved riddle without having all parts, shit is nerve wreaking to the max.
As little help as that is, you are not alone in your plight.
>>38573007
You can always try going to work getting drunk work drugs,not best bet but working atm for me
>>38573534
I also feel like I'll never be happy with any other girl. Like I'm settling for less or something. This girl is the only person I've ever been interested in, and it's not about her being cute, she's objectively average, it's about how much we have in common, how nice she is, how she acts. I can't stop mulling over the idea of what could have been, we could be hanging out playing video games and watching movies right now. We're both socially anxious/nervous people. Neither of us have ever been in serious relationships. I'd be more than happy to just be best friends, just someone who cares about me to talk and hang out with.
>>38573879
Nearly 100% the same for me. She isn't even my type of girl , but mentally she seemed so perfectly the same that was I typing the correct answers out before half her questions were on screen. The type of thing where you'll feel you could finish the other persons sentence for her when she takes a breath.
>I'd be more than happy to just be best friends
Only thing I can't agree with there, I could never stand for that. All or nothing.
>>38574110
I remember the first time I saw her, my coworker pointed her out and said "that girl is so short". I thought "she's kinda cute I guess" and never really paid her much attention. And then she talked to me and I learned we're essentially the same people. I wish I never met her, honestly.
>>38574200
>I wish I never met her, honestly
It would make today easier for me if i hadn't but no. She is away, I won't get her back even in a casual way, nevermind in the way that I want her.
But I am still glad I know she is out there reading a book, as strange as it is.