Hello, crusader anon here, posted something about me a week earlier.

Day ((Arrival))
>arrive at spot
>see lots of people
>we get stored into a big bus
>all the normies fucking know each other
>sit alone because I know nobody
>we're driving for over 10 hours
>my only friend is the priest at this point
>he's cool

>finally get off bus
>guys get separated from girls
>go to designated room for 4 guys
>I'm paired with a manlet and a jewish-looking guy
>oh yeah, and there's Chad
>REEEEEEEEEE
>manlet immediately suggest sneaking out to girls
>I tag along
>spill my spaghetti trying to introduce myself

Day One
>normies were blasting their music all night until the camp supervisors got mad
>didn't sleep well
>spend a lot of time in the bathroom because public bathrooms are the worst
>normies getting angry

>roomies want to play ball
>I suck at it but they let me play
>soon enough we're shuffled into a room
>we gotta sing
>I enjoy singing
>didn't make myself too noticeable, don't worry

>we're scheduled to watch some sad propaganda
>I knew what was happening, didn't shed a tear
>except it gave me room to think about how much of a shut-in I am
>actually shed a few tears
>tfw broken emotionally
>don't wanna play ball anymore
>one supervisor notices, wants me to play the fucking ball
>people catch on about how pathetic I am
>this is the first actual, full day of camp and it's already this bad

>decide to go out on the balcony of my room
>gotta think through my situation
>normies blast music under me
>they notice and call out to me
>all the supervisors are there
>tfw, they arranged some rave dance shit
>tfw it's obligatory
>get down there
>move my arms about
>they arrange it so we get partners
>after a second of dancing we change partners
>tfw I get to spill spag in front of 5-10 girls
>after it's done and over I chill at balcony

Day Two
>have some morning prayer I need to say
>didn't say it wrong, at least
>but hey, you need to think positively sometimes, right? I nailed that prayer
>turns out singing is everyday
>started to enjoy it even more
>probably tone-deaf af but don't care
>it's the one thing that makes me happy

>we get a break before church
>get permit and go to store
>poor ass can't even afford snacks
>go back without buying anything

>we go on tour around the woods
>reach river and skip stones
>one rock I threw basically sled across the water
>awesome
>oh wait nobody fucking saw it
>everybody's still convinced I'm a loser

>get tired out by the long day and stuff
>lay on my bed and put my head under a pillow
>normies blasting music
>they start shouting to me
>it's not the first time they're disturbing my rest
>tell them to let me sleep
>hear an unfamiliar voice
>they won't stop bugging me
>decide to take the pillow off
>skan the room to see who the voice belongs to
>it's the fucking supervisor
>apologize and hear out what he has to say
>roomies mock me for this

Day Three
>went up a mountain
>prayed in chapel on mountain
>went down mountain

>so depressed that I don't even sing
>even more depressed by the lack of singing

>life is bad
>want to go home

>listen to some stories
>moving stories
>was moved
>decided to return to singing
>pray
>get filled with ((motivation))
>big day tomorrow
>still depressed but this might change

Day Four
>accept Jesus Christ as my savior and God
>cry tears of religious feels
>we gonna go up a bigger mountain tomorrow
>get excited for once
>ascending and descending will take 3 hours each
>maybe I'll finally break out of my robot shell

Day Five
>mountain is good
>walk like my life depends on it
>legs stronk
>try to be more of a normie
>actually contribute a bit
>life is better

>try to initiate conversations
>people seem interested
>still autistic
>try not to care

>don't have dances today
>at least not like day one
>instead, have to prepare some play
>group is 5 girls, 1 other guy and 1 me
>take big role
>nail it
>girls talk to me unprovoked
>what is happening
>what are these feels
>are they good feels

>wonder about things
>is being a robot fundamentally wrong?
>God has a road for every individual to tread on
>doesn't that mean that some of us are destined for robotdom?
>that is what I believe

Day Six
>my group gets to prepare dinner
>roommate has to change his clothes
>wait for him
>come in late
>no problem, we still have work to do
>uh-oh prayer time
>speed off to designated table
>everybody gets a piece of paper corresponding to tables btw
>arrive at yellow table
>stay there to not disturb prayer
>forgot that dinner group always gets red
>can't get out without making a big fuss
>decide to let it go and just sit it out
>feel bad because I can't help out
>apologize to group supervisor
>apologize to group
>roomies say that I won't get in trouble
>fast forward to group meeting with supervisor
>"what are you, a fucking prince, anon? you can't just eat while we're working"
>supervisor is visibly disappointed
>people are now calling me prince
>normies laughing their asses off
>just stay quiet

>mood is better
>play ball
>there's some qt's already on the field
>a little girl walks into the field
>asks "are you Stacy?" to a girl, holding a camp ID somebody dropped
>nobody answers
>with a deep voice, jokingly say that it's me
>qt 9/10 starts laughing
>doesn't stop laughing
>I laugh too

>something's scheduled after the break
>that qt with a cute laugh runs off
>forgets her ID
>pick it up and catch up to her
>I might have a chance with this girl

>robot
eh, can do
>catholic
I'm so, so sorry for you

read entire thread, the self-delusion is worse than what trannies do

Day Seven
>decide to make up for the prince thing yesterday
>offer to wash the plates
>feel like I'm contributing good this time
>get called off by the supervisor for being too slow

>meeting time
>free seat by the qt
>sit there
>say hello
>she says hey
>roomies gesture something to me
>they know what's going on
>looks like they're wishing me luck
>after meeting she looks at me from afar
>raises eyebrows
>I wiggle mine about
>she smiles

I hope this is at least a bit interesting, a robot slowly becoming a normie is sure to catch your eye, r-right?
Might not be able to respond because I'm kinda busy. Let me know if I should keep a log of the last week or not, it's actually a bit tiring to do it, so might as well give it up if it's for nothing.

Jesus op just stop your life is boring we don't want to hear your boring shit

>>38550461
I might, thanks for voicing your opinion.

>>38550534
Non-theist anon here. I came for some perspective into religious life and I am reading your logs. I think it's interesting and even though we have nothing in common and you'd probably actually dislike me it's like meeting a new friend and learning about their life. I wanna know what happens with your religious qt and if you make any more progress trying to overcome being a robot. I like that you keep trying even if the concept of "crying over religious feels" is an absurd and alien concept to me. So yeah, there is some interest.

Aww man, I was expecting full on Crusader mode, with a bunch of yelling "DEUS VULT" all over the place.

>>38550712
That is a lovely thing to hear. You probably won't see me for another seven days, maybe discord?

>>38550712
>>38550902
uh, read that one again and also my own reply...
>maybe discord?
sounds fucking autistic

It seems like I don't have more time tonight, so see you all some time later.