So how are you guys feeling tonight? Do you need to talk about

>>38528741
what's the point in life?? death seems so chill. Life is just a contstant struggle with no reward, all you get is a short lived dopamine rush at most.
why bother?

>>38528799
maybe thats the point to find something to live for
Something to make it worth living rather it be a person a pet a job or a hobby

>>38528741
I got a new job at a retail store, but they want me to wait another week till I start. I'm going crazy. I have nothing to do all day. I only have 20 dollars left and I've been trying to put off having to go through nicotine withdrawals by budgeting my cigs, but it's so hard with how restless I am. I'm finally over withdrawals from an adderall addiction and I don't want to go through another.

I hate living at home and want nothing more than to get away from my family, but I have no car and no money. I wish I had stayed at my last job. I walked out one day cause I couldn't take it anymore. I didn't make much at it, but I'll be making even less at this new one. I don't know if I should try and stay long enough at the new one to get a promotion to earn more and bolster my resume or if I should just find a warehouse job that pays more than this shit.

It's gonna take me another year bare minimum to save up the money to get a car and move out but I can't stand living with my family anymore. We're all running out of money because my dumbass family members don't want to work, instead choosing to live off some savings account that's about to dry up.

Even when I do move out, I have years and years of school and tens of thousands of dollars of student loan debt to look forward to. Why is there so much stacked against me. How am I supposed to enjoy anything when everything just brings more challenges.

I get it, I fucked up by blowing all my money this past year on drugs to numb the pain, but just fuck. What am I supposed to do? I want to be happy someday, but I can't see where that is on the horizon.

>>38528869
dawg i study art, but i cant see beauty no more, im scared of people and my cat recently passed away. Nothing has color, everything gray

>>38528741
You can wait on the good times all your life.

>>38528741
Is doing what's fun the right thing to do?

>>38528952
You can be happy friend I promise you can its gonna be hard for a while but you can do it! I truly believe you can
>>38529012
Ijm sorry to hear that I've been there many times the color will com back itll be a little at a time but one day you will get to enjoy the beauty again I promise
>>38529058
True but whats the alternative? focusing on the bad?
>>38529086
it depends on what you are talking about but if its not hurting anyone then yes

>>38529173
>>38529173
>You can be happy friend I promise you can its gonna be hard for a while but you can do it! I truly believe you can

Thank you, anon. I don't feel any better, but I appreciate you saying that. I want to just on a depressing monologue right now, but I know there's no point. Sigh. I'll get there someday.

>>38529265
I'm sorry I can't really help you I know things seem impossible and words from a stranger aren't gonna help
But Just keep going thats all you can do Im still going and I haven't reached what I want and I may not but I would rather try then just sit back and let life roll by me

>friendship day (uhh i dont know if it exists in other countries, its like lovers day but with friends lmao)
>only have 3 friends
>"hey do you want to do something?"
>"nah"
>they go out with their other friends
>"hey anon we are going to eat something at 1pm, we are going to pick you up"
>wait
>they didnt come
>"g-guys are you ok?"
>"Yeah we just went without you sorry haha"
why

>>38529376
They sound like bad friends, I wouldn't let it get you down fuck them
You can make better friends people who want to hang out with you you don't need people like that in your life

>>38529419
i know they are bad friends but it makes me doubt if im a bad friend too.
Also i still have to talk with them because of work policy

>>38529522
I'm not saying you need to be a dick to them
and do you honestly think you are a bad friend? have you done anything to hurt them in anyway?