>go to sleep at 11pm >memories and usual abysmal feeling

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>go to sleep at 11pm
>memories and usual abysmal feeling of despair flood in as always
>cry until 6am while trying to make as little noise as possible
>pass out from exaustion
>wake up at 5pm
>feel good enough to carry on living
>crying helps to glue together all the pieces
>been doing this for 5 years
>every.single.day.

>be me
>yesterday 11pm
>usual shit goes down
>despair hits 1 am
>feel the worst i've felt in quite a while
>therideisstarting.webm
>suddenly realize
>i can't cry
>no matter how bad it gets, my tears just don't come anymore
>sadness snowballs me
>wake up 5pm and stay in fetal position in bed until the demons go away
>TFW the only thing that helped me hold my shit together abandoned me

i'm oficially broken lads, might be ending it all soon.