What's circling through your mind tonight, robot? Feel

Woke up with cockroaches and bed bugs in my bed and in me. I am seriously considering suicid.

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I really want to join the german forces for a year or two, but I doubt they'll take me because my therapy that only ended last december.

I really wonna join the army fug

>>38490685
Would you mind taking a shower and leaving your place of living to decompress?

this song desu

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=tmKYtm731m4

>>38490715
My home is ruined my life is ruined. But I guess I could take a walk.

I've squandered the past two and a half months after graduating college when I should have been looking for a job. Now I have three weeks before I'll be homeless and jobless. I don't have a car, and I only have about $2k to my name.

>>38490727
You can start with your house and after that with your life.

>>38490727
>My home is ruined my life is ruined.
But you're not ruined, anon. You'll always be you.

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>>38490659
I think I am trapped in a conspiracy and all of you as well.

>>38490777
The only conspiracy is how you got those digits

>>38490659
im angry, fit in nowhere, and screwed up all my social circles

no where to go, nothing to do, besides sit here and build up with anger/sadness

I'm in a dorm full of kids younger than me and I don't want to come off as a creep by hitting on a girl but I haven't been laid in like 3 years. So I'm just going to pretend it doesn't matter and blend in.

Will i ever really be happy
Please anyone can anyone tell me how to be happy im tired of being so alone. Im tired of being a reject. Im tired of not being able to move on from her even though we only really dated years ago. Why do i still love her even though she lives in a different state, got a boyfriend that looks just fucking like me but has actual goals in life, and got her own life. Why did she cheat on me so much. Im tired of pushing everyone away. Im tired of hating myself. Im tired of being so fucking obsessed with sex. Im tired of being a lazy bastard that cant do anything right. Im miserable and alone, uncared for and unloved. I just want someone to be there and ill just listen to them talk i dont care i just want somebody. Anybody. Is there anybody out there. Does anyone care. Why doesnt anyone care. Why am i so pathetic, why cant i have normal healthy friendships and relationships. Why am i always so alone. Do you guys ever wish you just completely broke down and spiraled your life out of control with alcohol drugs and prostitutes so atleast you have temporary vices to keep your mind off of how no one cares about you, and you hope that if you destroy yourself enough maybe someone might notice you and attempt to help

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>>38490859
No I think there is a Neo MK Ultra but instead it is us willingly going to them as they try to control us through the internet.

>>38490700
What do you imagine life would be like if you were to be accepted? I hope you accomplish this dream, therapy shouldn't irrevocably disqualify you

Wish I had a job

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>>38490659
I'm sick of being alone. I'll never find another relationship though since I'm such an autist and my anxiety is just a negative feedback loop that makes it worse every time I try.

>>38491005
I'll be your friend on Skype, robot. I once had an eerily similar train of thought.

>>38491263
i domt have skype but i will talk to you through messaging app or anything

>>38490659
Me,chad, Tyrone, and melo ball just got arrested for drug possession. They let us go because Tyrone had a warrant.

Bullying my imouto, my scoliosis, suicide, writing a novel

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>>38490700
>want to join the U.S. Army as a tank crewman
>too fat
>dropped out of high school because I'm too /stupid/ and autistic
>even if I fix those I'm probably disqualified because I got NEETbux and claim to be too disabled to work even though I'm just a lazy fuck and don't want to work a normal job I have no interest in

>tfw too worthless to even be insignificant army grunt #163488

>>38490738
>only $2k
You could live off that for a couple months, maybe get on NEETbux?

>>38491607
What's the topic of your novel?

Why is it so hard to find a cute trap that wants a mouthful of dick

constant fear of failing college and disappointing my parents

>>38491007
Why is this Neo MK Ultra so hellbent on controlling us?

I'm trying so hard to start my own business so I can finally move out but even when I have clients handed to me I fuck it up with my inability to communicate like a normal human being. I'm so tired of being a NEET but I lack the fundamental social skills to progress. Fucking end it already.

Just tonight? AC's busted and I can't sleep. Seriously considering getting shit-faced just so I don't have to think about it. Or at least, remember it.

I have to stay up a few more hours to get a call from a Japanese girl. so I'm in this tired haze. just want to be held and it seems like midnight is the best time to reflect on my loneliness.
I feel myself become more depressed as time goes along.

I'm so bored and feel so unfulfilled in life. I should be happy I have friends, a gf, I mostly like my work, I'm not poor but nothing makes me happy at all. I have everything I should need but I still just want it all to end.

>>38492435
You Should pretend to be a other person while you talk to your clients. or like create a professional persona. lot of weirdos and performers do it

>>38492435
I should add that the worst part is the never ending self criticism and hatred that comes after nearly every social interaction.

>>38492491
what's wrong with talking to your gf? u should just cuddle . most of us here don't have that and never will so you should appreciate having companions around u.
you'll release some serotonin too.

I wish I could go back to being in the earlier years of high school where I had very few responsibilities other than having to do homework and study for tests. I should have appreciated how simple life was during freshman and sophomore years, just staying up late playing video games and sneaking drinks from my parents' liquor cabinet.

>>38492500
I've been trying this but my brain just shuts down anytime I talk to people. Ive always had the words and I know I can speak them but my brain just stops.

>>38491981
those 2k can buy you a few months. use that time to get yourself somewhere, or at least be a little steady. you may have to work full time at a shit place, but it'll give you time to collect yourself and actually move forward in your field.

>>38490659
I'm right about 50% to a full depressive episode where I wont even be able to eat. My ex how ruined my life just messaged me and gave me an update about how her life with her new bf is going SO well. She was my high school sweet heart. We were together for five years but three months before our planned wedding she cheated on me and left me. Whats worse is im a meek submissive fuck. She utterly controlled my life. She picked out my job she forbid me from driving and drove me everywhere. Shes the one that picked out my haircuts. Everything in my life was dictated by her and I loved it. Fuck she even picked my college and major.

I cant even block her because of my mental problems. I'm Yandere as fuck the last time I tried I vomited and passed out. Woke up and didn't even know what day it was or what happened. Only realized when I saw the confirmation button to block her.

She exploited my mental problems and utterly broke me and addicted me to her then left me for this other guy who is fucking 20 years older than her.

Even worse is that no one wants me. I'm to fucking broken and have to many mental problems. No one wants to deal with all that and the ones that say they do or can handle it quickly find out they cant. I cant exist alone when I have someone all I want is them and they cant handle that level of clingyness. I legitimately freak the fuck out if they don't message me often or don't come home when I expect them to.

Maybe I should just kill myself.

>>38492527
do you think you can communicate with everyone through email for now ? I would take public speaking classes or try to think yourself out of it. I'm nervous and weird as fuck, but I fake it enough to be able to talk to normal ppl and it's enough that they accept me.
does your outward appearance affect ur horrid speaking skills ? sometimes I dress like a normie to make me feel more secure and comfortable when I confront ppl

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>>38491218
this

I really don't want to die alone

>>38492622
I mostly communicate through texts but it's a face to face ordeal whenever I give them an estimate and honestly, taking classes on how to speak might be the way to go for that. As far as appearance goes. I've dressed like a normie ever since finding men's style channels on YouTube and the confidence I once felt from it has faded.

I write shipping fanfiction. As pathetic as that it is, seeing other people get showered with praise for writing similar stuff completely destroys my confidence. Writing is pretty much the only thing people have told me I'm good at. Without that, I'm nothing

>>38492731
I would take a class or two! there are going to be other huge retards who are also terrible at speaking to people.
you felt confident before bc you didn't dress like shit anymore. now style and outward appearance isn't a thing you have to worry about at all so it doesn't matter whether or not you are proud of it

I don't have anything I'm passionate about. For a long time I thought my only talent was drawing but I'm not even any good at that and half the time I have no motivation. I've been cycling through hobbies to try to find something I'm good or at least enjoy enough to do but nothing has stuck.

I feel like I'm wasting my life not doing anything with it. People have said that everyone is talented at something but I feel like I don't have anything.

>>38490659
I don't know who I really am, so I just try and distract myself from the question until the day when it inevitably blows up in my face.

>>38492795
I guess I'll look into those classes. I'm desperate at this point so fuck it, might as well try it. Are they something you have experience with? Or know what I should expect?

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>>38490659
diz is

Random shit, really.

http://vocaroo.com/i/s1T4fsYyn6US

>>38492865
I did public speaking / mock trial in HS . I'm a college student rn. there were a few actors and a bunch of retards in the class and everyone was equally embarrassed speaking in front of everyone.
because you'll be doing with a bunch of adults who have to resort to taking a course on How to talk to ppl, everyone will be awkward and will Hate. but accept you have nothing to hide and try your best. everyone sucks so no use in trying 2 look cool .

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Tomorrow I'm going to smoke le ganja with a girl and I kinda want to cancel that shit, I'm not feeling up to anything suddenly since yesterday. No apparent reason

>>38492679
work on your serotonin depletion. if you do you'll feel warm and happier about being yourself. you only crave the attention of others for serotonin and thc , and those r things your body can make on its own.

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A bunch of drawing I need to finish by this month.

>>38493025
I would go. do U think sulking is better than smoking with a cool gal???? you have any other day 2 do nothing but reserve tomorrow for your weed date

>>38490659
nothing really. just sitting around watching animu. have nothing to do for the summer since i lost my job and school doesn't start until early august

>>38493029
if it was that easy this place wouldn't exist

>>38493030
got any lewdsof that qt

I was in a group photo recently and someone posted on twitter and a bunch of people favorited or retweeted it.

I look overweight and my hair makes me look like a fucking faggot. There are no other photos of me on the internet and now I'm worried people I haven't seen in years will see it and think "oh wow, Anon turned out to be a complete fucking weirdo, I was right!"

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>>38493095
Lewdest one, so far. Needless to say I also do furry porn.

Wondering when exactly my ex decided he didn't love me.

This keeps me up a lot.

>>38493083
>is also here
idk I read u can exercise, use bright light to avoid seasonal affective disorder & tryptophane and you always have me n other anons to talk to

>>38493141
not even a straightfag but thats VERY hot. link your profile from fa or ink or wherever

i'm scared this girl i talk to over the internet is starting to ghost me and i really like her

>>38490659
Boss is giving me fuck all hours every week. Like 3 hours a day.
It's painful getting up for 9 only to work three hours manual labor. He gives me no waiting or washing up. Plus he hired 5 other people. Kinda sucks desu. Use to be a just myself. Feels like I'm being slowly replaced.

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>>38493198
http://echoseed.tumblr.com/
One day I'll make some pixel shit indie RPG and live the NEET dream.

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>>38490685
>Go outside
>Bee yourself
>Gets stung
>Mopes in sorrow

>>38493271
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>>38490717
just feeling sorry for these Anons that came into this thread to post their thoughts and didn't get noticed. Kinda of want to post individual replies but don't wanna seem like an autist.

>>38492864
This. I feel you anon.
I spent so much time alone and with depression that I hid in public, I forgot who I really was.
Trying to find whatever that was is a fucking mess.

>>38494235
I'm lurking and I noticed each of these posts
I'm in the same situation as most of these anons, so maybe I should've responded to them

Same thoughts that have run through my mind for years now.

>alone a lot, friends keep leaving
>everyone around living normal lives
>something must be wrong with me
>depression
>guilty about being depressed for no reason
>feel guilty, weak, helpless
>inferiority complex
>anything and everything is too good for me
>no one deserves to waste their time with me
>completely withdraw from people
>years pass, social skills go to shit
Depression is sort of under control but still feel like I'm not worth the shit on your shoes. Social skills are fucked and no friends so no way to get out of loneliness. Everything just feasts on my energy, feel like I can't get anything done and pretty much everything I used to find fun still feels like nothing.

I talk to a vegan, left, maybe bisex(or even worse), tumbler blog, art student, pierced, girl i like/liked at the moment and i'm not getting smarter out of this situation.
8 years ago we were very close but i had to move and i heard only twice from her since then. Now after all that time she came back to apologies and in don't know what to make of this. Does she want me or is it just a stupid woman move to get a "friend"?

>>38494429
possibly the second guess, but you should try to find out

>>38494429
The worst part of all the things i listed are stuff i inherently dislike about her but i can overlook all these horrendous flaws just because we get along good and i like her somehow.

>>38494460
I'm unsure if its worth the effort if its just to be friends. Because that is not what i'm after and i think it will break if its just to be Friends in the end

>>38494508
Then don't put all your heart in it
I'm not good at giving advice, especially at human interaction stuff
So tell me, anon, why didn't you guys keep contact all these years?

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>>38494235
>>38494338
Thanks for noticing me
>>38494273
It always hurts when people ask what I want or tell me to just do what I want. I've been hiding myself behind a mask for so long I don't even know what I really want anymore. I just know I don't want this.

>>38494345
>>38494338
everyone deserves one reply at least. especially if you can barley get noticed OUTSIDE of /r9k/.

>>38494551
I tried to cuck her bf 8 years ago but i had to move and i'm not that big of a dick to do it. Also i had to move 600km away because of work/school. Her BF went full on retard after that and forbid her every contact with every other person. She needed 8 years to give him the boot. Maybe he gave her the boot i dont know for sure. Well and i was a little hearth broke at the beginning but i got over it pretty fast like it took 2 years. Now she came back and was like "it was my fault i'm sorry".

>>38492353
>>38491368
Even gay stoner degenerates like these should have a (you)

>>38494593
I'm gonna take your advice, kind anon

I had a dream where I danced with my oneitis.
I was so happy as it was happening, happier than I've been in a long time. I think I even said it was the best night of my life in the dream.

Never before have I felt so depressed after waking up. And just when I though I might've finally gotten over her.

>>38494711
I did not know there was such a word as oneitis but i can feel you. I sometime wish i could stay in dreamland forever.

I mostly just want to stay in bed and masturbate all day.

>>38491005
Sounds stupid, but find something you're good at, and do it.
Become obsessed.
I got a Bachelor's in philosophy, doing my Master's right now.
That certainly helped.

>>38490659
About how last night I had a sort of epiphany where I realized I wasn't really that attracted to this one girl and how I wasn't even sure what about her I found attractive.

Also, I just realized that today was the first time since meeting her almost a year ago that I didn't feel nervous, or anything at all when talking to her. Every interaction with her today felt... empty, hollow, and robotic on my part.

Those two things are just really fucking with me because I was absolutely certain there was something more. It's not a good or bad feeling, more just confused, sort of like how you sometimes just go, "Huh, weird." Maybe it's the phenibut I've been taking or the Lion's Mane extract...

I also need to clean my fucking room. Hopefully this time around I can keep it clean so when I move out of this fucking place it'll be a piece of cake.

Tomorrow should be cooler, so I'll try and knock out a good chunk tomorrow afternoon. I also need to head down to the library and get a library card. Mainly just want one so I can go down there and chill when it's too hot to be in my room all day (converted attic w/ no A/C).

I had a really gay dream and almost came from it. I would have blown my load in my underwear, but I was aware of the fact I was about to cum irl and shifted my dream to something else. Everything I used to think I knew about myself is now in question.

>>38494867
I wouldn't worry about it, I had straight dreams during ovulation and I'm still pretty fucking gay. Dreams aren't real, that's kinda the thing.

>>38494889
But if I think about it I still get hard.

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>>38494902
That's pretty frickin gay, anon.
How gay was the dream? What did you do?

>>38494793
I've lost all will to masterbate. Sometimes i think long and hard about doing it till i can't produce? But I end up holding off for a couple hours and lose the urge.
It's been 5 weeks since I last pleasured myself

>>38495015
Wow, that's pretty crazy. I can't even imagine.
Do you miss it though, or is it just like, whatever?

If you ever talk about your depression or about killing yourself, you're not depressed or suicidal.

My sister is staying with me for reasons not worth going into and after we spent all day yesterday driving around the city in brutal heat at her insistence, she kept me awake for hours while getting drunk with one of her friends. They were doing that thing where they laugh retardedly loud at something unfunny, so everybody knows they're laughing.

>>38494853
forgot to include you>>38495015
was going to say I know how you feel. ever since I held off for a week I've felt motivated.

>>38495039
Honestly? Like I said in>>38495063
I feel like doing stuff again. Exercising, Schoolwork, Cleaning. After all that's done and I sit on my parent's couch (since I have no one to socialise with) those are the moments I end up thinking about doing it. I don't know why I hold off though. I could masturbate at any time. I just... don't care for it.

>>38495056
>we should just disregard anyone who would dare speak up about depression and suicide
Well played anon.

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>>38495129
So just not much of a libido I guess? Fair enough.
Are you a girl or a guy?

>>38490659
2mg of Etiz and knowledge from a history book I'm reading. I've learned more in the span of a few days than I have in my entire time in high school.

>>38494923
I'm a little rusty on the details, and I had started to type it all out but then I figured I may not want all the little details I remember from my gay as fuck dream on 4chan and this isn't really the place for shitty gay erotica.

The tldr is that in my dream I was wearing women's clothes and cuddling with a guy I apparently loved before he told me I was beautiful and made passionate love to my asshole.

>>38495201
a guy.
>not much of a libido
the idea of sex is repulsive to me. I'm fairly young and rarely get aroused unless I force it. I think either past abuse or lack of intimacy may have made me asexual.

Should I take a shower and read a book?

I'm determined to escape from my bad habits

>>38495345
You should treat yourself to a scalding shower, letting the water hit your head and back as you lean forward against the wall and imagine a world other than our own. Begin to create a plotline in it, develop characters, themes, and at the end of each day compose a paragraph of writing about the brand new world you've created. Repeat everyday - shower time for worldbuilding, writing for keeping it all compartmentalized

>>38495286
>4chan isn't really the place for shitty gay erotica
It absolutely is.

>>38495300
Sorry to hear that anon. I guess it makes sense to dislike/not care about sex if that happened. But masturbation would still feel good I guess?

>>38493141
How long did it take you to get that good?

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>>38490659
I want to achieve things and be recognised, but I am struggling to find the means of doing so... anyone got any advice? I want to have had some impact before I leave this sorry world.

>>38495414
>It absolutely is.
I don't know about that. I don't want to be accused of spreading the gay agenda or anything.

>>38490659
that i'm a failure that has wasted so many fucking opportunities

it feels bad when you let yourself down, but i can't find the motivation to do anything

my doctor said it's probably depression, i'm thinking of getting on medication to see if it works

>>38495279
>2mg of Etiz
Make sure your tolerance doesn't balloon out of proportion, keep a keen eye on it. I've learned more from random tidbits in online posts than I have in my entire education. Doesn't take much to surpass it.

>>38495410
interesting but I don't have enough time I guess

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Traps are not gay.
You are gay for saying they are gay.

>>38490659
All of the empty idle words everybody regurgitates back and forth between one another in an effort to provide hope, comfort or even just to convey understanding, it's all blowing wind. Nothing more, nothing less.I think it's irresponsible to tell someone you don't know that you care about them and to spread false hope.I feel nothing for anybody, family, friend or otherwise. I cannot love or care about people because they are predictably programmed to be disingenuous creatures of habit. They operate under pressure and conformity within the pecking order of the food chain. Garbage eats garbage. Sin eats sin. Our brains are filthy and need to be deprogrammed in an environment as decided upon by each individual's own potential. Brainwashing has been disguised as language, force fed into the masses from birth andmust be relearned as primitive man independently. I just want to watch monkeys fly planes into buildings and old men yell at clouds. I cannot find a single person devoid of some manner offraudulence. There are too many people that are taking up space here on this planet. I completely support all methods of removal in the meantime, including castration and cannibalism. I saw an alien in the corner of my eye. It was masturbating to a picture of me.

GOOK

I have to try to make a website as close as possible to something a talented designer sketched up.
I have no idea where to begin, I wanna fuckin die.

>>38495286
Gonna have to agree with >>38494923
That is pretty frickin gay, you get any gay notions when awake at all? Or is this out of the blue?

>>38495513
I guess if we were to put what you're going through concisely, it'd be something like "meaningless isolation". You can't find any meaning in anything. You're only really seeing the truth. And you can communicate with others, but the only thing you can get out of it is that the communication happened. The meaning is gone. That's what isolates you. Meaning defines all of us. Without meaning you lack definition, become blurred, lose form. It is true that you exist, it is true that you are alive, and that you do things. But past that truth, everything is empty. Right?

>>38495512
Traps are gay you faggot, it's a trap because they look like a girl but are a dude. It's a gay trap, a trap that makes you gay.

>>38495561
Stop namefagging you attention whore fuck.

>>38495578
Make sure you bring a flashlight so you can call the police if you get lost.

>>38495591
You can keep that one you faggot.

>>38495617
Don't feel like I'm darkening the mood here, but let's not fight, okay? Or, like, lose patience with each other. 'Cause every time it always gets like that. But you know? We think differently, but that means we're good in tag-team arcade fighters. Doesn't mean we have to argue and stuff. Let's discuss stuff calmly, when we end up discussing stuff. And, let's not be afraid to speak our minds. That sounds fun, right?

>>38495641
I feel like you put too much effort into these posts anon, but sure let's discuss stuff calmly you fucking mongoloid kill yourself. <3

>>38495552
>you get any gay notions when awake at all?
Like walking around and seeing a guy and wanting him to dick me in the alley? No. I've never been much of a sexual person but I think I may have had a feeling of attraction a few times when around a man. I've fapped a few times to these kind of gay thoughts, and I frequently self insert as the woman in the vanilla porn I watch. I think the gayest thing I do on a regular basis is entertain the idea of crossdressing and getting jealous or envious over feminine qualities.

I think this is just a long slide down a slippery slope that became noticeable around a year ago. I don't even fap a lot, so I doubt it's porn addiction or whatever. I just don't know.

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>>38495513
>that wall of post
I'm>>38494235
I think as long as people know that someone out there gives a crap about them in this life, anything bad that happens in their lives will be taken with more stride. No matter how much of a piece of crap they are.
>>38495541
Just make a Fakebook or Instascam and call it a day Anon.

>>38495561
Right. That's my fate. Why pour air into my empty glass just to tell me it's empty? I guess to pass the time. Death will now come objectively sooner.

>>38495746
>the slippery slope
Negro, the slippery slope ended ages ago. You're sitting in the grass at this point. But hey. If ypu still feel like you're "questioning" take solace in the fact that you'll never know for sure until you're starring down the barrel of Bubba's long Schlong.

I should have been happy. I mean - ever since I've moved I decided to try to become a normie.
Get friends, impress the higher ups, move ahead in life. But it's all just trash.

As it turns out, I can't realise when people are angry at me. At all.
So when I make a joke, I don't realise that people laugh out of politeness, but then talk shit behind my back.

And that is how I went from having 1 friend before, to having a few to having none.

But it's fine - I'm moving ahead by getting into projects and higher positions? Right...

Maybe. Just I feel nothing. No accomplishment. I lost all my friends, girls don't want to talk to me past 10 minutes cause I say some dumb shit.

Projects generally end up as dead ends or the people backstab me and get me to do their shit work and take the blame.

It's not that I'm dumb - the successful projects are well received and are generally quite prestigious, but my life just went to shit in the last few months.

And it's not looking like it will get better.

>>38495808
>the slippery slope ended ages ago
I don't know about that. I'm not on the cock carousel or on hrt so I can always sink lower. Thanks for trying to make me feel better by reassuring me that I won't know for sure until it's time to fug.

>>38495852
>I'm not on the cock carousel
Oh good. Cousin hasn't found it yet.

>>38495889
>Cousin hasn't found it yet.
Are you trying to say my cousin is going to rape me or something?

>>38495444
It depends. What do you want? Money - I went down the path of micro business and freelancing in between as no formal education.

Sorta create a small reseller online, wait until 100 ish clients and sell. You wouldn't believe how much it makes.

If you wanna feel good, then use the money on philanthropy. Not kids with aids in Africa, but like my ex boss. He used to employ retarted kids for a few months on good pay and give them nice sounding titles and good reviews.

I've been feeling like something's wrong with me, like I'm sick or something since I've been restless every night for over a month. I went to the doctors and they did bloodwork on me and told me I was normal, I went to a neurologist who did a basic checkup and bloodwork and found nothing, yet I still feel weird.

>>38495988
You're undergoing anxiety/paranoia, maybe a few symptoms of panic attacks

>>38493306
tfw will never have a kinky qt gf/bf that spends the day drawing porn while you work and support them.

>>38490659
I'm trying to watch a movie but I can't concentrate and keep browsing youtube, 4chan and other stuff

>>38496037
Literally just smash your router against the wall

it might be the smart idea to delay my graduation for a stronger "fresh grad" resume
instead of graduating at 23 i'd graduate at 24, which basically will shatter whatever remnant of my ego i have left.

other than that the last 5 years of my life have been a mistake and i'm better off dead.

>>38494235
Thanks for noticing me senpai.
That's all that matters.

>>38496141
im going to graduate at 27 lol

I'm sick but not sure whats wrong I feel really weak and out of breath and my throat/chest hurts when i breathe its been like this for the last 2 days but gotten worse. besides that I'm lonely and bored as usual

>>38493141
>getting 32$ per month in patreon
You can live the dream, anon. You can live the dream!

>>38493029
>you only crave the attention of others for serotonin and thc
This isn't true at all

>>38496166
26 if i fall for the grad school meme
idk i'm just scared of being old without having done anything in life.

>>38496260
im going to graduate at 27 with a bachelors lol dont worry young child

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I just want to cry and scream, you know, let it all out. I want to yell how much I love my oneitis. I want to yell how much I want friends who aren't memeing assholes. I just can't since I still live with my parents.

>>38496284
imagine u r screaming inside ur head

>>38496175
Go to the doctor and have some blood drawn to make sure everything is ok

>>38496284
>I want to yell how much I love my oneitis

It will be much easier once you realise there is no love. It's just your desperation, societal programming and animalistic urges combined and directed at this unfortunate girl.

>tfw you now know that nearly all human behavior is just excuses for sex
It fucking disgusts me how people are still believing in a fucking wonderland where everything is as good as it looks

>>38496828
not that anon, but what you said helped me a little

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I wish I didn't crave the attention of people on this board, but I don't relate to the lifestyle of anyone who leaves their house regularly.

I'm lonely and my interests are all niche and weird, but even r9k folk want nothing to do with me because of my generally optimistic and chipper personality. They see it as fake or SJW-ish, but its just how I am.

powers out in my room from a rat in the wall or a loose connection somewhere. Couldnt sleep so i got up and am drinking my morning coffee. No food in the fridge but some milk. Not sure what i'll do today.

>>38491712
You caused your own misery. Instead of spending the neetbux on hentai spend it on a home gym.

Will i ever find my ideal partner?

Still can't find any goddamn friends. I've been adding people, and all of them want to talk, but I still can't actually CONNECT to anyone.

>>38497227
What are your interests? Seriosly, how niche/weird could they get?

I connected to a robot over the past few weeks and we talked fuckloads. But one day they just disappear after a nice convo that included details about meeting up.

I'm not sure if this is their way of telling me to fuck off or if they died?

>>38490659
I need a new series to binge watch

>>38497830
dunno what to say, but robots aren't that comfortable to the idea of meeting up

My parents are always on my ass because I do nothing. They say I need a hobby.
So I try game modding, but that's not good enough because I'm just wasting my life on the computer.
So I tried building Legos and other plastic models. But that's not good enough because I'm wasting my money on plastic toys.
So I sit around the house and do nothing because I'm a worthless piece of shit that can't get a job and I get told I should find a hobby.

>>38497929
They'll never be happy with you. The sooner you learn that, the better.

>>38497929
Baby boomers are generally retarded. You'd probably have to get a hobby that their shrunken brains can comprehend. Usually something physical like running or swimming.

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>>38490685
FUCKING WHHHHAAAAAATTTTT!?!?!?!?

EEEEEEEEEEWWWWWWW!!!!!

I was invited by one of my BJJ bros to come to a party with him. Haven't talked to a girl in like 3 years (19 yo), any advice for picking up chicks bros? I suppose my rating would be about average, but I'm pretty non-normie looking (buzzed and wrestling made me thicc). Can't take my KHV status much longer.

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I want to go to Japan and get a Japanese QT girlfriend, but it's unlikely to ever happen, so I just drown my sorrows in beer while listening to dadrock on SiriusXM's Classic Vinyl.

>>38494834
Im not good at anything, really. Ive always just been subpar at things, ive never excelled at anything, and im too fucking lazy to practice to improve my skills at anything

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>>38490659

My head's been hurting frequently past month Thoughts been racing a lot too
Don't drink or do drugs. Can't stop sleeping for more than 15 hours.Chest pains, but I think that's from recent lack of activity and feeling like complete shit
Feel like I should visit a doctor but also can't help thinking maybe I won't wake up one day

This is my ticket out of here suckers see ya