>Spend a month being positive
>Find this shithole
>Find a thread about a guy obsessed with his oneitis
>I'm obsessed with a girl I've only spoken too twice and will never see/hear from again
>Find my old depression playlist
>Haven't seen or heard from my family in 5 years
>The feels start coming back
>Usually I can keep them at bay with some positive affirmations and acceptance
>They don't go away
>Thoughts barrage my lonely mind
>"You've been alone for years, what makes you think tomorrow will be any different? Or the day after that, or the next day? You will always be alone"
>Thoughts and feelings become overwhelming
How the fuck do you handle getting hit by a train of emotion out of practically nowhere? This shit is fucking soul-crushing, I'm actually in pain.
Lads, I know you give no fucks about me but can we just talk for a little bit? Please? I'm dying over here.