tfw I just realised that I took the wrong path in life I could've

>>38449270
anon it is okay, the past is just history now, you can completely change a lot of things in a week or even a day if you wish, It just takes balls to stand up to the dudes who say you can't. just don't do anything rash

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Just relax anon. It is ok. I am the same. Whether it be relationships, jobs or poor life choices. I have been there. I am 22, quit the military, have no friends and have never had a gf. My cousins will not even invite me to his wedding. I only really have one peraon that still has some faith in me and that is my dad. If it was not for him i would have become an hero a long time ago. I would say "i dont know what i would do without him" but the fact is i know exactly what i would do without him. An hero. I dont have anything to really live for. Im a rent a cop at a huge retailer here in the US. I have never felt love or compassion with women. Only guttersluts and mistakes. Sex is over rated and only temporarly helps the deep inside depression, sex with random 5/10 women only makes your mental condition worse over time. Nobody calls me to just talk anymore, not ky sister, not my neice and my cousins have just stopped talking to me. I guess i will be ok tho, as long as my dad is around.

>>38449311
I had a scholarship in my country Ukraine to study biology, but I decided to continue my studies in UK doing physics.

Things were too harsh on me, as first time being independent, I was struggling so hard with everything, I lost 2 years of college, but I learned how to deal with my problems and manage my life, and I love physics and very good at it, and succeeded with great grades.

But a friend of mine who is one year younger studied two years in Ukraine and signed her third year in UK, now she's on her 3rd year and me in my 2nd year.

I've realised that I lost two years of my life, and If I did like her it would be much easier. I was blind behind my stupid ambitions.

I wish, I really wish if I could get back in time

I just try to not look back, there is no point

>>38449270
Just drink, my dude.

Man, I don't think a lot of us would even be here if we hadn't taken some wrong turns in life. I feel you. Lot of shit I regret doing, lot of shit I regret not doing, and a whole lot of anxiety about the future. Shit sucks. Might seem like kind of a weak argument, but hey, things could've been worse just as easily as they could've been better.

So what happened anon? Where do you think you went wrong?

>>38449270
Replace it with the horrifying feeling that given the exact same state of circumstances you would have made the same decisions...

>>38449364
>Nobody calls me to just talk anymore, not ky sister, not my neice and my cousins have just stopped talking to me
I just realized that the same happens to me, last time i had some smalltalk was the typical stuff at the counter when you buy something

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>>38449526
Yes. That is how it starts. People will just randomly stop talking to you, then when you see them in person/ run into them at the store they act like everything is the same. Feelsbadman.

>>38449483
This>>38449423

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I have a lot of realizations like this, I assume everyone does, ultimately I just find it really funny in the end and go back to going on back to it. Jobs, relationships, careers, money, legacies, none of this matters in the end beyond what you get out of it while it's going on, working for the future is advisable but not preferable if your swapping out time for resources. Do it that way and you'll focus everything on one thing, and the saddest part will be that you'll be looking back on things without any grey area between regretting doing something and regretting not doing something. The only way you can asses your life is after everything is finished, so instead living in pain for that big moment of happiness that may not even come, take it slow, and enjoy the ride. I really mean that, every sight, smell, sound, experience, interaction, it's all so easy to take for granted when going about your business, but for a moment ignore that game and remember that you're supposed to be alive, not living life.

I didn't think such an outlook was important until being terminally ill, and realizing just how wonderful and hilarious existence is. Who gives a shit about death like it's some ultimate frontier when what's going on right now is a million times crazier, stranger and esoteric than not existing at all.