WHAT THE FUCK NIGGERS, IS LOVE A MEME I'm lost. I never

>>38437051
>last full day rolls around, and all the others head over to a guy's house for a party, except L and myself. we stay on campus, lying in the grass laughing at tariq nasheed's idiocy, listening to night vale
>never in my life have I told someone how I feel. never talk to my parents about girls, never to my friends, nothing. closest approximation is hugging my parents or saying "love you" when walking out the door
>we just cuddle, my arms around her, her leg entwined in mine
>ive never felt so... fuck, i dont know how to put it. it was bittersweet - the sadness of the afternoon just made it all the more perfect and valuable
>even was funny when my low blood iron made me faint when i stood up
>go back to the dorm for floor meeting, and then simply meet up on the next floor up to hug and cry
>we finally kiss - i've dreamt of nothing since then, both of us just sobbed on the couch in each other's arms
>and we both had to leave the next morning
>never even had the chance to say goodbye in person. i live in new zealand, she lives in california
we still talk over snapchat, and its only with her that I ever feel complete.
I didnt know this was a real thing - I thought this was all a meme and I feel empty. no one where I live has any opinions about anything, theyre all vapid, boring normies. it's like some gay romance movie shit and I can't stop fucking dreaming about her. she told me earlier today (maybe yesterday?) that she thought i was there when she heard a guy on the radio with a similar accent, and it made her cry. my heart has wrung itself out, but i'm just sorta numb. Do i try to have a long distance relationship, or just sorta stay in touch but not actually be "dating?"
>one day, robots, we're going to see each other again, I think. she might be prosecuting me for crimes against humanity or some shit but I don't care

If any of you ever meet someone like this, please, please don't waste the chance. I know it sounds frivolous and I know it sounds stupid but it's worth it. Meeting someone you can truly say you're happy to be around can change your life.
Also, please don't give me your "NOT A REAL ROBOT REEEEEEEE" shit you autistic avocado-complexion niggers

You may as well keep in touch regardless. If you really like her, than maybe try long distance, but try not to be too upset if it doesn't work out.

Btw, how old are you that you were just attending an SAT class?

>>38437061
>>38437051
lol kill yourself you retarded fag.Crying over some slut that has fucked a thousand guys before you.

>>38437156
18, already at Auckland University but I've still gotta do it for a transfer to Caltech

>>38437209
>being this immature
holyyy fuck arent you insightful for escaping the bounds of biology and seeing through to the (((other side)))
nigger dont you think that if that was a thing then (((they))) wouldn't be getting married?

You're a teenager, probably fucking underage. Your first romantic experience is going to naturally feel overwhelming, unique, and impossible to match. The truth is that there is no 'the one', you and this girl probably would not form a lifelong relationship even if you lived near each other, and given that you were able to seduce this girl you can probably seduce others in the future who do live nearby.

It's also the case that long distance relationships are fucking dogshit. They simply do not work. No matter how much hormonal attraction and crushing you two have for each other right now, it's going to fade in an LDR, and fast. One of you is going to meet someone in person who strikes their fancy someday before too long, and then it'll be over.

All that being said, if you really want to try to make something work with her, then you need to arrange that one of you moves to the other one's location ASAP. You're about to enter college; this is the perfect opportunity to move close to each other. But understand that even if you take that gigantic leap, it probably won't work out in the long term.

Also, read the graphic novel Blankets. It's about a similar situation and is generally very good.

>>38437379
Yeah, i know you're probably right. Pragmatically, I think the best thing to do is to just stay in touch but not have a relationship