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Hey robots,
my affliction? Being chronically lazy. This isn't any depression bullshit, this is just a personal failure on my part. I never did homework in school, I never wanted to, I've actually never wanted to do anything but sit in front of the PC and/or play vidya.
Now, that's not to say I don't want to become something in life. I want to study, but fuck, I never have the motivation to do the actual studying, sitting down after class and doing anything at all. I also barely clean my place after me. I've been like this for as long as I can remember.
It seems I can only actually do something when there's an enormous pressure to do so. Like going to work, otherwise I'm fired. Or cleaning up the place before someone visits me. Heck, even responding to any message at all, either on Faecebook or text message, is a ton of effort for me.
I don't understand how others can go out, study every day, exercise, and just do some productive shit, instead of cancering my life away in front of the computer. I DO want a more "proper" life, in terms of actually doing something with my life, everything from keeping my place clean to getting a degree, but my willpower doesn't exist. I don't understand why it doesn't exist either, since my parents tried to make me used to do work, like many afternoon classes throughout my childhood.
How do I solve this? Can I ever live life without thinking that anything but playing vidya is effort?
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>>38407356
>I don't understand how others can go out, study every day, exercise, and just do some productive shit, instead of cancering my life away in front of the computer.
They have dreams and goals.
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>>38407356
I've seen many posts on here that I related to but none have truly resonated with me like this one has
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>>38407377
I do too, though. I wish to get a degree, getting a good job, buy my own house, exercise every day at 6 am, maybe even starting my own family.
As I wake up one day, though, well I don't have a clue. Why don't I go to the library and read, even though I want that degree? I'm uncertain if I just keep forgetting I want all those dreams.
But I think it's more that, well, everything seems boring almost and an effort. I don't know how to explain it, I do think "I should study today".
Sometimes, I even do go to the library and study. But sitting down with the book, I can't keep focus, I'm bored af. I keep looking around me, I keep wanting to take breaks. Every hour is a struggle. Like watching the time go by when you're desperately ready to finish work.
And just like with exercise. I can make myself go a couple of times, but after those I just slip into this lazy mindset, that I CBA. Maybe it's a lack of self-discipline, but how do I get self-discipline?
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>>38407507
>I wish to get a degree, getting a good job, buy my own house, exercise every day at 6 am, maybe even starting my own family.
Maybe these are not your desires but things others wish you'd have.
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>>38407541
Maybe. But what the heck else would I want? I don't want to be a neckbeard NEET. If not a good job, have my own house, then what else could I want? I don't want to end up in a soul-sucking job (being a cashier at a grocery store for a while has definitely taught me that I want to spend 8 hours a day doing something more fulfilling and less repetitive).
I think I want to become a teacher of some sorts, but even that requires a degree. I am sure I'd like to travel around the world, maybe even live abroad for some years. But I need money for that.
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