How come I have no drive to pursue women and prefer porn? Even

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How come I have no drive to pursue women and prefer porn? Even though girls still like me, and not just average ones, but quite attractive ones sometimes, I still prefer watching porn and not chasing them for sex.

Here's some background on me if it helps with giving advice.
>I just turned 18 and graduated high school.
>I've never had a girlfriend, nor had sex. I've kissed one girl.
>I've never asked out a girl on a date.
>I've been watching porn since I was 11 years old and masturbating daily, with or without it.
>In high school, I didn't go to any parties or drink or do drugs. I completely focused on my schoolwork, and fitness after that.
>I got accepted into the best college in my state and will be attending in the Fall.
>I used to be fat until around age 15, which was when I started training seriously.
>I only noticed girls giving me attention this last year, my senior year of high school.
>Usually I'm turned on when I imagine fucking a girl I believe I have no chance with. For example, I'd jerk off to the thought of fucking this big breasted red head in my class. But when I found out she actually really liked me, I couldn't get off to the thought of fucking her anymore. And this has happened multiple times as well.