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This is my story
Im 31 yo. I live in south america.
I was sexually abused when i was 5 by some gay guy (friend of the family) who "take care of me" when my mother was working.
I was sexually abused again at 7 by my sister.
I grew up hearing things like "fat ass, faggot, good for nothing" by my mother.
My father died when i was 13, he wasnt a bad guy at all i guess, he was alcoholic and illiterate, but he never hit me, or abuse me or anything. He was really old tho like when i was 13 he was 67yo.
Recently my only gf/fiance broke up with me (8 years relationship), i lost my job due a psychotic breakdown, i have no friends, im alone, broke, and I cry every night.
Im going to the shrink once a week, hes a cool guy, he really taught me about relationships, and to be at peace with myself, but I dont have the will anymore. I dont want to deal with people anymore. I dont have the strenght to overcome these feeling, I cant find any job. Im lying to my mother about how i feel. Im just think about getting a gun and kill myself. I want to rest, i want to sleep and i dont wake up anymore.
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>>38401440
I've read that there is a lot of child sex abuse in south america. Sorry you've gone through all that...Come to America, its way better
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>mother calls you fat ass faggot
Everything seems to be in order here
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>>38401440
Is there any area of your life you're happy about, where things are going fine?
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>>38401440
I'm 32 and I've never even kissed or held hands
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>>38401474
Thanks anon. One of my dreams is that, but i have no education, just a highschool diploma.
>>38401535
After the psychotic breakdown, the relation with my mother really improves, shes the only thing that holds me to kill myself like if i kill myself she would be devastated.
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>>38401561
Are you hideous? Do you have the change to do that and you blew it up?
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>>38401642
I wasn't really ugly, but I had crooked teeth and wore glasses and was really insecure about it. I was too afraid to smile or open my mouth so I avoided people as much as possible.
Now my teeth are fixed and I got laser surgery for my eyesight. I finally am more confident but I'm really lost now.
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>>38401440
things can get better, just try to eat healthy and drink enough water to keep you healthy in hopes of getting a job, try to consider jobs you have never thought much of before but you may be interested in, if you are this desperate. If you dont want to deal with people any more maybe there are certain jobs away from people, in a country side or something.
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>>38401840
Just keep trying anon. You surely will find a qt3.14.
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>>38401440
Just have sex with as many shemale prostitutes you can until you contract super aids and die in your sleep.
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