Did you isolate yourself because you were mentally ill or the

I have no self-restraint and I'm not interested in building any lmao

You just restated the same thing twice

you mean "did you become mentally ill because you isolated yourself or did you isolate yourself because you were mentally ill"

And the answer is I don't even know anymore

Personality disorders are a mental illness.

I'm a schizoid so yeah it's impacted on my ability to do anything in life, even simple things in life like going outside or to a shopping center, let alone having relationships or working a job.

I'm 30 now, only just started seeing a clinical psychologist for this a few months ago, but I've already had tests done with a specialist the psychologists sent me to and I've been diagnosed.

Going to be applying for autism bux this week as the 2 psychologists who I've been seen have both recommended I apply. Their giving me their written reports this week ( the shit I have to hand in with my autism bux application).

>>38400375
Like almost all versions of this question, nature vs nurture, the answer is yes.

I didn't isolate myself the normals isolated me. I guess they figured I wasn't worth keeping around so after highschool I was all but kicked out of society.

That was almost 10 years ago, I can hardly remember what it felt like to be human.

I don't have any relationships because I can function without any. thank god for spergs
I am a walking talking skeleton with a brain made of spaghetti and a heart made of ravioli

>>38400375
my brain is a self defeating thought hive

>>38400619
What country are you in anon? I desperately want to get tested by a psychologist because I know for a fact I have something like this. Was even thrown into psycho kids school inside of a hospital and later put in to a behavioural intervention program all throughout school. I've been socially isolated my entire life and now think of suicide ever single day while trying to drink it away in my late 20s and forced social interaction at work is killing me. At this point I just want the bux and to isolate myself completely. Either that or I suicide.

>>38400375
I live in a small town (prison) so im forced too i actually feel like shit if i dont hang out with people. I really want to live inside a city i guess all small towns and the suburbs are the same as this but probably not even half as bad. Have to drive to go see people but i have to drive 45 minutes its fucking INSANE get me out

>>38400789
a thot hive if you will

People excluded me and bullied me as a child which gave me a personality disorder, which now makes me isolate myself.

>>38400987
kinda this people would come over but i isolated myself

Having a personality disorder and isolating yourself is seen as a self-harming behavior, for those who were involuntary isolated by society do you feel like it has been damaging to your mental health?

>>38400619
21 year old schizoid, what are my chances of 'improving' at all by the time I'm your age?
Will I still be on autism bux?

>>38400375
my mental illness gave me a personality disorder. i wasn't even aware i purposely making my life more miserable and then isolating myself cause depression that my life is a failure that will never be able to connect with someone 100%

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>>38400375
i isolate myself because i was mentally ill

or at least i'm convinced i am mentally ill

i have an unhealthy attraction to anime characters and i haven't been able to get a girlfriend yet

the fact that I have an unhealthy attraction to animes is why I've locked myself out from pursuing anyone IRL, because I'm starting to actually enjoy the loneliness

all my friends are making out with their GFs and doing fun GF things and i long for that, but at the very least i can keep pitifully telling myself "a-at least i have muh waifu" and fantasize about them since i'm so unlikely to get anyone irl due to both being below average on the attractiveness scale and a nignog

>>38400891
Australia.

>>38402101
It doesn't get better with age, age 20-35 is usually the worst time for people with this.

I just think a lot of people are fucking stupid and I don't want to talk to them. Worked at a gas station and almost every customer was stupid.
>"do you have the chip? "
'if you look closely you can clearly see the the five notes on they keypad saying we don't use the chip. Furthermore this is your fifth time in here since I've been employed so I'm sure by now you can comprehend that we do not, indeed, use the chip'

Got fired. Fuck customer service

i was diagnosed with psychosis at 17 and it's been about 2 months since i've seen my therapist
and ive stopped taking my medication
i've gotten marginally more fucked up

I Isolated my self way by my own choice and this was way before i was diagnosed
I just dont like people

Ive isolated myself because im in the processes of deleting myself socially before I end it.
I don't want anyone to miss me or question why I did it.

>>38400375
I stopped giving a shit about the outside world

>>38400619
>>38402805

Are they just throwing bucks at you and giving up on you, or do you have some sort of treatment plan?


I got diagnosed with major depression and social anxiety disorder, but the report also mentioned the possibility of schizoid personality disorder.

Did you take an IQ test too? I got a 115 on the test, but I feel too stupid to succeed in the hyper competitive economy this country has now.

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>>38400375
Personality disorder, I have AvPD.

>>38404888
I have a treatment plan but it's a very long and slow process since the information on how to "cure" it doesn't really exist, there's not much that can be done. I'm not on any drugs as the doctors working with me don't believe I need them as they wont get rid of the SPD, the drugs are useful for depression/anxiety caused by the SPD, but the SPD remains and generally becomes stronger over time.

I don't want to go out with my psychologist on trips, or go-to social gatherings with other people, that's how all people with SPD are.

Yeah I had intelligence test, scored 78/85 on mine. The 78 was overall, the 85 was for functional ability or something.

>>38400375
I just stressed too much in school , i always wanted to get the best grades possible and my grades started to drop a bit , i litrelly walked into my room and refused to leave. thisi is how im here.

>>38404976
>scored 78/85 on mine
Did that score come with a percentile rank?

A 115 on the test I took put me in the 84th percentile. 16% still scored better than me. Literally trash. I had some high scores in some areas, but very average ones in others.

>don't want to go out with my psychologist on trips, or go-to social gatherings with other people,

Yeah, I dislike the idea of forced outings. I feel like my failure socially is because I'm a weirdo. As if forcing things is going to help!

I've liked going to some social gatherings, but I prefer keeping to myself most of the time

I guess i was what you would call a normie at one time with a gf and some of friends. But later i started to realize it was all just fake bullshit that people pull to just gain something from the other person. There always is a motive. I hate humans.

>>38400375
I would really like to hang out with people my age, but I've become so used to being alone, it's difficult for me to put myself out there when I can just use drugs in my room by myself and shitpost.

It doesn't help once you're established as the crazy one among the normies either. I can get along great with hippie acidheads because they're usually as fucked up as me.

>>38405511
The kids in my program at school here are some of the sweetest, most innocent young people I've hung out with since... ever. My high school class was sort of the same deal. They were good kids even if they all thought I was insane. I'm sure their parents told them to stay away.

I've hung out with the dregs, man. I mean, junkie squatters, all varieties of dealers and dumpster-divers. I hope I have a long life of this.

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>>38400375
I decided to isolate myself because i was sick and tired of people in general most people i have met so far are either vapid or just the equivalent of absolute shit and i hate all of them i have every single fucking one of them and im telling the truth

>>38400375
socializing made me uncomfortable no matter how often i went out so i stopped going.